A Magical Regency Christmas: Christmas Cinderella / Finding Forever at Christmas / The Captain's Christmas Angel. Margaret McPhee

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СКАЧАТЬ alone a man of God—that it had all been a mistake, that you hadn’t really meant to kiss him at all? Or at least not like that. Not like a wanton. Especially when your heart was still pounding and you could still taste him, wine-dark and gentle, in your mouth. When your breasts ached from being pressed against him and your body remembered exactly where those big, careful hands had touched.

      * * *

      God in heaven!

      Was that what St Paul meant about better to marry than burn? He’d always assumed that referred to the fires of hell, of sin. Or perhaps St Paul had truly considered physical love to be sinful.

      Alex’s steps crunched through the frost towards the rectory, as his mind spun dizzily. He hadn’t known. Simply hadn’t known that a kiss could be like that. Like...like an explosion, a beginning and ending all in one.

      Better to marry than burn...

      ‘Evening, Rector.’

      ‘Good evening, Davey.’ He managed a smile for Davey Fletcher. Prayed the blacksmith hadn’t seen which cottage he’d come out of.

      ‘That Miss Woodrowe’s a right pretty lass,’ said Fletcher cheerfully, patting Bonny as she nudged up to him.

      Yes, well. Not all prayers were answered quite as one might like. He knew that.

      Fletcher continued. ‘My boy, Caleb, reckons she’s real nice too, the way she manages all them young ’uns. Teaching them their ABCs an’ all.’ He nodded. ‘Good thing for this village, an’ don’t you think we’re not grateful to you and his lordship for doing it.’ He doffed his cap and went on his way, whistling.

      Of course, Fletcher probably thought he’d just been discussing the children’s progress with Polly. As he should have been.

      Instead, he’d been kissing her. And there was only one possible remedy for that. At least, there was only one remedy for him in this situation.

      He’d somehow always expected the decision to marry—and the choice of a bride—to be a rational, logical process, just like everything else he’d done in his life. Naturally his wife would be a woman he liked and esteemed, someone he could be comfortable with. But tumbling head over heels in love?

      Oh, he knew people fell in love. He’d watched it happen to Dominic and Pippa. It had not looked logical at all. Although perhaps that was just their confusion. The actual result had been perfectly logical. He’d seen that before they had. But still, he’d never thought that it would happen to him. Not like that. But it had. Like a thunderbolt. He dragged in a breath, steadied his thinking, reaching for the calm inner peace he relied on. Just because he’d fallen in love didn’t mean it wasn’t necessary to at least behave as though he was thinking rationally. More importantly, he needed to behave with honour.

      He groaned. Kissing Polly Woodrowe out of her wits was not the action of an honourable man. Not when she had no one to protect her, to guard her reputation, or to advise her.

      Of course it would be different if they were betrothed.

      Very different.

      Kissing her would be quite unexceptionable. As long as he made sure it stopped at kissing. What worried him was that ensuring that it did stop at kissing looked like being a problem. He was a clergyman, for heaven’s sake!

      Apparently he was a man before he was a clergyman. A man who wanted a woman. A woman he liked, cared for and respected. Logically, and thank God he was actually being logical again, that could mean only one thing: marriage.

      * * *

      The next day it was all Polly could do to keep her mind on her pupils and off Alex Martindale. No letter dismissing her had arrived during breakfast, the children all came to school on time and, apart from an awkward moment over Jemmy Willet’s arithmetic, the day passed uneventfully.

      Until Alex arrived as the children were leaving.

      They filed out, greeting him cheerfully as they passed. Polly listened as he greeted them by name, asking after parents, relatives, little brothers and sisters. He knew these people, she realised. Knew them and cared about them. They were indeed his flock.

      And he was probably quite horrified to think that he had placed a wanton hussy in charge of the lambs.

      She shut the door behind the children and faced him. ‘Mr Martindale, about last night, I’m—’

      ‘Yes. Last night. Miss Woodrowe—Polly—will you do me the honour of marrying me?’

      Marriage. In the darkness last night, sleepless in her bed, she had allowed her dreams free rein. And had banished them in the chill light of morning. Alex Martindale could not marry a penniless schoolmistress, whose family did not want to know her.

      Surely he knew that?

      Apparently he didn’t.

      * * *

      He hadn’t meant to blurt it out like that, but the mere thought of last night had scattered his carefully prepared speech.

      ‘Marry you?’ She stared at him as if he’d sprouted an extra head, or possibly horns and a tail.

      He cleared his throat. ‘Well, yes. I’d like you to marry me.’ Rather understating the case, but—

      ‘Why?’

      Dash it all! Wasn’t it obvious? ‘You can ask that? After yesterday?’

      She stared. ‘This is because you kissed me? You feel honour-bound to offer marriage because you kissed me?’

      ‘No,’ he said at once. ‘I’m asking you to marry me because I want to be able to kiss you and know I don’t have to stop.’ Her jaw dropped and he followed up his advantage at once. ‘And because I want to kiss you again. Right now.’

      Her eyes widened. ‘Right now?’

      ‘Yes.’

      ‘But you’re...not.’

      ‘No. Because I wouldn’t want to stop. And...’ he dragged in a breath, cast discretion, not to mention delicacy, to perdition ‘...because I might not stop.’ Oh, God! Now she knew, knew the truth. And she’d think him depraved.

      ‘But, sir—’

      ‘Alex.’ He didn’t want her calling him sir, or Mr Martindale, or anything else but Alex.

      She flushed. ‘Alex, then. Don’t you see? I’m no sort of wife for you. I’ve no money. No connections. I would bring you nothing.’

      She was biting her lip in a way that made him want to soothe it, kiss away the worry and then bite it himself. Even as the idea of her feeling unworthy infuriated him. ‘I’m perfectly well off and my own connections are more than adequate,’ he pointed out.

      ‘That’s just it!’ she said. ‘It...it would be most unequal.’

      Ah. Here was the rub, then. ‘And would that bother you if our positions were reversed?’ he asked quietly.

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