Always Emily. Mary Sullivan

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      Grandpa was still sleeping. Thank goodness. If he’d woken up and seen her, all hell would have broken loose. She needed to get to her room, where she wanted to hide forever.

      She was only halfway up the stairs when Gramps let out his “wakeup” snort and said, “What?” She stopped and tried to calm her runaway heart. He smacked his lips, part of his waking-up routine. She knew he’d be stretching his skinny body every which way to come awake. His spine would make popping sounds.

      The sound of the TV turning on followed her up the rest of the stairs. She tiptoed along the hallway and into her room. Closing her bedroom door, she leaned against it and let her tears flow.

      Justin hadn’t really wanted her. He’d just wanted an easy lay.

      What made him think she would be? She didn’t go out with boys. She was quiet at school. Was it because of her heritage?

      In her mirror, she saw the reflection of a girl with dark raccoon eyes because of her ruined mascara. She swiped it with tissues until it was all gone.

      Her hair, usually shiny and straight, hung in wet strings. With the broad cheekbones she’d inherited from her dad, there was no mistaking her heritage.

      Native American. Ute.

      She hated her face and she hated her name.

      Would Justin have attacked her if her name had been Brittany? Or Madison? If she were white, would he have tried to make her drink beer and have sex?

      She grasped the corners of the heavy blankets decorated with the symbols of her heritage and hauled them from the bed, wadding them into a ball and tossing them into the corner.

      It took forever to get out of her wet clothes, to tug the wet denim down her legs and to put on her long nightshirt. She crammed her jeans into her laundry basket. Dad would be mad that she hadn’t hung them to dry. So what? It didn’t matter. Nothing mattered.

      She curled into a ball on her plain white bedsheets and shivered.

      * * *

      “WHAT DID YOU SAY?” Salem asked, slowing the Jeep because they were near the turn onto her father’s property.

      “I’ve hit rock bottom. I’m as low as I can go. I need a place to rest.”

      He didn’t know what to say. He’d told her to leave him alone, but she hadn’t. She’d come to him sick. While he felt used, he also felt an odd sort of honor. In her father’s house, there would have been a dozen people willing to take care of her. She’d chosen him.

      Or had she? He thought of her muddy hands.

      “I’m dropping you off at your dad’s, right?”

      He felt her roll her head on the headrest and watch him.

      He glanced at her. “What?”

      “I need a friend, Salem. I can’t go home tonight. Too many people there.”

      No, he didn’t want her in his home. “There’s no room at my house. You know that, Emily.”

      “I’ll take anything.”

      Salem struggled to hold back his objections. This push-pull of love and anger was a struggle he’d lived with for too many years.

      “Hey,” Emily said quietly. “Why aren’t you at Dad’s party? You two are good friends.”

      “I meant to go after work, but started reading and lost track of time.”

      Emily’s soft chuckle filled the interior of the car. He’d missed her laugh, and how it could lighten his darkest moments. “You’ve always been one for getting lost in a book. Remember when I used to sit in your office and say outrageous things about you and you would be so immersed in a book you wouldn’t hear a thing?”

      He remembered, with enough pleasure that he drove right past the turnoff to her dad’s house to take her home with him.

      Crazy fool, letting her use you like this.

      Yes, I’m a fool, but I like having her close. This is just for tonight.

      It had better be. You know how she breaks your heart when she leaves. Every time.

      “What happened to you?” he asked.

      “I left him. For good. Just like you said I should.”

      “What about work?”

      “I left that, too.”

      “For how long? A couple of weeks?”

      “For good.”

      She was leaving her career? The light from the dashboard wasn’t strong enough to tell much more than that she had her eyes closed.

      The nature of the silence in the car changed, became laden with censure, as though Emily were holding up a giant No Trespassing sign, making it clear that she’d said as much as she was going to.

      Salem didn’t know how he knew this when she hadn’t said a word, but he knew, and held his tongue. Did he believe she’d left Jean-Marc for good? Not a chance. Had she left archeology for good? Never.

      On the far side of town, he turned down his street and pulled into his driveway, where he helped her into the house. He led her to the kitchen. She plopped onto a chair and rested her head on her folded hands on top of the table.

      His father wandered in. “Emily, hello.”

      She raised her head. “Hello, Mr. Pearce.”

      “You don’t look good, girl.”

      “Feel awful,” she said with a wan smile. Here in the brightly lit room she looked even worse than she had in the dim Heritage Center office. Her skin was as ghostly as her voice had sounded in the car. Fever painted round red spots like old-fashioned rouge on cheekbones that didn’t use to be so sharp. She put her head back down on fragile-looking wrists.

      Salem should go to the Sudan and kill the bastard who did this to her, and that puzzled him. Emily had always been able to take care of herself. She’d never needed him to fight her battles for her.

      “She has malaria, Dad.”

      “You need fattening, girl,” Dad said. To Salem, he directed, “Warm her some of that soup I made yesterday.”

      Salem took a container of chicken soup out of the refrigerator and heated a bowl in the microwave. Old wives’ tale or not, his father figured it was good for anything that ailed a body. He made a fresh pot every week.

      Emily lifted a spoonful of soup, but the effort cost her. She needed to be in bed.

      “Give me,” he said. He took the utensil from her and raised soup to her mouth.

      “Not a child.”

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