Australian Affairs: Wed. Barbara Hannay

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      She’d been determined to handle Joe’s return calmly and maturely, and when he’d been forced to stay here she’d promised herself she would face that with dignity as well. Instead she’d been as tense and sharp-tongued as a cornered taipan.

      She was so disappointed with herself, so annoyed. Why couldn’t her behaviour ever live up to her good intentions?

      You make it so damn obvious that you can’t stand the sight of me.

      Did Joe really think that? How could he?

      It seemed impossible to Ellie. The sad truth was—the sight of Joe stirred her in ways she didn’t want to be stirred. She found herself thinking too often about the way they used to make love.

      Really, despite their troubles, there’d been so many happy times, some of them incredibly spontaneous and exciting.

      Even now, irrationally, she found herself remembering one of the happiest nights of her life—a night that had originally started out very badly.

      It had happened one Easter. She and Joe were driving down the highway on their way to visit her mum, but they’d been so busy before they left that they hadn’t booked ahead, and all the motels down the highway were full.

      ‘Perhaps we should just keep driving,’ Joe had said grimly when they reached yet another town with no spare rooms.

      ‘Driving all night?’ she’d asked. ‘Isn’t that dangerous, Joe? We’re both pretty tired.’

      He’d reluctantly agreed. ‘We’ll have to find a picnic ground then and sleep in the car.’

      It wasn’t a cheering prospect, but Ellie knew they didn’t have much choice. While Joe went off to find hamburgers for their dinner, she tried to set the car up as best she could, hoping they’d be comfortable.

      She’d shifted their luggage and adjusted their seats to lie back and she’d just finished making pillows out of bundles of their clothing when Joe returned. He was empty-handed and Ellie, who’d been ravenous, felt her spirits sink even lower.

      ‘Don’t tell me this town’s also sold out of hamburgers?’

      ‘I don’t know,’ he said simply.

      Her stomach rumbled hungrily. ‘Are all the shops closed?’

      ‘Don’t know that either. It doesn’t matter.’ Joe’s sudden cheeky smile was unforgettably gorgeous. He held up a fancy gold ring, dangling keys. ‘I’ve booked us into the honeymoon suite in the best hotel in town.’

      Ellie gasped. ‘You’re joking.’

      Still smiling broadly, Joe shook his head. ‘Ridgy-didge.’

      ‘Can...can we afford a honeymoon suite?’

      He shrugged, then slipped his arm around her shoulders, pressed a warm kiss to her ear. ‘We deserve a bit of comfort. We never had a proper honeymoon.’

      It was the best of nights. Amazing, and so worth the extravagance.

      All thoughts of tiredness vanished when they walked into their suite and saw the champagne in an ice bucket, a huge vase of long-stemmed white roses and chocolate hearts wrapped in gold foil on their pillows.

      Like excited kids, they bounced on the enormous king-sized bed and then jumped into the spa bath until their room service dinner arrived. And they felt like film stars as they ate gourmet cuisine dressed in luxurious white fluffy bathrobes.

      And, just for one night, they’d put their worries aside and they’d made love like honeymooners.

      I shouldn’t be thinking about that now...

      Ellie was devastated to realise that she was still as physically attracted to her ex as she’d been on that night. The realisation made her panic.

      What a mess.

      With a despairing sigh, she sagged against a veranda post. How had she and Joe sunk to this? She’d thought about their problems so many times, but she’d never pinpointed a particular event that had killed their marriage. It had been much the same as today. Ongoing bickering and building resentments had worn them down and eroded their love.

      Death by a thousand cuts.

      But why? How? How could she be so tense and angry with a man she still fancied? It wasn’t as if she actively disliked Joe.

      She supposed they should have seen a marriage guidance counsellor years ago.

      Joe had been too proud, of course, and Ellie had been too scared—scared that she’d be psychoanalysed and found lacking in some vital way. But if she’d been braver, would it have helped?

      She probably would have had to tell the counsellor about her father’s death and how unhappy she’d been after that. Worse, she would have had to talk about her stepfather and how she’d run away from him.

      Ellie didn’t actually believe there was a connection between Harold Fowler and her marriage breakdown, but heaven knew what a counsellor might have made of it. Even now, she still shuddered when she thought about Harold.

      And here was the thing: it was the sight of Harold that Ellie couldn’t stand. Not Joe.

      Never Joe.

      Her mum had married Harold Fowler eighteen months after her father died, after they’d sold the farm and moved into town. Harold owned the town’s main hardware store—he was loud and showy and popular, a big fish in a small country pond. And a couple of years later he was elected mayor. Ellie’s mum was thrilled. She loved being the mayor’s wife and feeling like a celebrity.

      Harold, however, had given Ellie the creeps. Right from the start, just the way he looked at her had made her squirm and feel uncomfortable, and that was before he touched her.

      She’d been fifteen when he first patted her on the bum. Over the following months, it had happened a few more times, which was bad enough, but then he came into the bathroom one night when she was in the shower.

      He was full of apologies, of course, and he backed out quickly, claiming that he’d knocked and no one had answered. But Ellie had seen the horrible glint in his eyes and she was quite sure he hadn’t knocked. Her mother hadn’t been home that night, which had made the event extra-scary.

      And Harold certainly hadn’t knocked the second time he barged in. Again, it had happened on a night when Ellie’s mum was away at her bridge club. Ellie was seventeen, and she’d just stepped out of the bath and was reaching for her towel when, without warning, Harold had simply opened her bathroom door.

      ‘Oh, my darling girl,’ he said with the most ghastly slimy smile.

      Whipping the towel about her, Ellie managed to get rid of him with a few scathing, shrilly screamed words, but she’d been sickened, horrified.

      Desperate.

      And the worst of it was she couldn’t get her mother to understand.

      ‘Harold’s lived alone for years,’ СКАЧАТЬ