Mistress of Mistresses. E. Eddison R.

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СКАЧАТЬ style="font-size:15px;">      Beyond Time’s transient territory,

      Upon some flower-robed promontory

      Between the sunset and the sea.

      Our Lady of Paphos: though a story

      They count You: though Your temples be

      Time-wrecked, dishonoured, mute and hoary—

      You are more than their philosophy.

      Between the sunset and the sea

      Waiteth Your eternal glory.

      While I read, the Señorita sat motionless, her gaze bent on Lessingham. Then she rose softly from her seat in the window and stood once more in that place where I had first seen her that night, like the Queen of Love sorrowing for a great lover dead. The clock ticked on, and I measured it against my heart-beats. An unreasoning terror now took hold of me, that Death was in the room and had laid on my heart also his fleshless and icy hand. I dropped the book and made as if to rise from my seat, but my knees gave way like a drunken man’s. Then with the music of her voice, speaking once more, as if love itself were speaking out of the interstellar spaces from beyond the mists of time and desolation and decay, my heart gave over its fluttering and became quiet like a dove held safe in its mistress’s hand. ‘It is midnight now,’ she said. ‘Time to say farewell, seal the chamber, and light the pyre. But first you have leave to look upon the picture, and to read that which was written.’

      At the time, I wondered at nothing, but accepted, as in a dream, her knowledge of this secret charge bequeathed to me by Lessingham through sealed instructions locked in a fireproof box which I had only opened on his death, and of which he had once or twice assured me that no person other than himself had seen the contents. In that box was a key of gold, and with that I was at midnight of his death-day to unlock the folding doors of a cabinet that was built into the wall above his bed, and so leave him lying in state under the picture that was in the cabinet. And I must seal the room, and burn up Digermulen castle, and him and all that was in it, as he had burnt up his house in Wastdale fifty years before. And he had let me know that in that cabinet was his wife’s picture, painted by himself, his masterpiece never seen by living eye except the painter’s and the sitter’s; the only one of all her pictures that he had spared.

      The cabinet doors were of black lacquer and gold, flush with the wall. I turned the golden key, and opened them left and right. My eyes swam as I looked upon that loveliness that showed doubtfully in the glittering candlelight and the diffused rosy dusk from without. I saw well now that this great picture had been painted for himself alone. A sob choked me as I thought of this last pledge of our friendship, planned by him so many years ago to speak for him to me from beyond death, that my eyes should be allowed to see his treasure before it was committed, with his own mortal remains, to the consuming element of fire. And now I saw how upon the inside panels of the cabinet was inlaid (by his own hand, I doubt not) in letters of gold this poem, six stanzas upon either door:

      A VISION OF ZIMIAMVIA

      I will have gold and silver for my delight:

      Hangings of red silk, purfled and worked in gold

      With mantichores and what worse shapes of fright

      Terror Antiquus spawn’d in the days of old.

      I will have columns of Parian vein’d with gems,

      Their capitals by Pheidias’ self design’d,

      By his hand carv’d, for flowers with strong smooth stems,

      Nepenthe, Elysian Amaranth, and their kind.

      I will have night: and the taste of a field well fought,

      And a golden bed made wide for luxury;

      And there – since else were all things else prov’d naught –

      Bestower and hallower of all things: I will have Thee.

      —Thee, and hawthorn time. For in that new birth though all

      Change, you I will have unchang’d: even that dress,

      So fall’n to your hips as lapping waves should fall:

      You, cloth’d upon with your beauty’s nakedness.

      The line of your flank: so lily-pure and warm:

      The globéd wonder of splendid breasts made bare:

      The gleam, like cymbals a-clash, when you lift your arm;

      And the faun leaps out with the sweetness of red-gold hair.

      My dear – my tongue is broken: I cannot see:

      A sudden subtle fire beneath my skin

      Runs, and an inward thunder deafens me,

      Drowning mine ears: I tremble. – O unpin

      Those pins of anachite diamond, and unbraid

      Those strings of margery-pearls, and so let fall

      Your python tresses in their deep cascade

      To be your misty robe imperial—

      The beating of wings, the gallop, the wild spate,

      Die down. A hush resumes all Being, which you

      Do with your starry presence consecrate,

      And peace of moon-trod gardens and falling dew.

      Two are our bodies: two are our minds, but wed.

      On your dear shoulder, like a child asleep,

      I let my shut lids press, while round my head

      Your gracious hands their benediction keep.

      Mistress of my delights; and Mistress of Peace:

      O ever changing, never changing, You:

      Dear pledge of our true love’s unending lease,

      Since true to you means to mine own self true—

      I will have gold and jewels for my delight:

      Hyacinth, ruby, and smaragd, and curtains work’d in gold

      With mantichores and what worse shapes of fright

      Terror Antiquus spawn’d in the days of old.

      Earth I will have, and the deep sky’s ornament:

      Lordship, and hardship, and peril by land and sea—

      And still, about cock-shut time, to pay for my banishment,

      Safe in the lowe of the firelight I will have Thee.

      Half blinded with tears, I read the stanzas and copied them down. All the while I was conscious of the Señorita’s presence СКАЧАТЬ