A Valentine Kiss. Christy McKellen

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       CHAPTER NINE

      THE WORDS HAD already left Mila’s lips when she realised how much they revealed about her. She was annoyed that it was the second time she had disclosed something to Jordan that she hadn’t wanted him to know, even if it had made her feel better. Especially since the disturbed look on his face made her think that he didn’t feel like what she’d said.

      ‘Did you really believe that?’ he asked softly.

      ‘I did.’

      Maybe I still do.

      ‘It doesn’t matter any more, though, does it?’

      ‘You’re wrong, you know.’ He shook his head. ‘I haven’t met anyone else I respect more than you. You didn’t have family, but you’re more loyal than any family member I can think of. Even me.’

      He paused, and she thought that he was sacrificing his own comfort to make her feel better. It melted her heart.

      ‘You looked after my father when I couldn’t. Thank you.’

      His words made her blush, and she mumbled, ‘You know you don’t have to thank me for that.’

      ‘I know you don’t think I need to—which just proves my point. You are worthy, Mila. I’m the one who isn’t worthy of you.’ He shook his head. ‘I didn’t have the childhood you thought I did.’

      ‘What do you mean?’

      He stuffed his hands into his pockets and looked down. The gesture made him look so defeated she wanted to hold him in her arms, but as she followed his gaze she realised she was looking at grass. She’d made it down the stairs!

      ‘I did it...’ she said to herself, not quite believing this victory, especially after the fear had paralysed her for over a year.

      ‘Yeah, you did.’

      Jordan smiled at her, and for the first time since he had returned, she could tell that it was completely genuine, despite the look of disconcertion on his face.

      ‘I did it. I really did it.’

      She felt like a fool when her eyes started tearing up, but she couldn’t help it. A small piece inside her that had broken after she’d lost her son had become whole, and it gave her a sense of peace. She felt relief, a sense of accomplishment, and so many other emotions she couldn’t even begin to put her finger on.

      When she looked at Jordan, she saw that his frown had cleared, replaced by a look of satisfaction.

      He did this purposely, she thought and, ignoring the voice that screamed in her head, she hugged him.

      The comfort of it hit her so hard that she had to close her eyes. But that only heightened her senses. The woodsy smell of him was intoxicating—so familiar and masculine that awareness heated inside her. She was moulded to his body, could feel the strength of the muscles she had admired when she’d first seen him after he’d returned. His arms—which had been still at his sides until that moment—wrapped around her and she was pulled in tighter to his body. Her breathing slowed, her heart sped up, and she had to resist the urge to pull his head down so that she could taste his lips.

      And then she lifted her head and met his eyes. The heat of longing there was a reflection of her own, and she could feel the world fade as it always did with him. Gooseflesh shot out on her skin, and she considered for a brief moment what would happen if she kissed him.

      It would be magical, she knew. The things inside her that had died when he’d left would find life. She would finally feel alive again. But at what cost? a voice asked her, and she took a step back from him, knowing that it would take away everything she had rebuilt if she gave in to this temptation.

      ‘Thank you,’ she said, and felt the warmth of a blush light her face. But she’d needed to say it, to make sure that he knew why she had hugged him—as a token of gratitude, nothing else. The physical effect the seemingly innocent gesture had awakened was merely an unforeseen consequence.

      ‘It’s the least I can do,’ he replied in a gravelly voice, and she knew that their contact had affected him, too.

      What was more surprising to her was that he looked as though he genuinely meant the words, that he wasn’t just saying them automatically.

      She cleared her throat. ‘So...we should probably start rallying the troops.’

      He nodded his agreement, and she forced herself to shift focus. She could be professional. She prided herself on it, in fact. She began to explain her strategy—she would speak to the vendors first, since they knew her, and then introduce them to Jordan as the new owner of the vineyard. Then they would pitch their event, find out if they were interested and available, and hope for the best. Since the will stipulated that they should give evidence of trying their best to find exactly the same service providers for the event, she would record their interactions and use them to show Mark if they needed to find alternatives.

      ‘You’ve thought of everything, haven’t you?’

      ‘That’s the job,’ she replied, her neck prickling at the admiration she heard in Jordan’s voice.

      ‘Where have I heard that before?’ he muttered, and she remembered she’d said something similar to him the first time they’d met.

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