The Louise Allen Collection. Louise Allen

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      This would not do, it really would not. She was relying too much upon Adam’s approval, his very presence, for her happiness and that was madness. He obviously felt so little for her that it never occurred to him that paying her attention might rouse unsuitable feelings in her breast.

      Presumably now he was engaged to be married he was able to put aside their lovemaking in the hunting lodge and assumed she could do so as easily. And yet he had seemed jealous of Henry’s attachment to her. Men were very strange; she must have another talk with Henry.

      Decima sighed and began to twirl strands of hair, that had lost a little curl in the warmth of the ballroom, between finger and thumb. They really needed the application of a hot iron again, but the fruitless exercise at least offered her some excuse for not going back out again for a few minutes.

      The outer door opened. ‘Good evening. May I assist you, ladies?’ The maid had obviously stepped forward and this time was requested to find needle and thread for a torn hem. It was Mrs Channing, and as she chatted to her companion, loftily ignoring the maid’s presence, it was obvious that the possessor of the damaged dress was Olivia.

      ‘You must try for a little more poise and grace, Olivia. Your hurly-burly manner of going about things was bound to result in some damage to your gown. It is fortunate that it was only a sight tear at the hem.’

      ‘I am sorry, Mama, but there was such a crush of people…’

      ‘You should have stood your ground. You are a lady, it is up to them to make way for you, not for you, engaged to a viscount, to step back in that clumsy self-effacing way. You will have to learn to be more assertive when you are married, my girl.’

      ‘Yes, Mama, but…’

      ‘Do not argue, Olivia!’ Decima rolled her eyes at her own reflection. How did the woman expect the girl to behave if she browbeat her every time she tried to speak?

      ‘You should try for a little more presence. You could do worse than to copy Miss Ross.’

      ‘But she is older than me, Mama. She knows her way about in the world…’

      ‘She is an unmarried woman—I certainly hope she does not know her way about, as you so inelegantly put it, Olivia. I mean that she has poise and a certain something.’ Praise indeed! Decima suppressed a gasp of sheer amazement. Mrs Channing’s approbation was an unexpected honour.

      ‘Mind you,’ the matron continued forcibly, ‘she has so many faults to overcome that she must have had to learn to make the most of all her good points. And, of course, nothing could possibly win her a husband. Not with her height and those freckles. I wonder if I should recommend Delcroix’s Crème des Sultanes to her? I hear it worked wonders for Mrs Pettigrew’s youngest.’

      ‘Oh…perhaps she might take it amiss?’ Olivia ventured, earning an unseen, but vigorous nod of agreement from Decima. She should have known better than to expect unalloyed praise from that source!

      There was a further flurry of activity from the other side of the screen and then the sound of the door opening and closing. Decima gave her hair a last tweak and stepped out from her concealment to find Olivia, alone except for the maid who was on her knees finishing off the thread. ‘There you are, miss, that should hold.’

      ‘Oh, no!’ Olivia was scarlet with embarrassment. ‘Oh, Miss Ross…Decima…I had no idea you were there! Oh, dear…’

      ‘It is entirely my fault,’ Decima said, trampling down her embarrassment in an effort to quell Olivia’s distress. ‘I should have made my presence known as soon as your mama began to speak. And, in any case, she spoke most kindly of me.’

      ‘Yes, but…’

      ‘My freckles? Perhaps I should try her thoughtful recommendation.’ But Adam likes my freckles, the rebellious voice murmured in her ear. All the more reason for getting rid of them then, she thought firmly.

      ‘Decima?’ Olivia asked hesitantly.

      ‘Yes?’

      ‘Might I…might I come and speak to you, in confidence?’ Olivia was flushed, her head bent, her fingers twisting together.

      ‘Of course.’ This would be the ideal opportunity to talk frankly to Olivia about focusing all her attention upon Adam and not allowing her ‘friendship’ with Henry to develop, but it was hardly a duty Decima felt ready for. ‘Why not call tomorrow, about three? I am sure everyone else will be out, so we can have a comfortable talk.’ Her heart sank. It would be nice if doing the right thing was easy.

       Chapter Nineteen

      ‘You do not love Lord Weston at all?’ Decima regarded Olivia’s miserable face with horror. The younger woman must have misread her expression for one of condemnation, for she began to sob quietly, wringing her hands into the fine muslin of her pretty morning gown in her distress.

      ‘I want to be dutiful, and I do not have to love him, do I?’ she faltered. ‘Mama says no gentleman would expect such a thing in any case and I am foolish and wicked to think about it.’ She stifled a hiccup in her handkerchief. ‘I think he is very kind…at least, he used to be, but I am so silly, Mama says, no wonder he seems strict with me now.’

      Oh, lord. Decima cast a hasty glance at the drawing-room door to make sure it was firmly closed and did her best. ‘I know that love is not considered a prerequisite for a happy and fulfilling marriage,’ she began carefully. ‘Between gentlefolk, and especially the aristocracy, I believe it is the exception rather than the rule. But there must be mutual affection and respect, I am sure—do you not feel those things for Lord Weston?’

      ‘He was very kind to me before we became betrothed.’ For some reason Olivia blushed scarlet. ‘And, of course, I respect him because he is so intelligent and has such a great position.’

      ‘Well, then, I expect this is all nerves and you will be very happy when you are married.’ Decima thought she sounded like Hermione. But what else could she say? Should she encourage Olivia in her doubts in the hope that she would jilt Adam? That would be despicable, besides risking ruining the girl’s reputation.

      ‘And do not forget he proposed to you despite the fact that you are not titled and—forgive me—perhaps not as richly dowered as some young ladies.’

      For some reason that produced an even deeper blush and a look of total misery. ‘I am sure he had no intention of proposing to me before the Longminster house party.’

      ‘Then that shows how taken he was with you,’ Decima said, attempting to inject a rallying tone into her voice. ‘You must know how beautiful you are, and I am sure you have all the skills needed to manage a great house.’

      ‘Th…thank you.’ Olivia dabbed at her eyes. ‘You do not seem at all afraid of him.’

      ‘Why, no. Why ever should I be? Has he said anything to give you a fear of him?’

      ‘No…’ СКАЧАТЬ