Hot Single Docs: Meeting His Match. Susan Carlisle

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      There was movement in the room and the door remained closed. Lucy must be in there. He’d raised his hand to knock again when the door opened.

      “Yes?” She met his gaze. “Is something wrong?”

      “As a matter of fact, there is. I will not be blackmailed.”

      Both their heads tuned toward the shushing sound coming from down the hall. The nurse had her finger held across her lips.

      “Let’s go into your office.” He gave her a nudge. Her uncertain look brought his anger down a notch. He hadn’t intended to scare her. “Please, Lucy.”

      She backed into the room but didn’t meet his eyes. He entered and closed the door, and Lucy moved as far back in the room as the tiny space would allow. She didn’t sit, so neither did he.

      He shoved his hands into his pockets. “Just what was that all about down there in the ER? Why the big push to get me to be so concerned about the family’s feelings? You went too far tonight, Lucy.” He stepped a pace closer as he spoke.

      She stood her ground. “Because the least they deserved was to have their doctor’s, and especially their surgeon’s, concern. They want to hear the good and the bad from you. They want to feel they can trust you with their loved one’s life. To do that they have to know you. They have to have a relationship with you, even if it is only a surface one. They’re putting the most precious thing in their lives into your hands and that takes real courage.

      “Do you have any idea what it is like to hand your child over to someone? To trust them to give them the care and attention that you would?”

      Her large, dramatic eyes glistened. Was she going to cry?

      “Are you so insensitive that you can’t have any compassion for the parents of your patients? It’s a good thing you’re not a thoracic surgeon because I don’t think you’d even recognize a heart if you saw one.”

      Ryan recoiled as if he’d been slapped. He’d come here with the intention of getting an apology and instead he was getting a dressing down. Where was all this venom coming from?

      She turned to her desk, putting her back to him. “I’ve had enough for today. I’m headed home. We can talk about this tomorrow.”

      “No, we can’t.” He used his OR hand-me-an-instrument voice. “We’re going to talk about it now. I don’t think that entire tirade was to do with me or what happened in the ER tonight.”

      She pulled out the desk drawer and brought out her purse. “Look, Ryan, I’m too tired to hash this out tonight. I’d just like to go home.”

      “We’re not going anywhere until you explain to me—”

      “You can’t keep me here.”

      “I can.” He moved so that he leaned against the door. “But I’d prefer not to.” Her luminous eyes pleaded with him and his heart caught. The part he’d thought had died with his father. Lucy was pulling him, kicking and screaming, back to life.

      “Something is wrong. Don’t tell me you’re just upset about the boy because I won’t buy it. Even with your tender heart, you wouldn’t be this upset.”

      “Not only a brain surgeon but a psychiatrist too. My, you must’ve been a genius in med school to be as young as you are and pull off two degrees.”

      “Not a genius but I do pride myself on being perceptive. Or at least I used to be.” That had been until Alex Rodriguez had been brought in to take the department head position that Ryan had been so sure was his. “Anyway, we’re not talking about me.”

      She pulled her coat and scarf off the back of her chair. “I’m sorry if I hurt your feelings but it needed to be said. Now, if you’ll excuse me...?” She stepped toward him as if hoping to intimidate him into letting her pass.

      He shook his head. “Not until you explain.”

      She dropped into a desk chair. He took the chair closest, propping his elbows on his knees and facing her.

      “Sharing wasn’t outlined in the co-ordinated patient care manual. Can’t you just let it go?”

      “You owe me an explanation for your attack.” That at least got a contrite look from her. Was he losing his mind? He didn’t confide in people and he didn’t get involved in another person’s personal life.

      “You’re going to make me say it?”

      He nodded.

      “Miguel’s mother isn’t really his mother.”

      “Miguel?” His brows dipped. He was completely lost.

      “Your newest patient.” Her voice had a tone of impatience and a touch of disappointment.

      He was catching up. What did Miguel have to do with her problem? “Oh, yes, Miguel Rivera.”

      “His mother is really his aunt.”

      She wasn’t usually this vague. His puzzled look must have indicated he had no idea of the significance of that statement.

      “I carried a baby for my sister and her husband. I had in vitro fertilization,” she said quietly.

      Being a surrogate for her sister had been Lucy’s ultimate pleasure. Handing over the baby she’d carried her greatest pain. In order to survive emotionally, she’d left. Emily was her sister’s baby, not her own. No matter how much her heart screamed differently.

      She stood and said in a flat voice, “Now can I go?”

      Ryan’s eyes widened. He blinked and shifted slightly, as if he was formulating his words carefully. “Of all the things I might have thought you’d say, that wasn’t one of them.”

      To voice the words had been painful, but there was something freeing about having said them. She couldn’t believe she’d told Ryan of all people. He’d more than once proved he couldn’t connect on an emotional level. If she had been going to confess to someone, he wouldn’t have been her choice. She’d only shared her pain because he’d caught her in a weak moment and he’d insisted.

      Still, being new to town and working long hours, he was the closest person to a friend she had. He was the only soul other than Mr. Volpentesta that she saw regularly. That thought was so sad she didn’t take time to analyze it for fear she would start crying. Here she was revealing her deepest pain to someone who hadn’t wanted her even taking up his time just a few days earlier.

      Ryan stood. “I’ve heard of women being surrogates, but I’ve never known anyone that has done it.”

      She’d obviously shocked him. For some reason she felt the need to make him understand. “My twin sister Alexis and her husband Sam tried to conceive for years. When Alexis asked me if I would carry their baby, I couldn’t turn her down. Didn’t want to...” The words trailed off. If I’d known...

      His eyes widened as if he suddenly saw the picture clearly. “So when Miguel’s mother said she was really his aunt, it hit too close to home?”

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