The Midwife's Glass Slipper / Best For the Baby. Karen Rose Smith

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       Chapter Two

      Opening her eyes, Emily heard her name as if from a great distance.

      “Emily, it’s midnight.”

      The feel of Jared’s hand on her shoulder sent tingles throughout her body that brought her awake quickly.

      Crouched down beside her, he wore scrubs and smelled as if he’d freshly showered. In fact, his hair was still damp. His muscled arm lay next to hers, almost touching it. His thigh muscles were obvious against the blue cotton fabric. Most of all, she noticed his eyes. They were so green, lighter at first, then more intense, more filled with—

      Desire? She hadn’t seen desire in a man’s eyes for a very long time.

      As he leaned closer, her anticipation was as rich as the hunger and need in his eyes. But then he stood and ran his hand over his brow.

      She sat up but she didn’t want to get her purse and say good-night. She wanted to know if she was right about the vibrations between them.

      She patted the sofa next to her. “You look beat. Decompress a little. Tell me about the birth.”

      When he gazed at her, his eyes were filled with something she didn’t understand. Questions. What would he be questioning?

      “You really want to hear?”

      “Sure! Babies are our business. What’s most important to my pregnant moms is what kind of delivery they’ll have and if their baby will be healthy. I like to hear what happens after they leave my care.”

      “I never thought of it that way. You don’t usually see the finished result.”

      An ache enfolded her heart. She so missed seeing the finished result. “I go to the hospital nursery and take a peek. Sometimes the moms bring babies back to the office to visit after they’re born. But for the most part, I don’t know what happens after they leave me.”

      “Tonight was a breeze for a first baby. Leanne’s contractions were two and a half minutes apart when I got there. Her husband was a great coach and she had good focus. By eleven thirty, she had a baby girl, and I was ready for a shower.”

      “What do you feel when it happens?”

      He appeared startled for a moment and then gave her a long assessing look. “No one has ever asked me that.”

      She could see that was true and she wondered why. After all, that feeling was the reason she had delivered baby after baby as a midwife. That feeling was what made it all worthwhile.

      He glanced down at his hands as if he was trying to relive the birth. The fatigue left his face. “It’s an unexplainable moment. It’s a moment when something you believe can’t possibly happen, does. It’s a moment when life is precious and men understand why they live and fight and die for what they hold dear.”

      “It’s a moment,” she murmured, “when heaven meets earth.”

      He studied her and she realized she’d said too much. She should tell him she knew firsthand all about that moment. Yet because of the lawsuit, he might not want her practicing with him. If she told him her history, this closeness she was feeling to him right now could simply vanish.

      “You sound as if you know.”

      “I’ve attended births.” She didn’t add that she was the one who had caught the baby in her hands.

      His shoulder brushed hers as he admitted, “In that moment when a child is born, I forget the long hours and the hassles and the schedule shuffling. I guess most of life is that way. We work for the payoff, and if the payoff keeps us satisfied, we keep doing it.”

      “It’s more than a payoff.” She remembered the feel of that little wet body in her hands…the eyes coming open…the first cry. How she missed it. How she wished she had the courage to go back and be part of delivering babies all over again.

      Jared angled toward her. They were close enough to feel each other’s breath. “You really do understand.”

      “I take care of moms and teach them how to take care of themselves for a reason.”

      His large hand was so gentle as he stroked her cheek and pushed her curls away from her face. “I’ve never met anyone like you, Emily. Not everyone can understand the joy of holding a baby. You make what you do and what I do sound like more than a profession. You make it sound special and worthwhile.”

      “It is.” She wanted to say more…she wanted to tell him that’s why she’d gone into women’s homes to help them have their babies there. She yearned to say that she’d believed in home births because light and love and friendship could surround the newborn before, during and after the moment of birth. Yet she’d come to doubt that ideal. She’d come to doubt her judgment and skill. With those doubts lurking, she could never do it again. She’d be more prone to making a mistake. Mistakes were unacceptable when you were bringing a child into the world.

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