THE JAMES JOYCE COLLECTION - 5 Books in One Edition. James Joyce

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      — So you may as well admit, Heron went on, that we’ve fairly found you out this time. You can’t play the saint on me any more, that’s one sure five.

      A soft peal of mirthless laughter escaped from his lips and, bending down as before, he struck Stephen lightly across the calf of the leg with his cane, as if in jesting reproof.

      Stephen’s moment of anger had already passed. He was neither flattered nor confused but simply wished the banter to end. He scarcely resented what had seemed to him at first a silly indelicateness for he knew that the adventure in his mind stood in no danger from their words: and his face mirrored his rival’s false smile.

      — Admit! repeated Heron, striking him again with his cane across the calf of the leg.

      The stroke was playful but not so lightly given as the first one had been. Stephen felt the skin tingle and glow slightly and almost painlessly; and bowing submissively, as if to meet his companion’s jesting mood, began to recite the Confiteor. The episode ended well for both Heron and Wallis laughed indulgently at the irreverence.

      The confession came only from Stephen’s lips and, while they spoke the words, a sudden memory had carried him to another scene called up, as if by magic, at the moment when he had noted the faint cruel dimples at the corners of Heron’s smiling lips and had felt the familiar stroke of the cane against his calf and had heard the familiar word of admonition:

      — Admit.

      It was towards the close of his first term in the college when he was in number six. His sensitive nature was still smarting under the lashes of an undivined and squalid way of life. His soul was still disquieted and cast down by the dull phenomenon of Dublin. He had emerged from a two years’ spell of revery to find himself in the midst of a new scene, every event and figure of which affected him intimately, disheartened him or allured and, whether alluring or disheartening, filled him always with unrest and bitter thoughts. All the leisure which his school life left him was passed in the company of subversive writers whose jibes and violence of speech set up a ferment in his brain before they passed out of it into his crude writings.

      The essay was for him the chief labour of his week and every Tuesday, as he marched from home to the school, he read his fate in the incidents of the way, pitting himself against some figure ahead of him and quickening his pace to outstrip it before a certain goal was reached or planting his steps scrupulously in the spaces of the patchwork of the footpath and telling himself that he would be first and not first in the weekly essay.

      On a certain Tuesday the course of his triumphs was rudely broken. Mr Tate, the English master, pointed his finger at him and said bluntly:

      — This fellow has heresy in his essay.

      A hush fell on the class. Mr Tate did not break it but dug with his hand between his crossed thighs while his heavily starched linen creaked about his neck and wrists. Stephen did not look up. It was a raw spring morning and his eyes were still smarting and weak. He was conscious of failure and of detection, of the squalor of his own mind and home, and felt against his neck the raw edge of his turned and jagged collar.

      A short loud laugh from Mr Tate set the class more at ease.

      — Perhaps you didn’t know that, he said.

      — Where? asked Stephen.

      Mr Tate withdrew his delving hand and spread out the essay.

      — Here. It’s about the Creator and the soul. Rrm… rrm… rrm… Ah! without a possibility of ever approaching nearer. That’s heresy.

      Stephen murmured:

      — I meant without a possibility of ever reaching.

      It was a submission and Mr Tate, appeased, folded up the essay and passed it across to him, saying:

      — O… Ah! ever reaching. That’s another story.

      But the class was not so soon appeased. Though nobody spoke to him of the affair after class he could feel about him a vague general malignant joy.

      A few nights after this public chiding he was walking with a letter along the Drumcondra Road when he heard a voice cry:

      — Halt!

      He turned and saw three boys of his own class coming towards him in the dusk. It was Heron who had called out and, as he marched forward between his two attendants, he cleft the air before him with a thin cane in time to their steps. Boland, his friend, marched beside him, a large grin on his face, while Nash came on a few steps behind, blowing from the pace and wagging his great red head.

      As soon as the boys had turned into Clonliffe Road together they began to speak about books and writers, saying what books they were reading and how many books there were in their fathers’ bookcases at home. Stephen listened to them in some wonderment for Boland was the dunce and Nash the idler of the class. In fact after some talk about their favourite writers Nash declared for Captain Marryat who, he said, was the greatest writer.

      — Fudge! said Heron. Ask Dedalus. Who is the greatest writer, Dedalus?

      Stephen noted the mockery in the question and said:

      — Of prose do you mean?

      — Yes.

      — Newman, I think.

      — Is it Cardinal Newman? asked Boland.

      — Yes, answered Stephen.

      The grin broadened on Nash’s freckled face as he turned to Stephen and said:

      — And do you like Cardinal Newman, Dedalus?

      — O, many say that Newman has the best prose style, Heron said to the other two in explanation. Of course he’s not a poet.

      — And who is the best poet, Heron? asked Boland.

      — Lord Tennyson, of course, answered Heron.

      — O, yes, Lord Tennyson, said Nash. We have all his poetry at home in a book.

      At this Stephen forgot the silent vows he had been making and burst out:

      — Tennyson a poet! Why, he’s only a rhymester!

      — O, get out! said Heron. Everyone knows that Tennyson is the greatest poet.

      — And who do you think is the greatest poet? asked Boland, nudging his neighbour.

      — Byron, of course, answered Stephen.

      Heron gave the lead and all three joined in a scornful laugh.

      — What are you laughing at? asked Stephen.

      — You, said Heron. Byron the greatest poet! He’s only a poet for uneducated people.

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