Название: We
Автор: Yevgeny Zamyatin
Издательство: Ingram
Жанр: Контркультура
isbn: 9781838850593
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This I simply cannot comprehend. No matter how limited their capacity for reason may have been, still – how could they fail to see that that way of life was a form of mass murder, only committed slowly, day in and day out? Their state (out of ‘humaneness’) forbade the killing of individuals and yet it allowed the half-killing of millions of people at once. Killing one person, that is, decreasing the length of one human life by fifty years, was considered a crime but decreasing the length of all human lives by 50 million years was not. Isn’t that funny? Today, any ten-year-old number can solve this ethical maths problem in thirty seconds, while they couldn’t manage to solve it at all with all of their Kants put together (because not one of their Kants thought to create a truly scientific system of ethics, i.e. based on addition, subtraction, multiplication and division).
And isn’t it just as absurd that the state (while daring to call itself a state!) took no control over people’s sex lives? With them, it was whoever, whenever and however much they wanted – like wild animals, wholly unscientific. Then, just like animals, they would proceed to blindly birth children. Isn’t it completely ridiculous that even when they were capable of breeding crops, poultry and fish (we have clear data indicating they knew how to do all this), they still failed to reach the final rung on the logical ladder: i.e. breeding children? How could they fail to arrive at our Maternal and Paternal Norms?!
It’s all so ridiculous, so difficult to believe, that I’ve written this down and now I’m afraid: what if you, unknown readers, take me for some mean-spirited joker? What if you think that I’m just making fun of you, pulling your leg with a straight face?
But, first of all: I am incapable of joking. For the implicit function of every joke is a lie. Second of all, this really is how the Ancients lived according to One State Science, and One State Science cannot make mistakes. Besides, how could the state have been logical while people still lived in a state of freedom i.e. wild animals, monkeys and herds? What can you expect from people back then when even today, in our era, somewhere deep inside, in the furry depths, you can still hear the wild echo of apes?
Luckily, only rarely. Luckily, these are just tiny breakdowns of minor parts: easy to fix without stalling the great, perpetual progress of the entire Machine. We have the nimble, heavy hand of the Benefactor and the experienced eyes of the Guardians to scrap any bolts that get bent out of shape . . .
Speaking of which, I just remembered: that number from yesterday, bent like an S – I think I have actually seen him coming out of the Bureau of Guardians. Now it makes sense why I instinctively felt respectful of him and embarrassed when that strange woman I-330 started . . . I must confess – that I-330 . . .
The bell is ringing for sleep: it’s 22:30. Until tomorrow.
LOG 4
BRIEF:
The Savage and the Barometer. Epilepsy. If only.
Up until now, everything in life has been clear to me (no wonder I have a certain predilection for this word, ‘clear’). But today . . . I don’t understand.
First of all: I really was assigned to Auditorium 112, like she said I would be.
Even though the probability of this was:
(1,500 auditoriums, 10,000,000 numbers). And second of all . . . well, let me begin at the beginning.
The auditorium. A giant, entirely translucent hemisphere, saturated with sunlight, made of expansive glass blocks. Circular rows of beautifully sphere-like, carefully trimmed heads. My heart fluttered, looking around. I think I was searching: would that pink crest – O’s sweet lips – glimmer atop the blue waves of the unifs? Here’s someone’s unusually white and sharp teeth, those look familiar . . . no, no sign of her. This evening, O is coming to my place at 21 so it was perfectly natural that I wanted to see her.
The bell. We got up, sang the Anthem of the One State, and then the loudspeaker appeared on stage, sparkling with gold and the wit of the phonolector.
‘Esteemed numbers! Our archaeologists have recently unearthed a book from the twentieth century. In it, a humour writer tells the story of a savage and a barometer. A savage once noticed that whenever the barometer read “rain”, it would rain. So one day, when the savage wanted it to rain, he decided to dig out exactly enough mercury to make it read “rain”’ – on the screen, a savage in feathers picking mercury out of a barometer: laughter – ‘you laugh, but don’t you think that the Europeans of that era deserve even more of your ridicule? Just like that savage, the Europeans wanted “rain” – rain with a capital R, algebraic rain. But all they could do was stand there in front of their barometers like a bunch of wet chickens. At least the savage had courage and verve and – although, admittedly, savage – logic: he saw the connection between cause and effect. By removing the mercury, he took the first step down this great path, along which . . .’
And here (again: I am writing without hiding anything) – for a while, it was like I’d become waterproof to the invigorating currents spouting from the loudspeaker. I suddenly thought that I shouldn’t have come here (why ‘shouldn’t have’ and how could I have failed to come if I’d been assigned to?). I felt like everything was empty, just a shell. And I was only able to turn my attention back on, with difficulty, when the phonolector turned to the main topic: our music, mathematical composition (the mathematician – the cause; music – the effect), and a description of the recently invented musicometer. ‘By simply turning the handle, any one of you can produce up to three sonatas an hour. Now imagine how difficult this was for our ancestors. They could only create after working themselves up into fits of so-called “inspiration”, an obscure form of epilepsy. And now we present a hilarious illustration of the results they achieved through their efforts: the music of Scriabin, from the twentieth century. This black box’ – the curtain opened, revealing their ancient instrument – ‘this box was called a “grand”, or even a “royale”, which is yet more proof of how all of their music . . .’
And I don’t remember the rest after that, most likely because . . . well, I’ll just say it: because then I saw her, I-330, approaching the box. Perhaps I was simply startled by her unexpected appearance on stage.
She wore a fantastical costume from the ancient era: a skintight black dress, which sharply contrasted against the white of her shoulders and chest, which were bare, and the warm shadow between them, rising and falling with her every breath . . . those blinding, almost sinister teeth . . .
Her smile, like a bite, cast down at us in the audience. She sat and started to play. The music was as wild, fevered and colourful as everything else about that old life – not a shadow of the mechanical rational. So of course the people around me were right: they were all laughing. But a few . . . and why me, as well – me?
Yes, epilepsy – madness – torment . . . slow, sweet pain – a bite – harder, make it hurt more. And then, slowly, the sun. Not our sun, no blue crystal light evenly shining through glass blocks – no: the wild, rushing, scorching sun – tear everything off – tear it all up into little pieces.
The man sitting next to me glanced sideways to his left – at me – and snickered. For some reason, I very distinctly remember: I saw a microscopic spit bubble pop out onto his lips and burst. That little bubble brought me back to reality. I was myself again.
And, like everyone else, all I could hear was СКАЧАТЬ