Claiming Her. Marilyn "Mattie" Brahen

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      “What makes you think you’ve remembered all your past lives? Amnesia is exactly what the higher planes instill in most people to keep them centered on their current lifetime. Do you think we’re exempt from such need, simply because our psychic talents enhance our ability to see beyond the mundane this go-around?”

      She shook her head briskly. “I’ve told you a thousand times, but you don’t listen. Psychic ability and knowledge is a gift, not a privilege, and the gift does not come with a lifetime guaranty, no pun intended, my dear daughter. The talent won’t work, the knowledge won’t come, if somehow your using it or knowing it would prove harmful to you or others, no matter how innocent or beneficial your intentions are . . . or if you were unscrupulous, God forbid, no matter how deserving the targets of your evil intentions might be. Our free will is tempered under the ever-watchful eye of the High Council and their involvement tempered by the tapestry of our souls, all woven together throughout time. The Creator’s game plan, ongoing and immortal.

      “But our mortal lives are in themselves important, together making up the sum total of our learning experience in this plane of existence and the value we’ve achieved and can take with us to use when we graduate from it and go permanently beyond.”

      Her lecturing had riled me, as it had through my childhood and teenage years. Neither Ginnie nor Fred got these lectures, but, of course, they hadn’t inherited Mother’s psychic abilities. And when I got riled, I generally took Ginnie’s advice. Ginnie had as little tolerance for lectures as she did for psychic subjects. She ignored both, being ultra-independent and set on making her own decisions and choices. “I appreciate your telling me all this, Mom, and I know about the mysteries. No one knows everything. But I can’t believe they would have blanked my memory of him if he were that important to my spiritual development. Some memory would have surfaced, as deeply as I’ve probed.”

      “It did. Your love for him. The question is: is that slight opening something deliberately left unhidden, or is it a glitch in the system designed to protect you? And more importantly, is his so-called returning to you—giving you the benefit of doubt with your unrequited love theory—beneficial or detrimental? Are we dealing with good or evil here?”

      I bristled at the thought of Bael’s being evil. He had already proven himself beneficial and protective, not destructive. “I think the best thing to do is take it slow and if he returns, reinforce our auric protection and examine his behavior very carefully. I also feel I should get on with my real life, Mom. I’m separated from my husband, probably heading for divorce, and have no source of income. What I need to concentrate on is getting daycare and a job, not this Bael. There’s really no time to waste on him.”

      “Is that how you really feel?” She said it quietly, as if she would accept whatever answer I gave and work through it with me.

      “It’s not how I feel. It’s what I have to do. I have no time for obsessions in my Earthly life, not if I’m to get on with it.”

      “Then you won’t become obsessed. Intent is half the battle.”

      I nodded, glad she believed in me, at least on that point. “I’m going to get Daniel up. He’s been asleep for nearly three hours now. If he sleeps anymore, he’ll be up half the night.”

      “Mmn. Go ahead. I’d better get this dinner started. And Leigh Ann— ” I turned back to her. “—don’t be afraid to tell me anything, if you think I can help.”

      “I’m not afraid, Mom.”

      “I know you aren’t. I guess ‘embarrassed’ was the word I meant.”

      A small smile crept onto the corners of my lips, and I guess I blushed. Mom was never shy or subtle. I didn’t answer—my reddening was answer enough—and headed upstairs to wake Daniel.

      As I walked down the hall to the old bedroom, which Ginnie and I both shared growing up and now shared with Daniel, Mom’s earlier disquiet resurfaced in my mind. I opened the door and walked over to the crib which Dad had brought back from Queens.

      Daniel wasn’t in it. Horror constricted my throat, but I forced myself to stay calm, my eyes scanning the floor around the crib— nothing—and then moved around the crib and spotted Daniel asleep on my bed a few feet away. The bed pillows had been removed and flung on the floor between the bed and the closet; the covers had been pulled down, and only the top sheet covered my son to his waist.

      No one had been in the house that afternoon except my mother and me.

      I checked Daniel’s breathing; it seemed rhythmic and normal. Then I flew down the stairs and into the kitchen. “Mom. I need you upstairs. Right now.”

      I spent no further time in explanation, tearing back up the stairs and into the bedroom where Daniel still slept snugly on the bed. Mother had followed me in. I gestured toward the baby and whispered, “I didn’t move him.”

      We both knew Fred and Ginnie were at school, and Dad was at work. There was no way a nine-week-old infant could have gone from the crib to the bed, and pulled bedspread and blanket down or flung pillows onto the floor.

      I reached out and slowly nudged Daniel. He awoke groggily, opening and shutting his eyes. “Mommy’s got a little sleepyhead here,” I cooed, and he slowly grinned at me.

      “He doesn’t seem hurt,” Mother murmured. “Start to pick him up gently, using your arm and hand to brace his back, neck and head.”

      I did so, and lifted Daniel, holding him against my chest. He squirmed and tried to reach my shoulder. “He’s all right. Thank God.”

      Mother and I stayed silent for several minutes, both of us, I knew, wondering how this could have happened and why. She walked to the crib and bent to check out the wooden floor under it, then searched under my bed. I heard something shake in her hand. “Here’s his key rattle.” She straightened up, her hand grasping the side post of the crib to steady herself.

      At first, we heard a tearing creak. Mother watched as the post loosened and leaned toward her. She grasped it quickly in both hands, trying to hold it up and push it back in place, but the bars on her side sagged down and fell with a thud to the floor. As we jumped back to avoid being hit, the thin boxspring also came loose. It tilted at a forty-five degree angle to the floor, the crib mattress sliding off of it and slipping to the floor.

      We both stood there, shaking, while Daniel stared at the broken crib curiously.

      Then Mother checked the crib post that had started it all as I watched. A large screw hung from its hole at the top, ready to fall, a large crack running down the post from the screw hole. She removed the screw and studied it. “This has been stripped, its grooves worn smooth. It’s possible that the wood in the post was bad, too.”

      “My God, Mom. Just think! If Daniel had been in that crib . . . .”

      “Somebody took him from it. Somebody who knew.”

      I hugged the baby to me. “And who knew it was as dangerous to lay an infant down on a pillow.” I looked at her, helplessly upset. “And took great care to keep the heavy bedclothes off of him, when placing him on the bed.”

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