Right Where We Belong. Brenda Novak

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      A sheepish expression claimed her face. “It’s none of his business.”

      “Because...”

      “We broke up tonight.”

      “I’m sorry to hear that. I thought it might be serious for you two.”

      “Oh, come on,” she said. “You know my heart has never really belonged to him. You’re the only man I’ve ever truly loved.”

      Gavin began to feel a little uncomfortable. He didn’t want this to go the way it usually did, where he wound up in a relationship he was eager to get out of. “Heather, I hope I’m not the reason you broke up.”

      “Of course you’re the reason! I don’t know what to say. I can’t get over you.”

      Shit. She’d seemed happy. Having Scott in the picture had taken so much pressure off him. “I care about you,” he said. “I hope you know that. But...I don’t want to get back together.”

      He hated having to be so blunt, but he didn’t want her to ruin her relationship with Scott, with whom he’d thought she finally had something, because of false hope.

      Instead of the hurt and anger he expected, a tentative smile curved her lips. “Come on. I treat you right, don’t I? Have I ever said no to you?”

      She hadn’t. That was part of the problem. He lived in a small town, which meant as a single person he went long stretches without sex. By the time she cycled back to hit him up, the physical intimacy she offered usually tempted him beyond his ability to refuse.

      But he wasn’t going to succumb tonight. He’d met someone else, someone he thought he might really be interested in. He knew getting to know Savanna, in order to make sure, wouldn’t be easy. She’d been through a lot, and it was all so recent. But he’d felt an honest attraction when he was with her—one he didn’t have to force—and he wasn’t going to ruin his chances by sleeping with an old flame he couldn’t seem to get rid of. “I’ve never said you didn’t treat me right.”

      “Good! Because after what you experienced as a child—”

      He lifted a hand to stop her. He didn’t want to go into that. But she waved him off.

      “I know you won’t talk about the past. You’ve told me next to nothing. But the whole town knows you were left at a park when you were a kid. It isn’t a secret. I’m only saying that you’ve been on your own for a long time. Aren’t you ready to have someone to love?”

      He raked his fingers through his hair. He was ready. But he had to find the right person, and he knew it wasn’t Heather. He’d tried with her—several times. “It’ll happen when it happens.”

      She grabbed his arm. “How do you know that? Maybe you have to act.”

      “Heather—”

      “Wait. Before you say anything else, I—I need to tell you something.”

      He didn’t see how he could refuse to listen. She had tears in her eyes. “Go on...”

      “I’m pregnant, Gavin.”

      His heart began to pound against his chest.

      “I found out a week ago,” she added.

      He swallowed against a tight, dry throat. “You’re not saying... I mean, we haven’t been together in...in a while. Two months at least. So...this must be Scott’s child, right?”

      She wiped away the tears that were starting to fall.

      “Right?” he repeated when she didn’t answer.

      “I don’t know.” Her words came out a frightened whisper.

      Gavin closed his eyes. This couldn’t be happening. “Is that why you and Scott broke up?” he asked when he looked at her again. “You told him about the baby, and he thinks you might be pregnant with my child?”

      “Yes. I believe it is yours. In any case, I hope it is, because you’re the one I love.”

      When Gavin’s knees threatened to give out on him, he set his guitar down and reached for the door frame. “You were on the pill,” he said, keeping his voice measured and calm despite his panic.

      She wrung her hands. “I was. But my doctor told me that certain medications can make the pill ineffective. And I was on antibiotics our last week together.”

      Gavin let his head fall against the door frame above his hand.

      “You’re not going to say anything?” she asked when he didn’t respond.

      “I don’t know what to say.” He knew how religious her family was. Although she didn’t buy in completely, an abortion would be out of the question. He wasn’t sure he’d suggest terminating a pregnancy in the first place. So...what other options did they have?

      “When can we find out?” he asked. No doubt Scott wanted to learn the child’s paternity as badly as he did...

      “Not until the baby’s born.”

      He straightened in surprise. “That’s nine months!”

      “Seven months,” she corrected. “I’m about nine weeks along—or that’s what we think. I’ve never been good at keeping track of my cycle.”

      “Seven months is an eternity. Surely, there’s got to be a way to find out sooner.”

      “We could do a prenatal paternity test, but it’d be safer—better for the baby—to wait. My doctor told me he wouldn’t recommend it.”

      He felt sick. She was right. He had begun to want a family, but not with her. With someone he could truly love.

      “Gavin? Are you okay?”

      He struggled to voice a few words. “Yeah. I’m fine.”

      “You’re just standing there, looking dazed.”

      He was screaming inside, but he didn’t want to make this any harder on her. The fact that she was crying told him she hadn’t planned the pregnancy. “What can I do to help?” he managed to say.

      “There’s nothing anyone can do at this point. But I’m hoping you’ll be open to giving us another chance. For the sake of the baby. I mean...maybe the universe is trying to tell us something.”

      Gavin didn’t believe the universe had anything to do with it. As far as he was concerned, it was plain bad luck. “It’ll be okay,” he said, but that was a lie. At least, it was for him. “We’ll get through it somehow.”

      She gave him a funny look. Could she tell he was only going through the motions? That his heart wasn’t in those words?

      “Is that a yes?” she asked. “You’re willing to try again?”

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