Worth The Wait. Lori Foster

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      ‘Some nights,’ Bellona admitted, ‘I dream my mother is alive and for those moments she is. But I dream she is the one being attacked by the men and I cannot save her. Those dreams are the worst. And they only grow and grow. I cannot breathe when I wake.’

      The duchess nodded, eyes downcast. ‘Do not talk of this to me.’

      ‘No one wishes to hear it,’ Bellona said sadly. ‘I cannot talk about it with anyone. And not to be able to talk with Mana makes it so bad. I did not think I would live when she died, but my sister Thessa started slapping me when I cried. That helped.’

      The duchess stared at Bellona. ‘How unkind.’

      ‘Oh, no. No,’ Bellona insisted. ‘I would get angry and I would chase her and chase her and want to hurt her. I will always love her for that.’

      The duchess looked thoughtful. ‘Child. Perhaps a pat or hug would have been better?’

      Bellona squinted. ‘That would have done no good. I would have cried more.’

      A chuckle burst from Rhys’s lips. A light shone in his brown eyes that she’d never seen before in any man’s gaze and she could feel the sunshine from it. Her cheeks warmed.

      ‘You might as well sit,’ the duchess said. ‘You’ll make my neck hurt looking up at you.’

      While she stood there, unable for the moment to think of anything but the duke’s sable eyes, he slipped the reticule from her hand.

      ‘Find me in the library when you leave so I may return this to you,’ he said. ‘I have some work to finish and I will have tea sent your way.’

      He strode out through the doorway.

      ‘Do not dare slap me,’ the duchess warned.

      ‘If you need it, I will,’ Bellona replied.

      ‘Do not try it. I will not chase you,’ the duchess added, studying her rings, before indicating Bellona sit beside her. ‘I would send servants.’

      Bellona shook her head. ‘You’ve lost enough family members for many slaps...’

      The duchess nodded. ‘It was not supposed to be like that. My husband, I accepted he might die. He was much older than I. But my babies. My children. You don’t know what it is like.’

      ‘I know something of what it is like.’

      ‘No. You don’t.’

      ‘Yes, I do.’

      ‘You can’t.’

      ‘Then tell me.’

      The duchess tossed the packet aside. ‘My daughter had golden hair. I’d never seen a child so blessed...’ She continued speaking of her past, taking tea when the maid brought it, and hardly pausing in her memories.

      Finally, she looked at Bellona. ‘You really must be on your way now. You’ve stayed much longer than a proper first visit lasts. One just doesn’t act as you do.’

      ‘I know. I do as I wish.’

      ‘I can tell you have not had a mother about. You need someone to teach you how to act.’

      ‘No. I do not. This is how I wish to be.’

      ‘That is your first error.’ She shut her eyes. ‘Now go.’

      Bellona rose. ‘Thank you for telling me of your daughter.’

      The duchess opened her eyes again and waved towards the door. ‘I may send a note later requesting you to tea.’

      Bellona left, hearing two rapid sniffs behind her. She shut the door, listening for the click. A dark hallway loomed, but she remembered her way to the library.

      A few moments later, she found Rhys, sitting at his desk, leaning over papers. Her reticule lay at the side of his work.

      ‘Where’s the maid?’ Bellona asked, walking into the room.

      He twirled his pen between his fingertips as he stood. ‘Below stairs speaking with the other servants. I think she is a cousin or sister or some relation to many of the women here.’

      Bellona walked to the fabric bag, lifting it and feeling the weapon still inside.

      He frowned and shook his head.

      She ignored him and moved to the door.

      ‘Wait,’ he said. ‘I’ll send for someone to collect your maid.’

      ‘I will find her. When I step below stairs and look around, servants will appear and the maid will rush to me. If it takes many moments, the housekeeper or butler are at my elbow, asking what I need. It works faster than the bell pull.’

      ‘Perhaps you should leave them to do their jobs.’

      ‘Yes. I should,’ she agreed.

      He smiled—the one that didn’t reach his lips, but made his eyes change in such a way that they became like dark jewels she couldn’t take her own gaze from.

      ‘Would you wait here whilst I see how my mother fares?’ he said. The words were a question, but he was halfway from the room before she could answer.

      ‘No. I’ll be on my way.’

      He took two more steps, stopped, and spun around. ‘No?’ He stood in the doorway, almost taking up the whole of the space.

      ‘You will ask her what I said. How we got on and make sure she is well,’ Bellona said. ‘I know the answers to that. She mentioned having tea with me again, but she will change her mind.’

      ‘With me, she cannot speak for crying and it has been a year,’ he muttered. ‘A year... I think the honeysuckle was in bloom when they were taking my brother from the house the last time.’

      ‘It is not quite a year,’ Bellona told him, shaking her head. ‘Your mother knows the dates. All of them.’

      His eyes snapped to her and he pushed his hair from his temple. ‘Of my father’s and sister’s deaths, too?’

      ‘Yes. And her own parents.’

      ‘You must stay,’ he said. ‘You cannot keep the knife in case someone accidentally gets hurt. But you must stay. I have tried two companions for my mother and she shouted one from the room and refused to speak with the other.’

      ‘No.’

      ‘Miss Cherroll, I fear you do not understand how trapped my mother is in her thoughts and memories. You must stay and see if you can lift her spirits. Otherwise, I fear she will not live much longer.’

      She moved, putting the desk between them. ‘I cannot.’ She had grown up with the myths of her ancestors and tales of men stronger than storms and compelling forces. СКАЧАТЬ