Falling for the New Guy. Nicole Helm

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      “It’s been a rough month. I’ll get it under control, Captain. I just...we don’t have anyone else.” She didn’t entertain tears, or her voice breaking, though both battled for prominence. Luckily she had a lot of practice fighting those things into submission.

      “I know, Camden. You’re an excellent officer, but we’re also seeing our crime rates rise with the Dee’s Factory closing, and I need to know my men are on top of things.”

      “I am. I am.”

      “No more disappearing then. No matter how close to the end of your shift. No more late reports. I don’t want to have to write you up, but I can’t let things slide just because...”

      Because she was a woman. Because her whole life was spinning plates on poles and she was so damn tired of spinning. But what other choice did she have? “Absolutely.”

      “Have the reports in tonight.”

      She nodded. The reports were both nearly done, but she’d had to leave them unfinished last night when Dad had called, not making any sense, minutes from getting himself arrested or worse.

      “If things get really bad, you can always consider taking a leave of absence, but you can’t slack off when you’re here.”

      “I understand. It won’t happen again.”

      “That’s good to hear, Camden. How’s our new officer?”

      “Good. Quiet, but seems to know what’s what.”

      “Good.” Franks nodded to the door. “I have every confidence you’ll train him right.”

      Tess nodded back and headed for the door. For some reason, Captain’s confidence only made her feel worse. The man had given her more praise in a dressing-down than her father had in years, and yet she was risking this to keep her father out of trouble.

       He doesn’t mean it.

      Tess closed the door behind her and forced stiff legs down the hall. Once she turned the corner, she leaned her forehead against the wall, her eyes squeezing shut.

      She had to find some answers, or she had to let whatever happened to Dad...happen.

       You can’t do that. Not when he’s the way he is because of you.

      She hated that voice in her head. Because it was lies. Irrational lies. Mom had left because, well, who knew? But no matter how obnoxious a kid Tess had been, neither she nor her father had deserved being deserted.

      It wasn’t Tess’s fault.

       Why couldn’t you be a good little girl, Tessie? Why’d she have to leave because of you?

      She hated that voice, too. Dad drunk and weeping. Shoveling all the blame on her shoulders. It wasn’t her fault. It wasn’t. But the guilt, no matter how irrational, plagued her. She’d been seven when he’d first said that to her, and she’d done everything she could to make it not true.

      Twenty-some years later, it was still true in her father’s eyes, and even when she was able to remind herself it was all crap, the fact of the matter was, Dad had no one else. So what could she do?

      She let out a long breath. Just like always, she was the only one who could find an answer, fix things. And, just like always, she would. She had since she was that seven-year-old girl. She pushed away from the wall, straightened and then cringed when she saw Santino standing a few feet away.

      “Bad meeting?” he asked, sounding almost sympathetic.

      San Francisco really had some timing, didn’t he? “No. It was fine. I’ve got some reports to finish up real quick. Is it asking too much if we stick around for a few minutes? Thirty, tops. You can order some dinner, on me. Use the gym. Walk around.”

      He shrugged, which she couldn’t read. Was he put out? Okay with it? She sighed. “I’m finishing up reports. You want to see how we do it?”

      “Sure.”

      Want to say more than one word? Have emotions of any kind? Small talk like we’re colleagues? Oh, she was cranky and she knew it, but seriously, the guy could give a little, couldn’t he?

      She marched to the computer room and plopped on a chair. She brought the computer to life and went through the report, how they did them, when they were due. Every last boring detail as she transcribed the rest of the events from her two incidents into the system.

      “Any questions, San Francisco?”

      “I’m not answering to that anymore.”

      “Why not? It’s a hell of a lot better than some of the other nicknames I could come up with.”

      “California is a hellhole.”

      She snorted. “Do you have a secret sense of humor in there?”

      “Nope.”

      “I think you’re lying.” She sent her reports to the printer. Maybe the guy was just shy. Even after three days. She’d have to work on him some more.

      “Camden.”

      Tess looked back at Berkley and Granger standing in the doorway. “What’s up, guys?”

      “We wanted to meet the new guy. Had to thank him since we’re not the rookies anymore.”

      “He’s still got a bunch more experience under his belt than you two dipshits.” She nodded to Marc. “Santino. This is Berkley. Granger. They’re full of shit. Don’t believe anything they say. Ever.”

      “Aw, come on. We’re not that bad.”

      She smiled at Berkley. Even though they made her feel old. Kids ten years her junior were wearing badges now. She felt motherly toward them. Might as well start walking with a cane.

      “Franks rip you a new one?”

      “Nah, he loves me.” She tried to smile, but with Marc looking at her so seriously and her phone buzzing—which was pretty much only ever Dad on a bender or someone calling about Dad on a bender—she mostly felt sick.

      What she needed was to be around people. Not go back to her place and be alone, because when she was alone, all the guilt twisted until she couldn’t stop herself. She’d help Dad and screw herself in the process.

      “Shit.” Granger grumbled about reverse sexism but it was mostly just a buzz in Tess’s head.

      She needed a distraction. She needed to not be alone. Which was usually when she organized a department outing. That’s exactly what she needed. Dipshits complaining about her preferential treatment and making her feel old. Much better than dealing with Dad.

      “Hey, you guys busy tonight?”

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