The Good Father. Tara Quinn Taylor

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СКАЧАТЬ work with seriously ill babies interested him. Immensely. In terms of how she was handling it. How she felt when she got home at night.

      He had questions he’d never ask. Needed answers he wouldn’t seek.

      Because they’d open a box, let out topics they were never going to discuss. Not ever again.

      After years of fertility treatments, of humiliating procedures, Ella had finally been able to get pregnant. And Brett had killed her dream.

      He’d thought he could handle being a father. Had been sure he’d be different from his own father. Until he’d found out Ella was really pregnant.

      And had to accept the fact that there was no going back.

      He’d grown more and more withdrawn. Irritable. Terse. Until one night, when terrors had driven him from their bed, she’d come to find him. She’d known something was wrong. She’d pushed him to be honest with her. And he’d turned on her. Raising his voice. Telling her he didn’t want to be a father. That he didn’t want their baby.

      When she’d asked him, with a horrified expression he would never forget, what he wanted to do about it, he’d told her he’d seen a divorce lawyer. That she didn’t ever have to worry. She and the baby would be well taken care of.

      It was only then he’d realized that she’d been thinking more in terms of counseling. Maybe feared he wanted an abortion.

      She’d never considered that he’d leave her.

      And he hadn’t been seriously thinking about it, really. He’d just been gathering information. In case.

      But the damage had been done. He’d split her heart in two.

      And when, the next week, she’d lost the baby, she’d turned to Chloe, not him, for support.

      He’d wanted to stay with her. And he’d seen his father in himself then most of all. Brett’s dad, once he’d known he had a problem, had been too weak to leave his family in peace. He’d needed them too much. And so he’d continued to hurt them.

      Brett was not going to be that man.

      So he and Ella weren’t going to talk about any of it. Not now. Not ever.

      Ella took another sip of wine. Leaning forward, he topped up her glass. The sun had set, and the ocean was darkening. Soon there would be nothing but blackness beyond the window.

      “I didn’t mean to bring up the past,” Ella said with a grin that made him sad. “I just need you to know that I have absolutely no interest in you personally, Brett.”

      Was this the part where one doth protest too much?

      “I don’t want you to think I’m here out of some pathetic hope that you might change your mind about me. Or to think that I’m stalking you or something.”

      Protesting too much yet?

      “The job is a big part of my decision to move here. And I always loved Santa Raquel. You know that.”

      They’d visited his hometown. More than once. Each time she’d said she wanted them to settle there. To raise their children there.

      Looking back, he saw that even then, he hadn’t ever really believed her fairy tale could happen. He’d just wanted it so badly he’d been a selfish ass, just like his old man, grasping at her hope and hanging on.

      Until he couldn’t anymore.

      Brett sat forward. Set his glass on the table and folded his hands in front of him.

      “It’s a great job, a great place to live, but there are other great opportunities. I know you, Ella. There has to be more going on.”

      “I made the final decision to accept the job offer because of The Lemonade Stand.”

      He frowned, honestly confused. “I offered you a position on the board. You didn’t have to join the High Risk team to be involved.” She’d supported the idea of the Stand from the very first time he’d mentioned that if he ever won the lottery he’d open such a place. She’d been a sophomore in college at the time. He’d been a junior. They hadn’t even talked about marriage yet.

      Her fingers, blunt tipped and slender, able to handle crises on a daily basis, climbed up and down the stem of her glass. She traced a pile of crumbs around the white linen tablecloth. I moved here because of The Lemonade Stand.

      His throat dried out like burned timber.

      “Ella?” He needed her to quit studying the damned table and look at him.

      Had someone hurt her? On one of those blind dates Chloe had arranged? Or someone else? Were the police involved?

      Why hadn’t he known? Jeff had sworn to him that if Ella were ever in trouble, if she ever needed anything, he’d let Brett know...

      He couldn’t just sit there...couldn’t stand the thought of his Ella being...

      Sweet God, that was why he’d left her. To save her from loving a man who had the pattern of abuse lurking inside him. He knew the statistics. More than half of abusers had grown up with abuse. It was a pattern that repeated itself. And he’d faced the beast of his father inside himself when he’d lain in bed after finding out Ella was pregnant, when he’d closed his eyes and slept. Night after night. He’d seen his father. The raised hand. Heard the anger. And then his own face had been there...

       I moved here because of The Lemonade Stand.

      His palm settled on the back of her hand, holding it still against the table. “Talk to me, El.”

      She looked at their hands. Then up at him. A sheen of tears glistened in her eyes. Panic surged inside him.

      “Did someone hurt you?” The words forced themselves out.

      She shook her head. But didn’t speak.

      Every nerve in his body was tense. He couldn’t get them to release their grip on him. It was a feeling he knew well.

      Bracing for a blow.

      Only this one wouldn’t be as simple as a fist in the face. Or a belt to the back.

      “It’s not me, it’s Chloe.” He heard her, but the words only confused him more. What did her sister-in-law, living in Palm Desert with Jeff, have to do with The Lemonade Stand?

      Oh, God. The idea hit him, accompanied by a maelstrom of rejection.

      Ella’s gaze was steady now. Steady and needy.

      “Chloe’s hitting Cody?” The godson he knew only through pictures. He’d told Jeff, when his friend had called to tell him about the boy’s birth, that, with him being divorced from Ella, he couldn’t possibly be anything to the boy, but Jeff had insisted. It didn’t mean anything. It was just a title.

      The shake of Ella’s head caused a new wave of foreboding.

      “Chloe’s СКАЧАТЬ