The Secret That Changed Everything. Lucy Gordon

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      ‘Well, I’m always doing things I’m not supposed to. That’s why I’m the black sheep of the family.’

      ‘Because you eloped at seventeen?’

      She chuckled. ‘There were a few more things than that. There was the politician who came to hold a meeting in New York, all virtue and pomposity, except that he’d spent the previous night in a place where he shouldn’t have been. I’d seen him leaving and I couldn’t resist getting up at the meeting and asking him about it.’

      ‘Shame on you!’ he said theatrically.

      ‘Yes, I have no sense of propriety, so I’m told.’

      ‘So you’re wicked and interesting, eh?’

      ‘Certainly wicked. You know, everyone has their own talents. My sister Ellie is a talented dancer, my sister Alex is a talented vet—’

      ‘And you’re a talented linguist.’

      ‘Oh, that! That’s just earning a living. No, my real talent, the thing at which I’m practically a genius, is getting my own way.’

      ‘Now you really interest me.’

      ‘It can always be done, if you know how to go about it.’

      ‘Cunning?’

      ‘Certainly. Cunning, devious, manipulative, wicked—whatever it takes.’

      ‘Is that the real reason you broke off your career to go travelling?’

      ‘In one sense. I wanted to find another world, and I’m finding it. That’s the way to live. Know what you want, and don’t stop until you get it.’ She raised her glass to him. ‘I guess there’s probably a lot of interesting wickedness in your own life.’

      He assumed a shocked air.

      ‘Me? No time for it. I’m far too busy earning a respectable living, I assure you.’

      ‘Right. I’ll believe you. Thousands wouldn’t.’

      He grinned. ‘You do me an injustice.’

      ‘No, I don’t. Any man who proclaims himself respectable needs to be treated with suspicion.’

      ‘I protest—’

      ‘Don’t bother because I won’t believe a word you say.’

      They plunged into a light-hearted argument with much vigour on both sides, but also much laughter. When she looked at her watch she was amazed to see how much time had passed. She had a strange sense of being mentally at one with him. Almost like a brother.

      But the next moment he turned his head so that she saw his profile against the glittering light from the fountain. Not brotherly, she thought. Disconcertingly attractive in a way that eclipsed other men, even Don. Or perhaps especially Don. But definitely not brotherly.

      She remembered the first time she and Don had ventured beyond kisses, both eager to explore. But something had been missing, she knew that now.

      ‘Are you all right?’ Lucio asked.

      ‘Yes, fine.’

      ‘Sure? You seemed as if something had disturbed you.’

      ‘No, I guess I’m just a bit hungry.’

      ‘They do great snacks here. I’ll get the menu.’

      ‘I’ll just have whatever you’re having.’

      He ordered spicy rolls and they sat eating contentedly.

      ‘Why are you looking at me like that?’ she asked.

      ‘Just trying to solve the mystery. You don’t strike me as the kind of woman who goes along with whatever the man orders.’

      ‘Dead right, I’m not. But this is new territory for me, and I’m learning something fresh all the time.’

      ‘So I’m part of the exploration?’

      ‘Definitely. I like to find something unexpected. Don’t you?’

      ‘I sometimes think my life has had too much that’s unexpected. You need time to get used to things.’

      She hoped he would expand on that. She was beginning to be intrigued by everything he said. But before she could speak there was an excited cry as more crowds surged into the piazza, eager to toss coins into the water. For a while they both sat watching them.

      ‘It’s the age of science,’ she reflected. ‘We’re all supposed to be so reasonable. Yet people still come here to toss coins and make wishes.’

      ‘Perhaps they’re right,’ he said. ‘Being too reasonable can be dangerous. Making a wish might free you from that danger.’

      ‘But there are always other dangers lurking,’ she mused. ‘What to do about them?’

      ‘Then you have to decide which ones to confront and which to flee,’ he said.

      She nodded. ‘That way lies wisdom. And freedom.’

      ‘And freedom matters to you more than anything, doesn’t it?’ he asked.

      ‘Yes, but you must know what it really means. You think you’re free, but then something happens, and suddenly it looks more like isolation.’

      A sudden bleakness in her voice on the last word caught his attention.

      ‘Tell me,’ he said gently.

      ‘I thought I knew my family. An older brother and sister who were twins, a younger sister, but then it turns out that there’s been a big family secret all along. It began to come out and—’ she gave a sigh ‘—I was the last one to know. I’ve always been closest to Matt, even though he can be so distant sometimes, but now it’s like I’m not really part of the family. Just an outsider, in nobody’s confidence.’

      ‘You spoke of nobody caring. Nobody at all? What about outside the family?’

      She grimaced. ‘Yes, there was someone. We were moving slowly but I thought we’d get there in time. Well, I’m an outsider there, too. It feels like wandering in a desert.’

      She checked herself there. She hadn’t meant to confide her desert fantasy, for fear of sounding paranoid, but he seemed to understand so much that it had come out naturally.

      ‘I know the feeling,’ he said, ‘but a desert can be a friendly place. There’s no one there to hurt you.’

      ‘It’s true there are no enemies there,’ she said. ‘But no friends either, nobody who cares about you.’

      ‘You wouldn’t want to be there for ever,’ he agreed. ‘But for a while it can be a place to rest and recruit your strength. Then one day you can come back and sock ‘em СКАЧАТЬ