From This Day On. Janice Johnson Kay

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      “There was a reason you didn’t want her to go. Tell me what you know.”

      Another pause. “What was in the capsule?”

      “You tell me first.”

      His father muttered something Jakob took for profanities. “I don’t know what she put in there. She said some cryptic things about it, that’s all. Stuff about how in fifty years, the Wakefield College people would find out there was a dead body in there. Made no sense, but I got to say, it made me nervous.”

      “There were no bodies, but maybe the next best thing.” Jakob stared out the French doors at an idyllic garden, golden in the evening light and too pretty for his current mood. “I remember your fights with Michelle. I heard you accusing her of trapping you.”

      “You were a kid. Why would you remember anything like that?”

      He turned his back on the garden and took a few steps into the kitchen, where he could lean a hip against the counter. “Be straight with me, Dad.”

      After a long silence, Josef said, “I don’t want Amy to know any of this.”

      “The horses are already out, Dad. Too late.”

      He could hear his father breathing. “Oh, hell,” Josef said finally.

      “So you know?” That enraged Jakob. Hadn’t it occurred to either his father or Michelle that a secret like this had the potential to be more destructive than the truth ever would have been?

      “All I know is, Amy isn’t mine.”

      Jakob found himself reeling even though he didn’t move a muscle. All these years, and now he knew.

      She’s not my sister.

      The part that stunned him, and yet didn’t, was that his primary emotion was relief. Relief so potent, it poured through him like a drug injected in his veins.

      “You’re sure?”

      “I’m sure,” Josef said gruffly. “She fell off the monkey bars at school. Had what turned out to be a mild concussion, but she also bled like crazy from a cut on the head and her nose, too. At the hospital they checked her blood type. I knew her mother’s and I know mine. Amy doesn’t have either.”

      Well, that seemed definitive.

      Not my sister. Not my sister.

      The relief could have been a full chorus singing, full-throated. He staggered back to the table and sank onto a chair.

      “Why didn’t you ever tell me?”

      “Because I couldn’t tell her.” His father cleared his throat. “She’s a sweet girl. She didn’t deserve to find out something like that. I love Amy. As far as I’m concerned, she’s my daughter.”

      “You didn’t trust me.”

      “When you were a kid? Hell, no!”

      “As an adult?” Jakob kneaded the back of his neck.

      “You didn’t have anything to do with her. What difference did it make?”

      A grunt escaped him. For the first time ever, he faced his own truth. From the time she was twelve or so and getting a figure, he had always felt things for Amy that were mind-blowingly inappropriate for a brother to feel. He’d been pretty sure she wasn’t his sister—but not a hundred percent. What if the sprite he was lusting for was his half sister? The horror and guilt had just about killed him.

      Right this minute, it was his father he would have liked to kill.

      He unclenched his teeth. “I always suspected. It mattered, Dad. My suspicions got in the way of any kind of relationship we might have had.”

      And what kind of relationship would that have been? an inner voice taunted him. He ignored it.

      The shower upstairs had shut off some time ago although he hadn’t yet heard her footsteps on the stairs. “I’ve got to go,” he said to his father.

      “Like hell you do! What was in the time capsule?”

      “I think it’s Amy’s right to tell you or not. It’s not good, though, I’ll say that much. She’s having a hard time dealing with it.”

      A pause extended. “Will you be seeing her?”

      “Yeah.” Any minute.

      “Tell her I love her. I always have.”

      Jakob felt himself relax infinitesimally. That helped. It definitely helped. “Okay, Dad,” he said. “I’ll do that.”

      He didn’t hear her coming at all. The first he knew, he caught a hint of movement out of the corner of his eye and there she was in the doorway.

      She stared at him defiantly as she walked across the kitchen. Jakob was struck by how stiff she was. Usually she was as light as air, hardly seeming to touch the ground. It occurred to him that he never had been able to count on hearing her approach.

      “He’s gone?”

      The phone lay in front of him on the table. She was looking at him, not the phone.

      “Yeah.”

      “Are you going to tell me what he said?”

      “I told you I would.”

      The relief had metamorphosed into something else. Jakob had no idea what he was feeling now. All he knew was that, for the first time in his life, he was letting himself fully see her as a woman. As such, he was almost sorry she’d showered and changed out of the thin tank top and low-slung pajama bottoms into jeans and a sacky sweatshirt. The jeans did a heck of a job molding hips that weren’t quite boyish, though. And he realized that, though he hadn’t consciously noticed earlier, when he pushed his way into the house, he had definitely been aware of her breasts. They weren’t large, but he’d been able to make out their shape just fine. He imagined them nestled in the palms of his hands and was damn glad he was sitting down, because he was getting aroused.

      Guilt jabbed, but he stomped on it. Not my sister. He couldn’t help wondering if the seismic shift had fully hit her yet, and if so what the realization meant to her.

      Oh, hell, what was he thinking? She was dealing with her mother’s lies, with his father’s lies, with the knowledge that she was very likely the product of rape, and he was rejoicing because he didn’t have to feel guilty anymore for wanting her.

      What she needed right now was a friend. A brother. The understanding sobered him. That might be all she’d ever want from him. If it was, he would give her what she needed. There were too many years when he’d hurt her as much or more than Michelle and his dad had. He owed her.

      “Sit.”

      She sat, but indignantly. “I’m not a dog.”

      His grin came despite his plunge in mood. “No, you’re СКАЧАТЬ