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      During the early months they tried to coax him. Look, Walter’s settled down, you wouldn’t know him. He’s eased back on the drink. Well, he knew it was killing him. He keeps out of the law courts these days. He’s even served his turn as churchwarden.

      What? he said. And he didn’t get drunk on the altar wine? He didn’t make off with the candle funds?

      Nothing they said could persuade him down to Putney. He waited more than a year, till he was married and a father. Then he felt safe to go.

      It was more than twelve years he’d been out of England. He’d been taken aback by the change in people. He left them young and they had softened or sharpened into middle age. The lissom were lean now and dried out. The plump were plumper. Fine features had blurred and softened. Bright eyes were duller. There were some people he didn’t recognise at all, not at first glance.

      But he would have known Walter anywhere. As his father walked towards him he thought, I’m seeing myself, in twenty, thirty years, if I’m spared. They said that drink had nearly done for him, but he didn’t look half-dead. He looked as he had always looked: as if he could knock you down, and might decide to do it. His short strong body had broadened and coarsened. His hair, thick and curling, had hardly a thread of grey. His glance was skewering; small eyes, bright and golden-brown. You need good eyes in a smithy, he used to say. You need good eyes wherever you are, or they’ll rob you blind.

      ‘Where’ve you been?’ Walter said. Where once he would have sounded angry, he now sounded merely irritated. It was as if his son had been on a message to Mortlake, and had taken his time over it.

      ‘Oh … here and there,’ he said.

      ‘You look like a foreigner.’

      ‘I am a foreigner.’

      ‘So what have you been doing?’

      He could imagine himself saying, ‘This and that.’ He did say it.

      ‘And what sort of this and that are you doing now?’

      ‘I’m learning the law.’

      ‘Law!’ Walter said. ‘If it weren’t for the so-called law, we would be lords. Of the manor. And a whole lot of other manors round here.’

      That is, he thinks, an interesting point to make. If you get to be a lord by fighting, shouting, being bigger, better, bolder and more shameless than the next man, Walter should be a lord. But it’s worse than that; Walter thinks he’s entitled. He’d heard it all his childhood: the Cromwells were a rich family once, we had estates. ‘When, where?’ he used to say. Walter would say, ‘Somewhere in the north, up there!’ and yell at him for quibbling. His father didn’t like to be disbelieved even when he was telling you an outright lie. ‘So how do we come to such a low place?’ he would ask, and Walter would say it was because of lawyers and cheats and lawyers who are all cheats, and who thieve land away from its owners. Understand it if you can, Walter would say, for I can’t – and I’m not stupid, boy. How dare they drag me into court and fine me for running beasts on the so-called common? If all had their own, that would be my common.

      Now, if the family’s land was in the north, how could that be? No point saying this – in fact, it’s the quickest way to get a lesson from Walter’s fist. ‘But was there no money?’ he’d persist. ‘What happened to it?’

      Just once, when he was sober, Walter had said something that sounded true, and was, by his lights, eloquent: I suppose, he said, I suppose we pissed it away. I suppose once it’s gone it’s gone. I suppose fortune, when it’s lost, it will never visit again.

      He thought about it, over the years. On that day when he went back to Putney, he’d asked him, ‘If ever the Cromwells were rich, and I were to go after what’s left, would that content you?’

      His tone was meant to be soothing but Walter was hard to soothe. ‘Oh yes, and share it out, I suppose? You and bloody Morgan that you’re so thick with. That’s my money, if all have their own.’

      ‘It would be family money.’ What are we doing, he thought, quarrelling right off, rowing within five minutes over this nonexistent wealth? ‘You have a grandson now.’ He added, not aloud, ‘And you aren’t coming anywhere near him.’

      ‘Oh, I have those already,’ Walter said. ‘Grandsons. What is she, some Dutch girl?’

      He told him about Liz Wykys. Admitting, therefore, that he had been in England long enough to marry and have a child. ‘Caught yourself a rich widow,’ Walter said, sniggering. ‘I suppose that was more important than coming to see me. It would be. I suppose you thought I’d be dead. Lawyer, is it? You were always a talker. A slap in the mouth couldn’t cure it.’

      ‘But God knows you tried.’

      ‘I suppose you don’t admit to the smithy work now. Or helping your uncle John and sleeping among the swill buckets.’

      ‘Good God, father,’ he’d said, ‘I never rose so high! What are you thinking?’

      When he was a little boy and his uncle John was a cook for the great man, he used to run away to Lambeth to the palace, because the chances of getting fed were better. He used to hang around by the entrance nearest the river – Morton hadn’t built his big gateway then – and watch the people come and go, asking who was who and recognising them next time by the colours of their clothes and the animals and objects painted on their shields. ‘Don’t stand about,’ people bellowed at him, ‘make yourself useful.’

      Other children than he made themselves useful in the kitchen by fetching and carrying, their small fingers employed in plucking songbirds and hulling strawberries. Each dinner time the household officers formed up in procession in the passages off the kitchens, and they carried in the tablecloths and the Principal Salt. His uncle John measured the loaves and if they were not just right they were tossed into a basket for the lower household. Those that passed his test he counted as they went in; standing by him, pretending to be his deputy, he learned to count. Into the great hall would go the meats and the cheeses, the sugared fruits and the spiced wafers, to the archbishop’s table – he was not a cardinal then. When the scrapings and remnants came back they were divided up. First choice to the kitchen staff. Then to the almshouse and the hospital, the beggars at the gate. What wasn’t fit for them would go down the line to the children and the pigs.

      Each morning and evening the boys earned their keep by running up the back staircases with beer and bread to put in the cupboards for the young gentlemen who were the cardinal’s pages. The pages were of good family. They would wait at table and so become intimate with great men. They would hear their talk and learn from it. When they were not at the table they were learning out of great volumes from their music masters and other masters, who passed up and down the house holding nosegays and pomanders, who spoke in Greek. One of the pages was pointed out to him: Master Thomas More, whom the archbishop himself says will be a great man, so deep his learning already and so pleasant his wit.

      One day he brought a wheaten loaf and put it in the cupboard and lingered, and Master Thomas said, ‘Why do you linger?’ But he did not throw anything at him. ‘What is in that great book?’ he asked, and Master Thomas replied, smiling, ‘Words, words, just words.’

      Master More is fourteen this year, someone says, and is to go to Oxford. He doesn’t know where Oxford is, or whether he wants to go there or has just been sent. СКАЧАТЬ