The Baby Gamble. Tara Taylor Quinn

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      “According to his sister, when I ran into her at the post office about six months ago.”

      “She’s still in town?”

      “They moved to San Antonio this past summer. Her daughter needed a gifted program….”

      “What about his parents?”

      “His dad died several years ago, and afterward his mom remarried and moved to Dallas.”

      And that just about took care of Annie’s second marriage—and nearly four years of her life.

      “Do you have any regrets?”

      No one had asked her that before—not regarding her breakup with Roger. That was a question she’d heard many times, however, after Blake had returned and she’d chosen to honor her current marriage over her first. Most often she’d heard it from Roger.

      “He’s a good man who’d have given his life for me, and I hurt him,” she said simply. “Of course I have regrets.”

      “You stayed with him.”

      “I was committed, and I did love him. But he knew I wasn’t in love with him.”

      She didn’t realize exactly what she’d just revealed—and to whom—until Blake took a slow sip of his wine, peering at her over the top of the glass.

      “From the beginning?” His question, as usual, went straight to the point.

      “He knew from the beginning, yes.”

      Blake didn’t say any more, and in spite of all the things left unsaid between them, neither did she.

      CHAPTER FOUR

      THE WINE WAS GOOD, but Blake sipped slowly.

      It would be so easy to let the libation do his work for him. Too easy. And infinitely more difficult to regain his self-control.

      He’d been that route. And had managed to haul himself away from the detour before it destroyed him.

      But there were others.

      “I’ve given some thought to your request.” In fact, pretty much every nonwork thought he’d had in the past forty-eight hours had concerned Annie’s request.

      She looked about twenty as she sat there, silently awaiting his response. Instead of filling out with approaching middle age, she was thinner now, her belly flatter—and more tanned, he saw from the sliver of skin showing between the bottom of her shirt and the low-cut top of her jeans.

      His gaze settled there, finding momentary escape. But then that belly was a reminder of other things, too.

      “What happened?” His dry throat made speech difficult.

      Annie was frowning. “What do you mean? What happened when?”

      There was a time when she’d known what he was thinking, sometimes even before he did. Back then they’d talked in code, their own particular language of half-spoken thoughts understood only by the two of them.

      “With the baby.”

      He could feel her stiffen. Watched her wineglass tremble as she raised it to her lips.

      Our baby, he’d wanted to say.

      “The doctor just said it was one of those things.”

      “One of what things?”

      Annie ran her finger around the rim of her glass, not looking at him. “It happens that way sometimes. Could be the egg and sperm didn’t fully fertilize, or that the egg wasn’t properly embedded in the uterus. Maybe there was some genetic abnormality that would have produced catastrophic results. Miscarriages are common—nature’s way of ridding the body of something that wasn’t right.”

      He thought about that. Wondered what could possibly have not been right about a baby between him and Annie. A baby that they’d conceived together in love.

      “What are the chances of it happening again?”

      How could talking with Annie feel so awkward? And at the same time so natural? Right?

      “Slim. I’ve had all the tests, just for my own peace of mind, and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with me—no reason I shouldn’t carry a healthy baby full term.”

      Suddenly, he could feel the tremors starting—behind his knees was always the first place they hit. He had to get out of here. Or at the very least, out of a conversation that was triggering such painful memories.

      “Were they able to tell…if it was a boy or a girl?”

      Stop, man. Go home.

      The interior of his uncle’s old Lincoln was beige. With white stitching. After all these years, the smell of the leather still permeated the car. And if he concentrated hard enough he could smell it.

      If Blake stood up, he could be driving away in less than a minute.

      It took him several seconds to see that Annie was shaking her head, the curls around her temples brushing against her skin. “It was too soon,” she said, her voice hushed.

      She still hurt. The loss of their child tore at her, undiminished with time. He’d known that, of course, on some level. He just didn’t want to think about it.

      Not unless he couldn’t help it. Like all the other things locked away in that cave inside him, numbing him to much of what went on in the outside world. And in his own world, as well.

      “I was expecting to see a three-and-a-half-year-old girl when I got off that plane.”

      What in the hell was he doing? He didn’t relive this stuff. This wasn’t why he’d come here.

      He had a plan. Strict orders to himself.

      One of which was to be out of Annie’s house within ten minutes.

      He’d already disobeyed that order.

      Annie sat still, not looking at him.

      “She had blond hair, like my mother’s,” Blake continued. “And curls like yours.”

      He could feel the anticipation, the sweat down the middle of his back. Could hear the sound of the plane’s engines, the landing gear dropping down. And then metal clanking on metal—a cell door closing. Locking him in.

      “She took her first step on what I calculated to be October 12.” He heard his voice, but wasn’t completely sure that it wasn’t just in his head. “She said ‘Mama’ on Christmas Eve—the best Christmas present you could have received.”

      When he’d imagined all this the first time, he’d been lying naked on a dirty cement floor somewhere in Jordan, shivering with cold. The nudity had been his punishment for refusing to eat until he was granted some kind of contact with the СКАЧАТЬ