The Editor. Стивен Роули

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      “She was mostly sitting down.”

      Allen guffaws. “I wish I could have seen the look on your face.”

      “Yeah, well. You were no help.”

      “Listen. I didn’t want you to be in your head. Remember our first meeting? You’re very engaging, but you can get in your own way.” I shake my head in protest even though he’s got me pegged. The first time we met I was trying to make a joke about his credentials and mispronounced the word emeritus. After that, I was tripping over my tongue for the entire conversation.

      “Bygones, right? I got the two of you in a room together.”

      “You’re quite the yenta.”

      You can tell Allen’s still pleased with himself; he chuckles, forming a slick grin. He leans back in his chair, then grimaces and bounces forward.

      “Bruises?”

      “Yeah. That’s going to smart for days. Anyhow, I don’t even know why he hired her. Tommy. She had no experience. Her Rolodex, I guess. Thought she could bring in some big books as an acquiring editor. I think he offered her something like two hundred bucks a week. I’m not sure the whole experience was even worth that.”

      “Why not?” I’m fascinated.

      “The relationship only lasted two years before it blew up in his face. She quit over some two-bit novel they did about the assassination of Ted Kennedy.”

      “You mean Bobby?” I’m confused.

      “No. Ted. It was some alternate-history sort of thing. She sent him a letter of resignation in the middle of the night. The middle of the night! The book was in poor taste, but still. Meanwhile, for those two years? Chaos.” Allen looks all over his desk and finally produces a pen. “You have to put it in context. She was enticingly available to the public for the very first time. She had an office, regular hours. Their poor receptionist had to field every whack-a-doo who stepped off the elevator wanting to see her. People would show up with a ream of blank paper and demand a meeting like they were the next Mario Puzo. Meanwhile, phones ringing off the hook. Mike Wallace on one! Barbara Walters on two! Some housewife called like clockwork for a daily report on what Jackie was wearing. One man showed up, and when he was refused an audience he said he was wrapped in dynamite! Tommy himself had to intervene and talk the man down. Ha!” He reads the shocked expression on my face. Clearly, I’m not finding this as funny as he does. “Ah, well. You’d have to know Tommy.”

      “So, what happened?” I hesitantly ask.

      “Bah.” Allen dismisses my concern with the wave of his hand. “There was no dynamite.”

      I roll my eyes. “Is it still that crazy? Do I need a flak jacket?”

      “Oh, no. She got down to work and disappeared. Novelty eventually wore off.” Allen hands me four copies of the publishing agreement and the pen.

      “So I’m not nuts, then. To sign these?”

      “You may be nuts, kid, but not for signing these.”

      I flip the top contract open to the final page, which is tabbed “sign here.” I pause, wondering if I should do something special to mark this occasion but decide it’s best not to stand on ceremony. I put Allen’s pen to paper and … nothing. It’s out of ink. I shake the pen and try again. Nada. “I hope this isn’t a sign.”

      “Oh, come on.” Allen rummages through a drawer. “DONNA!”

      “I don’t think she’s here.”

      “You celebrate yet?” He pats himself down to see if there’s a pen in his pockets.

      “Nope. Waiting to sign these.”

      “Family happy?”

      “I’ve been keeping a low profile. Superstition.” I cross my fingers on both hands to emphasize the point before remembering that some consider that bad luck.

      Allen looks up at me. “Your mother?”

      I put my finger on my nose. “I don’t know what she thinks. She hasn’t read it.”

      “What do you mean she hasn’t read it?”

      “I asked her to read it, she gave me a tomato.”

      “She threw it at you?”

      “No, just offered it. To eat. I asked her a second time and she said she’d still rather not.”

      “Rather not what?” Allen conjures another pen, removes the cap, and hands it to me. It’s a promotional giveaway from a paper supply company in New Jersey and the top of the pen has bite marks. It feels anticlimactic, to say the least. I imagine if Jackie were the one to countersign these agreements (and not some business-affairs person) she would do so with an elegant fountain pen. I guess we all work with what we have.

      “Read it, I guess. But I suppose she’d rather it not exist at all.” I hover the pen above the contracts and my hand shakes. Allen notices my hesitation.

      “It’s a loving portrait,” he says.

      “It’s an honest portrait.”

      He chuffs. “She’ll come around. If not, now you’ve got a spare.”

      “What, who—Jackie?” My face turns as red as Allen’s back.

      “Editors are mothers of sorts.”

      I’m annoyed the shutters aren’t more open so that I can stare dramatically out the window onto Fifty-Ninth Street. This is my last chance to do the right thing by my mother. Yet would that be the right thing for me? Is the mark of adulthood putting others first? Or is it standing behind your own vision, your own work, your own view of the world? Beads of sweat form on my forehead and I have to wipe my brow.

      My hand still trembles, but I manage to sign all four agreements. I stare at my signature, barely recognizing it as my own. My name looks foreign. Like it’s not mine but my father’s—someone else who let my mother down. I thought this would be fun, I thought I would want to remember this moment, but in truth I just want to move on. “When do we get paid?”

      “First check upon execution!” Allen takes the contracts from me and I place the pen in an empty mug, which I’m hoping is a pencil jar and not the remnants of his morning caffeine. He flips through the agreements to make sure everything is in order.

      I suddenly see the wisdom in paying someone to hit me. I even consider asking Allen for his guy’s number. If I’m indeed causing my mother pain, wouldn’t some in return be rightful penance? And even if not, I already feel like the wind’s been knocked out of me—perhaps a few swift punches could knock it back in. I lean forward and put my head between my knees.

      “You okay, kid?”

      “Thought I dropped something.” I don’t tell him I’m suddenly nauseated.

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