A Long Walk Home. Diane Amos

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      “I’ve missed you, too. I was hoping you could come over for lunch tomorrow. Alone, just you and me…like old times.”

      Clear and to the point.

      Tony wasn’t welcome.

      But I was willing to compromise. Plus, Tony had to work tomorrow. His architectural firm was preparing a bid on a new mall. “Yes, is noon good for you?”

      “Perfect.”

      We spoke for a few more minutes about incidentals: the rising cost of gas, oil heat and the weather. Once we’d exhausted topics of no importance, we hung up.

      I spun around in my desk chair and while glancing out at the Portland skyline, I realized how much I’d missed hearing from Vi. I hoped tomorrow we could start to bridge the gap in our relationship.

      Later that day I met Mallory and Carrie at DiMillo’s. The hostess led us to a table by a window. The light mist that had started falling that afternoon had become intermittent rain which now pelted the pane of glass. A raw, crisp wind stirred the ocean into choppy waves, causing boats in the harbor to sway on their moorings.

      We sat down and took the menus from the hostess who filled our glasses with water. “Your server will be right with you.”

      “Anything new?” Carrie asked me.

      “I’m meeting Vi for lunch tomorrow.”

      “That’s great,” Carrie replied.

      “You keep up a strong front,” Mallory said. “Don’t let her make you feel guilty about wanting a life for yourself. There’s nothing wrong with you and Tony living together. You’re adults for cripes sake.”

      “This isn’t about who’s right and who’s wrong. I want us to be friends.”

      “What if that’s not possible?” Mallory asked.

      I’d wondered the same thing. Would I have to choose between Tony and Vi? “Then I’ll deal with that, too.”

      John, the waiter we’d had last week, walked past our table. He and Mallory exchanged searing glances as he hurried into the kitchen.

      “Let me guess…” I covered my mouth with my right hand. “Something’s going on between you two.”

      Carrie fanned her face. “Something hot, hot, hot!”

      “And it’s a wonder I can still walk,” Mallory said with a low laugh.

      Carrie shook her head. “I’d love to find a nice guy and settle down. But no one’s willing to take on the responsibility of a ready-made family.”

      Mallory looked down at the dessert menu. “Men are afraid of getting married. But they’re always willing to move in for a week of fun and games, right, Annie?”

      I was a bit irritated that Mallory would compare what I had with Tony to her fly-by-night encounters.

      “Why are you asking me? I know nothing about sampling the flavor of the week.”

      Mallory’s mouth curved into a wide smile. “Neither of you know what you’re missing.” She set the menu down. “Most men are terrified of commitment. They do a convincing song and dance about love and how you don’t need a piece of paper to prove how you feel. But it’s the same bull.”

      What Mallory had said sounded very familiar, and it stung. True, I’d agreed with Tony: marriage was just a piece of paper, a certificate that bound two people together until the good times disappeared.

      The concept of marriage was a farce.

      It was far more sensible to live together and know that person was there because he/she wanted to be there, not because that piece of paper said they couldn’t leave.

      It made sense, so why did I feel as though I needed to defend my live-in relationship? Plus, I certainly wasn’t ready for more than a bedmate—a sexy, turn my legs to mush, kissable bedmate.

      Mallory turned to Carrie. “If you want a man, then pretend you aren’t looking for ‘the one.’”

      “You mean lie?”

      Mallory nodded. “I prefer to think of it as bending the truth a little.”

      “I’m a mother so I have to project a certain image.”

      “You need to loosen up,” Mallory said, her gaze following John as he took an older couple’s order several tables away. “Hmmm-hmmm, nice butt.”

      “Not bad,” I said, tapping my fingernail against the water glass. “For a kid.”

      Mallory’s hazel eyes sparkled. “John’s in his second year of college at the University of Southern Maine.”

      “You’re kidding,” Carrie said, her cheeks flushing crimson.

      Mallory uttered a deep laugh. “Before you call the cops on me, it’s not as bad as it sounds. He was in the navy for a while and went back to school. He’s thirty-one.”

      “I don’t know if I could ever marry a younger man,” Carrie said.

      “I don’t intend to marry him. Though I’d like him to stick around for a while. He’s very talented in bed.”

      “That sounds awful, like you’re using him,” Carrie said, looking troubled.

      Carrie was the more sensitive of my two friends. When it came to men, she was too nice, too willing to believe what they said. And she ended up hurt.

      “We both know where we stand,” Mallory replied. “No one’s going to get hurt. And there’s nothing wrong with enjoying each other’s company. Especially when the guy is so yummy. Enough about me, how’s Tony?”

      “We’re getting along really well. I was concerned I’d feel as though he was invading my space, but we have enough alone time that it isn’t a problem,” I replied.

      Carrie took a sip of water. “I’m looking for someone really special, a man who’ll want to spend his spare time with me and the boys. Someone I can trust.”

      “I think that breed is extinct,” Mallory said.

      Carrie sighed. “I’m afraid you may be right.”

      “Have you started to notice Tony’s little annoying habits yet?” Mallory asked.

      “Nope, maybe he doesn’t have any.” I knew that would stir up Mallory.

      “When you least expect it, you’ll start noticing the cap off the toothpaste, the butter left out on the counter, in the morning dirty dishes in the sink that weren’t there when you went to bed. That’s when I usually give the guy the heave-ho. And since there are no strings attached, it’ll be easy for you to move on, too.”

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