Displacement Stories of Identity and Belonging. Andrea Levy

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Alan Bennett with his mysterious little brown bag didn’t impress her at all. She preferred the photograph of David Beckham. Germaine Greer made her top lip curl and as for A.S. Byatt, she laughed out loud. “This is child make this?”

      We were almost creating a scene. Laylor couldn’t keep her voice down and people were beginning to watch us. I wanted to be released from my obligation.

      “Look, let me buy us both a cup of tea,” I said. “Then I can give you back your money.”

      She brought out her handful of change again as we sat down at a table – eagerly passing it across for me to take some for the tea.

      “No, I’ll get this,” I said.

Her money jangled like a win on a slot machine as she tipped it back into her pocket. When I got back with the teas, I pushed over the twenty-pences I owed her. She began playing with them on the tabletop – pushing one around the other two in a figure of eight. Suddenly she leant towards me as if there were a conspiracy between us and said, “I like art.” With that announcement a light briefly came on in those dull eyes to suggest that she was no more than eighteen. A student, perhaps.

      “Where are you from?” I asked.

      “Uzbekistan,” she said.

      Was that the Balkans? I wasn’t sure. “Where is that?”

      She licked her finger, then with great concentration drew an outline on to the tabletop. “This is Uzbekistan,” she said. She licked her finger again to carefully plop a wet dot on to the map saying, “And I come from here – Tashkent.”

“And where is all this?” I said, indicating the area around the little map with its slowly evaporating borders and town. She screwed up her face as if to say ‘nowhere’.

      “Are you on holiday?” I asked.

      She nodded.

      “How long are you here for?”

      Leaning her elbows on the table she took a sip of her tea. “Ehh, it is bitter!” she shouted.

      “Put some sugar in it,” I said, pushing the sugar sachets toward her.

She was reluctant. “Is for free?” she asked.

      “Yes, take one.”

The sugar spilled as she clumsily opened the packet. I laughed it off but she, with the focus of a prayer, put her cup up to the edge of the table and swept the sugar into it with the side of her hand. The rest of the detritus that was on the tabletop fell into the tea as well. Some crumbs, a tiny scrap of paper and a curly black hair floated on the surface of her drink. I felt sick as she put the cup back to her mouth.

      “Pour that one away, I’ll get you another one.”

Just as I said that a young boy arrived at our table and stood legs astride before her. He pushed down the hood on his padded coat. His head was curious – flat as a cardboard cut-out – with hair stuck to his sweaty forehead in black curlicues. And his face was as doggedly determined as two fists raised. They began talking in whatever language it was they spoke. Laylor’s tone was pleading; the boy’s aggrieved. Laylor took the money from her pocket and held it up to him. She slapped his hand away when he tried to wrest all the coins from her palm. Then, as abruptly as he had appeared, he left. Laylor called something after him. Everyone turned to stare at her, except the boy, who just carried on.

      “Who was that?”

      With the teacup resting on her lip, she said, “My brother. He want to know where we sleep tonight.”

“Oh yes, where’s that?” I was rummaging through the contents of my bag for a tissue, so it was casually asked.

      “It’s square we have slept before.”

      “Which hotel is it?” I thought of the Russell Hotel, that was on a square – uniformed attendants, bed-turning-down facilities, old-world style.

      She was picking the curly black hair off her tongue when she said, “No hotel, just the square.”

It was then I began to notice things I had not seen before… dirt under each of her chipped fingernails, the collar of her blouse crumpled and unironed, a tiny cut on her cheek, a fringe that looked to have been cut with blunt nail clippers. I found a tissue and used it to wipe my sweating palms.

      “How do you mean, just the square?”

“We sleep out in the square,” she said. She spread her hands to suggest the lie of her bed.

      “Outside?”

      She nodded.

      “Tonight?”

      “Yes.”

The memory of the bitter cold still tingled at my fingertips as I said, “Why?”

      It took her no more than two breaths to tell me the story. She and her brother had had to leave their country, Uzbekistan, when their parents – who were journalists – were arrested. It was arranged very quickly – friends of their parents acquired passports for them and put them on to a plane. They had been in England for three days but they knew no one here. This country was just a safe place. Now all the money they had could be lifted in the palm of a hand to a stranger in a toilet. So they were sleeping rough – in the shelter of a square, covered in blankets, on top of some cardboard.

At the next table a woman was complaining loudly that there was too much froth on her coffee. Her companion was relating the miserable tale of her daughter’s attempt to get into publishing. What did they think about the strange girl sitting opposite me? Nothing. Only I knew what a menacing place Laylor’s world had become.

      She’d lost a tooth. I noticed the ugly gap when she smiled at me saying, “I love London.”

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