The Reign of Brainwash: Dystopia Box Set. Эдгар Аллан По

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СКАЧАТЬ Winston, that the past has real existence?"

      Again the feeling of helplessness descended upon Winston. His eyes flitted toward the dial. He not only did not know whether "yes" or "no" was the answer that would save him from pain; he did not even know which answer he believed to be the true one.

      O'Brien smiled faintly. "You are no metaphysician, Winston," he said. "Until this moment you had never considered what is meant by existence. I will put it more precisely. Does the past exist concretely, in space? Is there somewhere or other a place, a world of solid objects, where the past is still happening?"

      "No."

      "Then where does the past exist, if at all?"

      "In records. It is written down."

      "In records. And—?"

      "In the mind. In human memories."

      "In memory. Very well, then. We, the Party, control all records, and we control all memories. Then we control the past, do we not?"

      "But how can you stop people remembering things?" cried Winston, again momentarily forgetting the dial. "It is involuntary. It is outside oneself. How can you control memory? You have not controlled mine!"

      O'Brien's manner grew stern again. He laid his hand on the dial.

      "On the contrary," he said, "you have not controlled it. That is what has brought you here. You are here because you have failed in humility, in self-discipline. You would not make the act of submission which is the price of sanity. You preferred to be a lunatic, a minority of one. Only the disciplined mind can see reality, Winston. You believe that reality is something objective, external, existing in its own right. You also believe that the nature of reality is self-evident. When you delude yourself into thinking that you see something, you assume that everyone else sees the same thing as you. But I tell you, Winston, that reality is not external. Reality exists in the human mind, and nowhere else. Not in the individual mind, which can make mistakes, and in any case soon perishes; only in the mind of the Party, which is collective and immortal. Whatever the Party holds to be truth is truth. It is impossible to see reality except by looking through the eyes of the Party. That is the fact that you have got to relearn, Winston. It needs an act of self-destruction, an effort of the will. You must humble yourself before you can become sane."

      He paused for a few moments, as though to allow what he had been saying to sink in.

      "Do you remember," he went on, "writing in your diary, 'Freedom is the freedom to say that two plus two make four'?"

      "Yes," said Winston.

      O'Brien held up his left hand, its back toward Winston, with the thumb hidden and the four fingers extended.

      "How many fingers am I holding up, Winston?"

      "Four."

      "And if the Party says that it is not four but five—then how many?"

      "Four."

      The word ended in a gasp of pain. The needle of the dial had shot up to fifty-five. The sweat had sprung out all over Winston's body. The air tore into his lungs and issued again in deep groans which even by clenching his teeth he could not stop. O'Brien watched him, the four fingers still extended. He drew back the lever. This time the pain was only slightly eased.

      "How many fingers, Winston?"

      "Four."

      The needle went up to sixty.

      "How many fingers, Winston?"

      "Four! Four! What else can I say? Four!"

      The needle must have risen again, but he did not look at it. The heavy, stern face and the four fingers filled his vision. The fingers stood up before his eyes like pillars, enormous, blurry, and seeming to vibrate, but unmistakably four.

      "How many fingers, Winston?"

      "Four! Stop it, stop it! How can you go on? Four! Four!"

      "How many fingers, Winston?"

      "Five! Five! Five!"

      "No, Winston, that is no use. You are lying. You still think there are four. How many fingers, please?"

      "Four! Five! Four! Anything you like. Only stop it, stop the pain!"

      Abruptly he was sitting up with O'Brien's arm round his shoulders. He had perhaps lost consciousness for a few seconds. The bonds that had held his body down were loosened. He felt very cold, he was shaking uncontrollably, his teeth were chattering, the tears were rolling down his cheeks. For a moment he clung to O'Brien like a baby, curiously comforted by the heavy arm round his shoulders. He had the feeling that O'Brien was his protector, that the pain was something that came from outside, from some other source, and that it was O'Brien who would save him from it.

      "You are a slow learner, Winston," said O'Brien gently.

      "How can I help it?" he blubbered. "How can I help seeing what is in front of my eyes? Two and two are four."

      "Sometimes, Winston. Sometimes they are five. Sometimes they are three. Sometimes they are all of them at once. You must try harder. It is not easy to become sane."

      He laid Winston down on the bed. The grip on his limbs tightened again, but the pain had ebbed away and the trembling had stopped, leaving him merely weak and cold. O'Brien motioned with his head to the man in the white coat, who had stood immobile throughout the proceedings. The man in the white coat bent down and looked closely into Winston's eyes, felt his pulse, laid an ear against his chest, tapped here and there; then he nodded to O'Brien.

      "Again," said O'Brien.

      The pain flowed into Winston's body. The needle must be at seventy, seventy-five. He had shut his eyes this time. He knew that the fingers were still there, and still four. All that mattered was somehow to stay alive until the spasm was over. He had ceased to notice whether he was crying out or not. The pain lessened again. He opened his eyes. O'Brien had drawn back the lever.

      "How many fingers, Winston?"

      "Four. I suppose there are four. I would see five if I could. I am trying to see five."

      "Which do you wish: to persuade me that you see five, or really to see them?"

      "Really to see them."

      "Again," said O'Brien.

      Perhaps the needle was at eighty—ninety. Winston could only intermittently remember why the pain was happening. Behind his screwed-up eyelids a forest of fingers seemed to be moving in a sort of dance, weaving in and out, disappearing behind one another and reappearing again. He was trying to count them, he could not remember why. He knew only that it was impossible to count them, and that this was somehow due to the mysterious identity between five and four. The pain died down again. When he opened his eyes it was to find that he was still seeing the same thing. Innumerable fingers, like moving trees, were still streaming past in either direction, crossing and recrossing. He shut his eyes again.

      "How many fingers am I holding up, Winston?"

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