Maybe My Baby. Victoria Pade

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СКАЧАТЬ the reason was and decide what to do about it. But I won’t let it—or Mickey—stand in the way of what you’re here to do. Boonesbury really could benefit from that grant money.”

      “And you’re just going to take it in stride,” Emmy said, still finding it difficult to believe anyone could be so cool about it all.

      Aiden Tarlington shrugged his shoulders again. “This is Alaska. Things in Fairbanks, Anchorage, Juneau—the cities—are pretty much what you’d find in the lower forty-eight. But out here there’s a mix of stubborn independence and neighbor helping neighbor. I know these people and I know this baby being here could mean just about anything. But, like I said, I’ll make sure it doesn’t interfere with what you’re here to do, or impact on you in any way.”

      And if this was all some kind of test Howard had set up, she decided on the spot that she was going to pass it. That she wasn’t going to get upset by this turn of events and call the head of the board of trustees to whine about it the way Evelyn would have. That she wasn’t going to take it upon herself to care for that baby even if she was itching to hold him and comfort him and let him know he was with people who would be kind to him. That she wasn’t going to let herself be distracted the way Evelyn would have been. Or let herself be swayed in Boonesbury’s favor because she was already having her heartstrings tugged.

      She was there to assess medical needs of the entire area and community and that was all. Period. Finito. That was the total sum and substance of what she was concerning herself with. She knew that Howard had very nearly not given her the job because Evelyn had left him with so many doubts that a woman could do it. Doubts that a woman could weather the hardships of these trips and remain objective in the face of the things she might see. And Emmy was going to prove him wrong.

      So, with all of that in mind, Emmy tried to ignore Mickey by raising her chin and her gaze high enough not to see him and said, “I’m sure everything will work out. But if you don’t mind, I’ve had a really long day and I think I’ll leave you to do whatever you need to with Mickey to get him settled in for the night.”

      “Sure. You must be beat. There won’t be any rush to get out of here tomorrow, so you can sleep in as long as you want and we’ll just go into town whenever you’re ready.”

      “Great.”

      Aiden stood to walk her to the door, taking Mickey along with him. “If you need anything just stomp on the floor a couple of times and I’ll come running.”

      “Okay. Good luck with this,” Emmy added, nodding at Mickey.

      “Thanks,” Aiden said with a small chuckle, as if he could use some luck.

      Or a benefactor who hadn’t enlisted him to test the new director, Emmy thought. Although she was impressed by how good he was at the charade. Obviously, Howard had chosen well in his coconspirator.

      Emmy opened the front door and flinched at the blast of cold air that came in. “Better keep Mickey out of the draft,” she advised. “I’ll close this behind me.”

      Aiden nodded, staying a few feet back.

      “Good night,” Emmy said.

      “Sleep well.”

      She pushed open the screen door, then stepped out onto the porch and turned to pull the wooden door shut.

      But as she did she couldn’t help taking one last look at Aiden Tarlington, standing there holding that baby, and she was struck by what an appealing sight it was to see the big, muscular man cradling the infant in his arms.

      But she wasn’t going to let any of it get to her, she reminded herself firmly.

      Not the adorable, abandoned baby.

      Not the wilderness.

      Not the rustic room without heat.

      Not the idea of needing to fly back to civilization in the tiny plane when this was over.

      And not the drop-dead-gorgeous, sexy doctor she was sort of living with.

      Evelyn, Emmy knew, would never have been able to keep her mind on the job with all these distractions.

      But Emmy was determined that she would.

      Chapter Two

      Aiden woke up early the next morning and immediately rolled to his side to peer down at his youngest houseguest.

      He’d pumped up an air mattress and placed it between the bed and the wall as a makeshift crib, but he hadn’t been sure it was the safest way for the baby to sleep. Worrying about it had made for a restless night. But, as he had on every other bed check, he found Mickey sound asleep, peacefully making sucking noises as if he were practicing for breakfast.

      Even though it came as a relief to see once again that the infant was all right, Aiden didn’t hold out much hope of falling back to sleep himself. The sun wasn’t anywhere near rising yet, so he rolled to his back again, closed his eyes and tried to relax enough to maybe doze off.

      Except that now he could hear those sucking sounds and he just kept thinking, What the hell am I doing with a baby…?

      He’d thought he’d pretty much seen it all up here during the past seven years. But he had to admit that having a baby left on his doorstep was a new one. He delivered babies, he didn’t have them left with him.

      As he’d put his tiny charge to bed he’d tried to figure out if Mickey was one of the babies he’d delivered seven months or so ago, but he hadn’t been able to tell. A newborn and a seven-month-old didn’t look much alike. Even the eye color often changed. And it wasn’t as if he could remember specific, identifying features of each baby, because he couldn’t.

      And then there was the other possibility. The possibility he didn’t want to consider. The possibility he had to consider even if he didn’t want to.

      What if Mickey was his? What if that was the reason he’d been left with him?

      If it hadn’t been for one single night, he would have been able to say there was no way that it was possible that he was Mickey’s father. But there had been that one single night. And when he’d counted backward—seven months for what he guessed to be Mickey’s age and then another nine months gestation—he had to admit that that one single night could have, in fact, resulted in Mickey.

      That thought chased sleep further from his grasp, and Aiden opened his eyes to stare at the ceiling.

      One single night…

      One single night when his marriage had fallen apart, when Rebecca had left him, that he’d gone into town and drowned his sorrow in a whiskey bottle.

      And ended up sleeping with Nora Finley.

      But until now he’d thought sleeping was all they’d done.

      Even now he couldn’t remember anything beyond being in Boonesbury’s bar to tie one on and meeting up with Nora.

      He only knew that when he finally came to the next morning, there had been a note on the pillow beside him that said, “Thanks for a good time, Nora.”

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