Montana Cowboy's Baby. Linda Ford

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      “I’ve had lots of practice.”

      “I know.” She wondered if Annie ever wished she wasn’t responsible for her father, grandfather and brothers. Though only one brother remained at home. Perhaps soon Conner would establish his own home with Thelma and Ellie.

      No matter what Conner’s future held, it would not include Kate.

      Pain grabbed at her chest and she paused, her hands curled into fists, waiting for it to pass.

      Grandfather and Bud came in from outside.

      “Dinner will be ready shortly,” Annie said, and the men sat down to look at the newspaper they had gotten in town.

      With a guilty start, Kate realized how long she’d been absent from the sitting room and hurried back to check on Ellie and Conner.

      Conner held the baby. “I was about to call and see if she should eat again.”

      “I’ll prepare a feed immediately.” She returned to the kitchen to do so.

      She came back and handed him the bottle. “You and your family will soon be able to take care of her without my help.”

      He got Ellie eating, then turned back to her. “You’re anxious to leave?”

      It should have been easy to agree with him, but she could not be untruthful. “Leaving her is going to be difficult.”

      Their gazes caught and held. The air seemed awash with liquid sunshine. A jolt of something both sweet and sad rushed through her. How had she allowed this to happen? To be drawn to a man and child when she knew they could never be hers. Even if Conner was free, Kate had plans that made it impossible to picture herself in their lives. And yet she did. In full, vibrant color, every detail bright with joy.

      She ripped her attention from Conner. Remembered he’d asked a question. “My father needs my help.” And when he didn’t, she would head back east for medical school. That was her plan. Her purpose. Her calling.

      Ellie ate well for Conner. Kate didn’t need to hover nearby and yet she did. Conner’s attention was on the baby, allowing Kate to study the pair. Conner’s face revealed love for Ellie. She shivered, thinking of what the future might hold for this pair. Please, God, protect them from pain and sorrow.

      He put the baby in her basket to sleep, then he and Kate joined the others in the kitchen. Kate remained in the kitchen after the meal and helped Annie with the dishes and swept the floor for her, finding, as always, a comfort in doing routine things.

      “I’m going outside for a bit,” Annie said. “Do you want to come with me?”

      “I’d like that.” It would give her time to get her thoughts back to normal. “Let me tell Conner.” She hurried to the sitting room. Ellie slept in Conner’s arms. He looked up at Kate’s approach and smiled.

      “Look at her sleeping so peacefully.”

      She faltered, took a deep breath. That look of tenderness in his eyes was meant for Ellie, but for a heartbeat, she’d thought it included her. She folded her hands at her waist. “I’m going outside with Annie for a few minutes.” But she didn’t immediately return to the kitchen, held in the spot by a longing to prolong this moment, make this feeling last, allow herself just a moment or two of filling her heart with—

      She jerked away and forced herself to keep her pace reasonable as she left the room, even though everything in her wanted to run.

      But did she want to race from the house or back to the pair in the sitting room?

      She continued to the kitchen, where Annie waited, and they stepped out into the bright sunshine, which immediately warmed her skin. She sucked in the summer-laden air and looked about.

      The mountains rose to the west, greens of every hue filling the woods and covering the hills. Here and there, bright patches of wildflowers dotted the lush landscape. The air carried a hundred different scents...smells of grass, horses, wildflowers and pine from the mountains.

      “It’s a beautiful country,” she said, knowing she would miss it when she went east to study. City activity could never outshine the offerings of nature.

      “Wild and beautiful,” Annie said as they walked along the path to the garden, then turned toward the barn.

      They wandered past the buildings along the trail to a grassy slope. Annie pointed out many things, including the horses in the pen. “Conner is breaking them. He’ll sell them.”

      “Does he have special plans?”

      “You mean like having a place of his own?” Annie chuckled. “I don’t think so. He’s the only one of my brothers still living at home and he says someone has to stay and help take care of us. He means Grandfather.” She paused. “I think.”

      The farther they got from the house, the more Kate’s insides tightened. What if Ellie needed something? She stared at the distant mountains and forced herself to think rationally. Ellie’s needs were not what bothered her, she admitted. It was knowing she would soon no longer be needed. Life for the Marshalls would go on with the addition of Ellie until her future was resolved.

      Kate would go back to Bella Creek. She’d help her father, and once she could be assured he was well enough to be on his own, she would leave. St. Louis and medical school awaited her. Nevertheless, she was not comfortable being away from Ellie too long. “I should get back.”

      Annie sighed. “I know. Me, too.” They returned to the house at a quicker rate than they had left.

      Kate hurried through the kitchen to the sitting room, where Conner held Ellie.

      “How is she?” Kate asked.

      The baby’s eyes shifted to Kate and she brightened.

      “See that? She recognizes you.” Conner’s smile was warm. She was drowning in his approval, floating in the sky of his eyes, forgetting the boundaries she had in her role as her father’s assistant.

      Annie followed and stood watching her brother and the baby. “You look pretty comfortable caring for her.”

      “I’ve had a good teacher.” His smile was like warm honey to Kate’s insides.

      She had taught them what they needed to know. The family would now be responsible for making arrangements for Ellie’s care, she reminded herself. They did not need her help in doing so.

      Accepting the situation for what it was, she pulled herself together and turned to the brother and sister. “Ellie no longer needs my care.” Please ask me to stay. But what about Father? What about her decision to follow her dream to become a doctor? To not get overly involved with a family again? And especially one with a baby girl?

      Kate ducked her head, not wanting Annie or Conner to see her feelings as they stung her eyes.

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      Conner could hardly swallow past the tightness in his throat. He didn’t want to make other arrangements for Ellie’s care.

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