Her Triplets' Mistletoe Dad. Patricia Johns

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      One of the babies opened his eyes and let out a whimper.

      “It’s about that time.” Gabby reached for the diaper bag that sat next to the car seats. “Why don’t we feed them first, then get settled?”

      She was already adjusting to the space, and Gabby hoisted the bag to the counter next to the fridge and pushed aside a fruit bowl. It shouldn’t irritate him—she lived here now, after all, but Seth liked things to stay the same, even if that was unrealistic. He and Bonnie had always had the fruit bowl just there because Seth would reach over from his spot at the kitchen table and grab a banana. His attachment to a fruit bowl’s position had nothing to do with being picky. It was linked to his grief. And maybe his irrational guilt over arranging Gabby’s flowers like that…

      Gabby took out a can of formula powder, then went to the sink. In a few minutes she’d shaken up three bottles, then caught his gaze lingering on her. “What?”

      He’d rather not start out with an argument. And he’d be wrong—it was only a fruit bowl.

      “Nothing. Which baby do I feed?” he asked. This had been his idea, and he’d just have to get used to Gabby’s touch about the place. Still… He moved the baby bag and slid the fruit bowl back into its rightful place. There. That felt better.

      Gabby unbuckled the first baby and scooped him up. She planted a kiss on his forehead, and the infant’s eyes opened and gazed up at her.

      “This is Aiden,” she said. “You’ll know him because he’s a little bit smaller.”

      She passed him to Seth, and he reached out awkwardly, his fingers splayed. It took a moment of careful adjustment to get the baby into his arms. The little guy barely weighed anything. His heart clenched, and he swallowed back a lump in his throat. He’d imagined doing this with his own daughter a thousand times before she was born, and he’d never gotten the chance.

      “Hi, there…” Seth said, looking down into the squished little face. Aiden opened his eyes again and his mouth opened into a tiny O, nudging toward Seth’s shirt, a baby’s instinct for milk. It took him a few tries to get the bottle’s nipple into Aiden’s mouth, but once he did, the baby set to sucking.

      “There,” Seth said, and he felt a rush of unexpected satisfaction.

      Gabby was cuddling another baby close as he slurped hungrily at a bottle. With a foot, she rocked the third car seat.

      “This here is Andy,” she said, looking down at the infant she was feeding. “Beau might hate a wet diaper, but he’s a little more patient for his bottle.”

      Aiden stretched out a tiny arm—remarkably strong for such a little fellow. Their marriage might be a unique arrangement, but part of Seth’s willingness to help her had been because of these babies, and he looked down at the infant in wonder.

      “I’ve fed calves, and a couple of newborn goats, but I’ve never fed a baby before,” he admitted.

      “No?” Gabby wrinkled her nose. “Are you serious? I thought you used to babysit your cousins.”

      “They weren’t babies,” he said, casting her an incredulous look. “And Ian is only four years younger than me. His sister was like five at the time. So they all fed themselves pretty efficiently.”

      “Right. You just seem so much older than him.”

      “Thanks.” He rolled his eyes.

      “You know what I mean—you’re more mature. He’s always been a perpetual boy. I mean, he’s fun, don’t get me wrong, but…”

      She was right about that. And Gabby would know—she’d dated Ian for a few months. In her defense, there weren’t a lot of single guys to choose from in Eagle’s Rest.

      They were silent for a few beats, and Seth sobered, adjusting the baby in his arms.

      “I was all set to figure out bottle feeding with my daughter,” he said quietly. “I never got the chance.”

      When Seth looked over at her, he saw her eyes misting. She lifted her gaze to meet his, and her chin trembled ever so slightly. It was the mom in her reacting.

      “I can’t imagine losing a child, Seth,” she said softly. “That’s a heartbreak I don’t think you’d ever recover from.”

      “Yeah, it’s bad.”

      Understatement of the year. Losing his wife was one kind of grief, but losing his infant daughter was another. It was an aching emptiness—a loss of a hundred things he’d never gotten to try. A pregnancy was different from a baby for the father, and while he’d felt his child squirm in Bonnie’s belly, he’d known that meeting the baby would make it all concrete. He’d be a dad in earnest then. When the doctors put her in his arms, she had suddenly become real…and so had the depth of his loss. All in that one moment. Because little Hazel Marie hadn’t survived the delivery, and his hello and goodbye had to happen all at once. He realized then it wasn’t the length of a life, but the depth of it, and his tiny daughter had sunk down into his soul.

      He didn’t know how to put all those feelings into words, and he’d never tried. He’d just covered the pain over as best he could with work and keeping busy. People had expressed sympathy, and Billy had spent quite a few evenings in this house, sharing beer and some companionable silence. It had helped more than Billy probably knew. A few aunts had brought casseroles, but mostly he just sank back down into a bachelor’s life—meals for one and a whole lot of working. There was enough to do on a ranch that he could go day and night if he wanted to. And sometimes he did.

      Aiden finished the bottle, and Seth put it on the counter.

      “You’ll need to burp him,” Gabby said, putting her own bottle down and tipping Andy up to her shoulder. “Like this. Just pop him up there and pat his back a little bit. Aiden’s a gassy one. He’ll burp twice.”

      Just pop him up there… That was easier said than done. The baby was so small that Seth was scared of hurting him. He managed to get his hand under Aiden’s head and when he tipped him up onto his shoulder, the tiny head tipped forward, too. Seth felt his gut drop. But then Aiden lifted his head and settled it down again in a more comfortable position, and there was a surge of relief.

      “Okay, buddy,” Seth said softly, and he gently tapped the tiny back the way Gabby was doing with his brother. Almost immediately, there was a resounding belch.

      “Wow,” Gabby chuckled. “Keep that up. He’ll do it again.”

      Seth continued the soft tapping as he watched Gabby finish burping Andy. She put him back in his car seat and scooped up Beau.

      “You’ve been so good, Beau,” she crooned, tucking him into the crook of her arm. “Are you a hungry boy?”

      Her voice was different when she talked to her children—softer, sweeter, more intimate somehow.

      Aiden lifted his head again, and then he burped again, this time leaving a dribble of milk to soak into Seth’s shirt.

      “Sorry,” Gabby said with a wince.

      “No problem.”

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