Modern Romance Collection: May 2018 Books 1 - 4. Эбби Грин

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      Nothing scared Andreas anymore.

      He was his own man.

      No one could ever take that away again.

      She pulled her knees to her chest, wrapped her arms around her legs. Classic Kayla self-protection pose. Even her sweats and hoodie were what he considered her armor.

      Most women dressed up when they wanted to feel safe, but not Kayla. She dressed down, in sweats, a hoodie, thick socks. And as far as he knew, Andreas was the only person who knew that.

      Her gray gaze regarded him somberly. “Six years ago you figured out a way to use me for your company.”

      “That’s one way of looking at it.”

      “Is there another?” she asked, sounding like she thought she knew the answer.

      “I found a way to keep you in my life longer than a lover would have lasted.”

      Her eyes widened, her expression mirroring shock and a little incredulousness.

      “I liked you more than any woman I’d ever had in my bed. I had more tender feelings for you than anyone else, like I’d only ever allowed myself to feel toward my mother. I didn’t want to lose you out of my life entirely.”

      “But as your lover I had a sell-by date that was fast approaching,” she said, as if with dawning understanding and no small amount of horror.

      It was true none of his other lovers had lasted as long as she had. “I didn’t know how much longer we would be together as sexual partners, but I knew as business partners our relationship would last longer.”

      “And it did.” She said this with a strange, very un-Kayla-like tone, like she was adjusting her thoughts, but not like the adjustment made her happy.

      “It was a good move. We started working together, became friends. Best friends. We’re in each other’s lives in a good way. A long-term way.”

      “Not anymore. You’re selling the company. You’re walking away.” Kayla’s voice was filled with such sadness, such finality.

      It chilled Andreas right through. “I want you to walk with me.”

      “I’m not leaving KJ Software.” There was no doubt there. No give. Absolutely no compromise.

      It was like she’d written code with no if...then statement. In Kayla’s mind, this was a closed loop of program.

      “You don’t mean that. There’s so much more you could do. So many more puzzles you could solve.” Didn’t she realize? “You’re brilliant. The whole world of computer programming is open to you. It doesn’t have to be cybersecurity.”

      “I like the puzzles I solve now. That company is my home. I feel safe there.”

      Her home? It was just a company.

      But looking at Kayla, for the first time, he realized they looked at KJ Software with completely different eyes. He might own 95 percent, but Kayla was invested in the company in a way he never would be.

      Something cold opened up inside Andreas. It had never occurred to him that when all was said and done he would not be able to convince Kayla to move on to the next venture with him.

      “No, your home is your condo.” That should be true.

      She shook her head, her expression repudiating his words before she ever spoke. “That’s just where I sleep. Not where I feel safe.”

      “Don’t I make you feel safe?” If he wasn’t her safety, what was he to her? He wasn’t just her boss.

      She stared at him, something he couldn’t read in her gray gaze. “You’re getting married.”

      “That doesn’t mean things between us have to change.”

      “Yes, it does.”

      “No. I say what happens in my life.” He’d made that truth in his life since he’d left the Georgas family and Greece. She had to know that.

      “You’re making a new family. I won’t be in it.”

      No. Those words weren’t true. He wouldn’t let them be true. “You are part of my life.” Part of his family, but for some reason he couldn’t say the words out loud.

      “Maybe we still can be friends, but you can’t be my safety. That wouldn’t be fair to your new wife, to the children you’ll have together. It’s just not the way it works, Andreas. The company. It’s all I have. I have to talk to Sebastian Hawk and make sure he’s not going to take that away from me.”

      Realization hit Andreas hard. And it was one he did not like. Kayla needed security he, Andreas Kostas, could not give her. She felt threatened by the loss of the company and his marriage happening at the same time. Both were necessary for Andreas’s final plan to prove to his father and the Georgas family that he did not need them in any shape or form.

      Had never needed them. Would never need them.

      The only way to give Kayla what she needed was to put off one or both of his stratagems and Andreas simply could not do that. He had worked too hard to make his plans a reality. Besides, he was finished with KJ Software. He’d been itching to move on to something bigger and better for the last year.

      Kayla knew that, even if she was struggling with accepting it.

      It had never occurred to him that she’d want to stay on. That the company itself had taken on a surrogate family role to her. That she considered it her stability factor.

      “I wanted you to keep working with me,” he told her baldly.

      The look of utter sadness and acceptance in her expressive gray eyes said it all. “You want to keep building bigger and better businesses.”

      “Yes.”

      “Sometimes, businesses fail.”

      “Mine won’t.”

      Her pretty lips tilted in a half smile. “You’re so confident.”

      “You’ve called me arrogant a time or three in the past.”

      “Well, you are,” she teased in the old way.

      He shrugged.

      “I’m not leaving the company with you.”

      She meant it. She really wanted to stay with the company and had every intention of doing so.

      “That doesn’t mean we can’t be friends.” Maybe they wouldn’t work together, but they still lived in the same building.

      She drank her tea and stared at him for a lot longer than he thought it should take to answer that statement, but finally she set СКАЧАТЬ