The Selection series 1-3. Кира Касс

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      May was my only solace. She held my hand and tried to inject some of her enthusiasm into me. We were still linked when I stepped into the crowded square. It seemed like everyone in the province of Carolina came out to see me off. Or just see what the big deal was.

      Standing on the raised stage, I could see the boundaries between the castes. Margareta Stines was a Three, and she and her parents were staring daggers at me. Tenile Digger was a Seven, and she was blowing kisses. The upper castes looked at me like I’d stolen something that was theirs. The Fours on down were cheering for me—an average girl who’d been elevated. I became aware of what I meant to everyone here, as if I represented something for all of them.

      I tried to focus in on those faces, holding my head high. I was determined to do this well. I would be the best of us, the Highest of the Lows. It gave me a sense of purpose. America Singer: the champion of the lower castes.

      The mayor spoke with a flourish.

      “And Carolina will be cheering on the beautiful daughter of Magda and Shalom Singer, the new Lady America Singer!”

      The crowd clapped and cheered. Some threw flowers.

      I took in the sound for a moment, smiling and waving, and then went back to surveying the crowd, but this time for a different purpose.

      I wanted to see his face one more time if I could. I didn’t know if he would come. He told me I looked beautiful yesterday but was even more distant and guarded than he had been in the tree house. It was over, and I knew that. But you don’t love someone for almost two years and then turn it off overnight.

      It took a few passes of the crowd before I found him. I immediately wished I hadn’t. Aspen was standing there with Brenna Butler in front of him, casually holding her around the waist and smiling.

      Maybe some people could turn it off overnight.

      Brenna was a Six and about my age. Pretty enough, I supposed, though she didn’t look a bit like me. I guessed she’d get the wedding and life he’d been saving for with me. And apparently the draft didn’t bother him so much anymore. She smiled at him and walked away to her family.

      Had he liked her all along? Was she the girl he saw every day and was I the girl who fed him and showered him with kisses once a week? It occurred to me that maybe all the time he omitted in our stolen conversations wasn’t simply long, boring hours of inventory.

      I was too angry to cry.

      Besides, I had admirers here who wanted my attention. So, without Aspen even knowing that I’d seen him, I went back to those adoring faces. I put my smile back on, bigger than ever, and started waving. Aspen would not have the satisfaction of breaking my heart anymore. He’d put me here, and I would just have to take advantage of it.

      “Ladies and gentlemen, please join me in sending off America Singer, our favorite Daughter of Illéa!” the mayor called. Behind me, a small band played the national anthem.

      More cheers, more flowers. Suddenly the mayor was at my ear.

      “Would you like to say something, dear?”

      I didn’t know how to say no without being rude. “Thank you, but I’m so overwhelmed, I don’t think I could.”

      He cupped my hands in his. “Of course, dear girl. Don’t you worry, I’ll take care of everything. They’ll train you for this kind of thing at the palace. You’ll need it.”

      The mayor then told the gathered crowd of my attributes, slyly mentioning that I was very intelligent and attractive for a Five. He didn’t seem too bad a guy, but sometimes even the nicer members of the upper castes were condescending.

      I caught Aspen’s face once more as my eyes swept the crowd. He looked pained. It was the polar opposite of the face he’d worn with Brenna a few minutes ago. Another game? I broke my gaze.

      The mayor finished speaking, and I smiled and everyone cheered, as if he’d just given the most inspiring speech known to man.

      And suddenly it was time to say good-bye. Mitsy, my aide, told me to say my farewells quietly and briefly, and then she’d escort me back to the car that would take me to the airport.

      Kota hugged me, telling me he was proud of me. Then, not so subtly, he told me to mention his art to Prince Maxon. I wiggled out of that embrace as gracefully as I could.

      Kenna was crying.

      “I barely see you as it is. What will I do when you’re gone?” she cried.

      “Don’t worry. I’ll be home soon enough.”

      “Yeah, right! You’re the most beautiful girl in Illéa. He’ll love you!”

      Why did everyone think it all came down to beauty? Maybe it did. Maybe Prince Maxon didn’t need a wife to speak to, just someone to look pretty. I actually shivered, considering that as my future. But there were many girls much more attractive than me going.

      Kenna was hard to hug over her pregnant belly, but we managed. James, who I really didn’t know that well, hugged me, too. Then it was Gerad.

      “Be a good boy, okay? Try the piano. I’ll bet you’re amazing. I expect to hear it all when I come home.”

      Gerad just nodded, abruptly sad. He threw his tiny arms around me.

      “I love you, America.”

      “I love you, too. Don’t be sad. I’ll be home soon.”

      He nodded again, but crossed his arms to pout. I’d had no idea he’d take my leaving this way. It was the exact opposite of May. She was bouncing on her toes, absolutely giddy.

      “Oh, America, you’re going to be the princess! I know it!”

      “Oh, hush! I’d rather be an Eight and stay with you any day. Just be good for me, and work hard.”

      She nodded and bounced some more, and then it was time for Dad, who was close to tears.

      “Daddy! Don’t cry.” I fell into his arms.

      “Listen to me, kitten. Win or lose, you’ll always be a princess to me.”

      “Oh, Daddy.” I finally started to cry. That was all it took to unleash the fear, the sadness, the worry, the nerves—the one sentence that meant none of it mattered.

      If I came back used and unwanted, he’d still be proud of me.

      It was too much to bear, to be loved that much. I’d be surrounded by scores of guards at the palace, but I couldn’t imagine a place safer than my father’s arms. I pulled away and turned to hug Mom.

      “Do whatever they tell you. Try to stop sulking and be happy. Behave. Smile. Keep us posted. Oh! I just knew you’d turn out to be special.”

      It was meant to be sweet, but it wasn’t what I needed to hear. I wished she could have said that I was already something special to her, like I was to my father. But I guessed she would never stop wanting more for me, more from me. Maybe that’s what mothers did.

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