The Yellow Wallpaper and "What Diantha Did". Charlotte Perkins Gilman

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      INTRODUCTION: Why I Wrote “The Yellow Wallpaper”

      Many and many a reader has asked that. When the story first came out, in the New England Magazine about 1891, a Boston physician made protest in The Transcript. Such a story ought not to be written, he said; it was enough to drive anyone mad to read it.

      Another physician, in Kansas I think, wrote to say that it was the best description of incipient insanity he had ever seen, and—begging my pardon—had I been there?

      Now the story of the story is this:

      For many years I suffered from a severe and continuous nervous breakdown tending to melancholia—and beyond. During about the third year of this trouble I went, in devout faith and some faint stir of hope, to a noted specialist in nervous diseases, the best known in the country. This wise man put me to bed and applied the rest cure, to which a still-good physique responded so promptly that he concluded there was nothing much the matter with me, and sent me home with solemn advice to “live as domestic a life as far as possible,” to “have but two hours’ intellectual life a day,” and “never to touch pen, brush, or pencil again” as long as I lived. This was in 1887.

      I went home and obeyed those directions for some three months, and came so near the borderline of utter mental ruin that I could see over.

      Then, using the remnants of intelligence that remained, and helped by a wise friend, I cast the noted specialist’s advice to the winds and went to work again—work, the normal life of every human being; work, in which is joy and growth and service, without which one is a pauper and a parasite—ultimately recovering some measure of power.

      Being naturally moved to rejoicing by this narrow escape, I wrote “The Yellow Wallpaper,” with its embellishments and additions, to carry out the ideal (I never had hallucinations or objections to my mural decorations) and sent a copy to the physician who so nearly drove me mad. He never acknowledged it.

      The little book is valued by alienists and as a good specimen of one kind of literature. It has, to my knowledge, saved one woman from a similar fate—so terrifying her family that they let her out into normal activity and she recovered.

      But the best result is this. Many years later I was told that the great specialist had admitted to friends of his that he had altered his treatment of neurasthenia since reading “The Yellow Wallpaper.”

      It was not intended to drive people crazy, but to save people from being driven crazy, and it worked.

      —Charlotte Perkins Gilman

      THE YELLOW WALLPAPER

      It is very seldom that mere ordinary people like John and myself secure ancestral halls for the summer.

      A colonial mansion, a hereditary estate, I would say a haunted house, and reach the height of romantic felicity—but that would be asking too much of fate!

      Still I will proudly declare that there is something queer about it.

      Else, why should it be let so cheaply? And why have stood so long untenanted?

      John laughs at me, of course, but one expects that in marriage.

      John is practical in the extreme. He has no patience with faith, an intense horror of superstition, and he scoffs openly at any talk of things not to be felt and seen and put down in figures.

      John is a physician, and perhaps—(I would not say it to a living soul, of course, but this is dead paper and a great relief to my mind)—perhaps that is one reason I do not get well faster.

      You see he does not believe I am sick!

      And what can one do?

      If a physician of high standing, and one’s own husband, assures friends and relatives that there is really nothing the matter with one but temporary nervous depression—a slight hysterical tendency—what is one to do?

      My brother is also a physician, and also of high standing, and he says the same thing.

      So I take phosphates or phosphites—whichever it is, and tonics, and journeys, and air, and exercise, and am absolutely forbidden to “work” until I am well again.

      Personally, I disagree with their ideas.

      Personally, I believe that congenial work, with excitement and change, would do me good.

      But what is one to do?

      I did write for a while in spite of them; but it does exhaust me a good deal—having to be so sly about it, or else meet with heavy opposition.

      I sometimes fancy that in my condition if I had less opposition and more society and stimulus—but John says the very worst thing I can do is to think about my condition, and I confess it always makes me feel bad.

      So I will let it alone and talk about the house.

      The most beautiful place! It is quite alone, standing well back from the road, quite three miles from the village. It makes me think of English places that you read about, for there are hedges and walls and gates that lock, and lots of separate little houses for the gardeners and people.

      There is a delicious garden! I never saw such a garden—large and shady, full of box-bordered paths, and lined with long grape-covered arbors with seats under them.

      There were greenhouses, too, but they are all broken now.

      There was some legal trouble, I believe, something about the heirs and coheirs; anyhow, the place has been empty for years.

      That spoils my ghostliness, I am afraid, but I don’t care—there is something strange about the house—I can feel it.

      I even said so to John one moonlight evening, but he said what I felt was a DRAUGHT, and shut the window.

      I get unreasonably angry with John sometimes. I’m sure I never used to be so sensitive. I think it is due to this nervous condition.

      But John says if I feel so, I shall neglect proper self-control; so I take pains to control myself—before him, at least, and that makes me very tired.

      I don’t like our room a bit. I wanted one downstairs that opened on the piazza and had roses all over the window, and such pretty old-fashioned chintz hangings! but John would not hear of it.

      He said there was only one window and not room for two beds, and no near room for him if he took another.

      He is very careful and loving, and hardly lets me stir without special direction.

      I have a schedule prescription for each hour in the day; he takes all care from me, and so I feel basely ungrateful not to value it more.

      He said we came here solely on my account, that I was to have perfect rest and all the air I could get. “Your exercise depends on your strength, my dear,” said he, “and your food somewhat on your appetite; but air you can absorb all the time.” So we took the nursery at the top of the house.

      It is a big, airy room, the whole floor nearly, with windows that look all ways, and air and sunshine galore. It was nursery first and then playroom and gymnasium, I should judge; for the windows are barred for СКАЧАТЬ