Noah And The Stork. Penny McCusker

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      “I can’t believe you still live here,” Noah said, as he ushered her into the big old Victorian house that had been built by her great-great-grandparents.

      She slipped into the front parlor, turned on a floor lamp with a fussy, glass-fringed shade and felt instantly comforted. She loved the cheerful tinkling sound it made, how it threw prisms of light into every corner of the room, the same way it had for as long as she could remember. “Where else would I live?”

      “New York, L.A., London. There are some real cities out there in the world, Janey.”

      “I like it here. You’re the one who couldn’t wait to get out of Erskine.”

      He went quiet for a long moment. “I had my reasons.”

      “I knew you weren’t happy here, Noah, but you never wanted to talk about it.”

      “It’s still never.”

      She stepped back out of the parlor. “Is that why you’re standing in the hallway?”

      He stared at her for a second, mouth set in a grim line, eyes dark and intense.

      “The front door’s right behind you.”

      She could see he was considering it, and she knew before he spoke that he’d come to the same conclusion she had only moments before. This was about Jessie.

      “Where is she?” Noah asked.

      “Upstairs, in the tower room.” Janey said, referring to the uppermost floor of the turreted part of the house. The room was ringed with windows and high enough to see over the other houses in this part of Erskine. Jessie seemed to find the view soothing, although all that would be visible at this time of evening was the sun setting behind the mountains. “It’s where she goes whenever something’s bothering her.”

      “So did you,” Noah murmured with a half smile Janey couldn’t bear to see. The look of pleasant nostalgia on his face was too painful to believe.

      “What have you told her?” he asked.

      “What’s there to tell her? I had no idea where you were or what you were doing.”

      “So all I am is some guy you slept with ten years ago?”

      “What do you want to hear, Noah?” She straightened, coming out into the hallway to confront him, her voice as tightly controlled as her temper. “That she used to ask who her father was, and where he was, and why her mom and dad weren’t married like most of the other kids’ parents—or at least divorced and splitting weekends and holidays?”

      “Those are good questions, Janey, every one of them.”

      “And I had good answers for them, except she was too young to understand those answers. She doesn’t know how it feels to be in love, to trust someone so completely…” Janey clenched her fists, refusing to let him see how much it had hurt. “I lived it and I don’t even understand it.”

      “Janey—”

      “Then she started asking the hard questions,” she continued, talking right over him. “Like why didn’t her dad want to spend any time with her, or at least meet her? And here’s the really hard one, Noah. What’s wrong with her? No matter how often I said it had nothing to do with her, I could tell she still thought it was her fault.”

      “Jeez, Janey.” Noah ran a hand back through his hair, leaving it rumpled, a fitting counterpoint to the wild light in his eyes, eyes so like Jessie’s it was painful to look into them.

      Janey bit back the rest of the angry words clawing at the back of her throat. He’d earned her anger, but making him hurt, like she and Jessie had hurt, wouldn’t solve anything. “Jessie stopped asking questions about you a long time ago. She’s accepted the fact that her parents aren’t together. It’s not unusual, even in Erskine. It’s just—” She caught her lower lip between her teeth and turned away. It didn’t help; Noah could still read her mind, it seemed.

      “You’re wondering whether it’s a good thing I’m here or not.”

      “Yeah, well, something about stuffing toothpaste back into the tube occurs to me.”

      “So, what happens now?”

      She brought her eyes back to him. “Right now that depends on you.”

      “I don’t know what to say.”

      “And I can’t give you the words, Noah.”

      He jammed his hands in his pockets, seeming more uncertain by the second.

      “If you can’t do this, I’ll find some way to explain it to her.”

      “What if I say the wrong thing?”

      “At least it’ll be you saying it. And you can always apologize. It’s not like she thinks you’re perfect or anything.”

      He held her gaze for a moment, then smiled wryly. “No, I don’t imagine she does.”

      “I’ll go get her.” When Janey got to the tower room, however, she found Jessie curled up fast asleep on the old sofa that had been there forever. For the last four years her beloved stuffed bear had held a cherished place on the topmost shelf of her bedroom hutch. The fact that it was back in her arms tonight spoke volumes about the state of her heart and mind.

      Janey brushed the hair from her daughter’s brow, carefully so as not to wake her, and covered her with an old knitted blanket. Better she have as many hours of peace as she could, Janey figured, easing out of the room and down the creaky staircase. Noah would have to come back tomorrow.

      But when she got downstairs, he was already gone.

      Chapter Two

      Janey had been upstairs longer than she intended, but she’d expected Noah to hang around. Of course, he’d never had much staying power….

      “I’m in here,” he called out.

      And she’d become way too cynical, she realized as she followed his voice into the parlor. So he’d romanced her out of her virginity after their senior prom and then left town. All on the same night. So he’d ignored her attempts to tell him he had a child, then got angry with her when he found out by accident. Water under the bridge, all of it. She’d gotten herself through college, with the help of her parents, and even after she’d lost them, within months of each other, she’d made a life for herself and her daughter. There were times—okay, there were lots of times—when she’d wished there was a man around, not just to deal with a broken-down car or paint the porch, but because it would’ve been nice to share the emotional load once in a while. But she had friends, a whole town full of them, and she had Jessie.And if, every now and then, she woke in the night, unbelievably lonely, that was her choice, too.

      There’d been opportunities over the years, but no one who’d…Hell, she might as well admit she compared every man she met to Noah. Or not to him, exactly, but to the way he’d made her feel all those years ago. Nothing since had even come close.

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