A Way With Women. Jule Mcbride

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СКАЧАТЬ given the Rock ’n’ Roll Ranch its name. He watched corralled horses grazing under the shade trees. Why can’t you just leave me alone, Harper?

      When he decided to advertise in Texas Men, his motive had been purely business, but when no one wrote back, Macon had felt an unexpected void and admitted the truth to himself. He wanted a wife. He’d tried for years to get over Harper. He’d waited long enough. Didn’t he deserve to start waking in the night with someone beside him, each inch of her his for the touching? She’d had a man’s warm body beside her for sixteen years. She’d enjoyed shared morning kisses and raising a son. Hundreds of protective miles no longer lay between him and Harper, and Macon needed to have a woman with him, if only to prove to Harper that he still could.

      She was thirty-three now and probably nothing like the girl he’d left behind, but physical distance and the passage of time had never deadened Macon’s feelings the way he’d hoped. Some Christmases, he’d run into her, Bruce and their son, Cordy, and every time, something inside Macon would curl up and die. He’d tighten his arm around whatever woman he happened to be entertaining, intimating plenty more was going on than there ever really was, then he’d return to Houston. Oh, he’d tried other relationships, but nothing ever panned out. He’d missed Pine Hills, too, but couldn’t live in the same town as her.

      But now Bruce was dead, and Macon was here to stay.

      He’d offered a quick hello in the post office before he and Harper reached a silent, mutual agreement not to exchange pleasantries. Since then, he’d wordlessly checked the mail, never venturing past the copiers in the lobby, but always aware of Harper behind the counter.

      Today, she’d hung a paper clock over the counter, next to a help wanted sign, indicating she’d be gone for five minutes, so after he’d checked the empty P.O. box, Macon had given in to the impulse to glance into her work space. He’d been stunned to find Harper’s un-mailed responses to his brides. Wanting time to process how she’d been disparaging him, he’d grabbed the letters and left.

      But what had possessed her? She had no right to stand between him and a woman. She’d married. As much as he liked her son, Cordy, who’d been working odd summer jobs on the Rock ’n’ Roll since around the time Bruce died, Macon still hated the fact that she’d had him by another man. Macon knew he’d satisfied her sexually but figured Bruce had offered Harper another, better kind of sharing, touching her in a way so deep she’d married him. Macon tried to ignore the words teasing the edges of his consciousness. Why couldn’t it be me, Harper? Why wouldn’t you let me break the iron grip your mama had on you?

      Macon’s lips compressed. He had no choice but to confront her about the letters, but he hadn’t wanted to create a scene at the post office, since it was the gossip hub of Pine Hills, and now he wasn’t sure he could handle being inside the house she’d shared with Bruce. Being anywhere near the bed where she’d given herself to her husband made Macon as tense as he’d been years ago when he’d caught his first glimpse of her.

      She’d been sixteen and headed to live with relatives in Tuscaloosa when her mama’s car broke down in Pine Hills. One thing led to another and they’d stayed. Harper’s mama got a job managing a Laundromat, where Harper spent every day after school when she wasn’t sneaking off with Macon. Now he figured there wasn’t a landmark in town where he hadn’t made out with her, in the old cemetery, the rock quarry and on the sloping banks of Star Point Lake. Even Ansel, with whom Macon had been thick as thieves since birth, didn’t know how much time he’d spent with Harper, since her mama was so strict that they’d kept their meetings as secret as possible.

      Her mama had died the year before Bruce had, but Macon had never stopped hating the woman. She’d had her suspicions about what Macon and Harper were doing, and anytime she saw Macon in town, she’d pull him aside, her blue eyes narrow and fierce and her voice cracking from the Camels she chain-smoked. My baby girl’s smarter than you. She don’t need your kind. You and me know you’re just using her, trying to get the one thing boys want. But she’s got herself one of those scholarships, so the last thing she needs is you.

      Macon had been young and rebellious enough that he could have told the woman what he thought of her, but he hadn’t, out of respect for Harper. In her own way, Macon guessed the woman had loved Harper. And loving Harper, at least, was something Macon understood.

      But she’d turned out to be her mama’s girl all the way. She’d rebelled, but not before that twisted woman had filled her head with dire warnings about men, just because she was backward and because a man had left her when she was pregnant with Harper. The summer they were out of school, Macon begged Harper to leave home and run away with him, and she’d finally said she would.

      That night, he’d waited in the truck under a canopy of trees not far from Big Grisly’s Grill, alternately peering down the road and staring into a night as starry as Harper’s eyes. Where are you? he’d thought with panic. Don’t stand me up. Don’t let your mama win.

      But she had.

      And then she’d married Bruce and given birth to Cordy. Now Macon lifted his gaze from the horses in the corral, realizing he’d been half admiring their dreamless ease, their thoughtless pleasure. Why couldn’t his life be that damn simple? “What?”

      Diego’s black eyes narrowed. “Stewing about the widow?”

      Macon shook his head. “Just hoping that new fence’ll hold.”

      “Don’t let her get you down,” said Ansel. “You saw her son, Cordy, last Saturday when he came over here to help herd cattle. He’s ready to leave the nest, so Harper’s just looking for distractions. She’s like her own crazy mama, always meddling.” Ansel frowned. “Wait a minute. Back in high school, was there more going on with you and Harper than we knew about?”

      Plenty. “’Course not.” Crossing to the desk, Macon stared at big block letters that stated: “Everything you read in Texas Men magazine is a lie. Here is the real Macon McCann.” Attached was a photo of a grizzled, leather-faced, bearded man three times Macon’s age. Macon held up the photograph, forcing a smile. “This guy makes Cam look pretty.”

      Cam laughed. “Don’t take your love troubles out on me, son.”

      “They’re not love troubles,” Macon grumbled, wishing his father would simply turn over the ranch to him. Since he wouldn’t unless Macon married, Macon had no choice but to fix things so the Texas Men respondents could write him back.

      Macon snuggled his hat down on his head and after a moment’s hesitation dug in a pocket for the keys to his truck. “I reckon I’d better head over to the Moodys’,” he explained. He tried to tell himself that he no longer felt betrayed or cared that she hadn’t loved him. Things just hadn’t worked out. Still, Harper had no right to open his mail, and the words she’d written to Chantal Morris played in his mind. Hold out for the man of your dreams…. Macon McCann is not the man for you, nor would he be a good father for your—or anyone else’s—baby….

      How had Harper known what kind of father he’d make? She’d never given him a chance. “Figure I’d better go over there,” he repeated gruffly. “At least give her a piece of my mind.”

      “Careful that’s all you give her a piece of,” Ansel warned.

      “Careful you don’t start makin’ bacon, Macon!” added Diego.

      Cam cupped a hand around his ear. “You hear that sizzling sound, Diego? You smell something burning?”

      “Hooee,” hooted Diego. “It’s Macon. СКАЧАТЬ