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СКАЧАТЬ style="font-size:15px;">      Dick stared at him.

      'Do you mean to say you're going to sit still and let them throw mud at you?'

      'If they want to.'

      'But look here, Alec, what the deuce is the meaning of the whole thing?'

      Alec looked at him quietly.

      'If I had intended to take the world in general into my confidence, I wouldn't have refused to see the interviewers who came to me this evening.'

      'We've known one another for twenty years, Alec,' said Dick.

      'Then you may be quite sure that if I refuse to discuss this matter with you, it must be for excellent reasons.'

      Dick sprang up excitedly.

      'But, good God! you must explain. You can't let a charge like this rest on you. After all, it's not Tom, Dick, or Harry that's concerned; it's Lucy's brother. You must speak.'

      'I've never yet discovered that I must do anything that I don't choose,' answered Alec.

      Dick flung himself into a chair. He knew that when Alec spoke in that fashion no power on earth could move him. The whole thing was entirely unexpected, and he was at a loss for words. He had not read the letter which was causing all the bother, and knew only what Lady Kelsey had told him. He had some hope that on a close examination various things would appear which must explain Alec's attitude; but at present it was incomprehensible.

      'Has it occurred to you that Lucy is very much in love with you, Alec?' he said at last.

      Alec did not answer. He made no movement.

      'What will you do if this loses you her love?'

      'I have counted the cost,' said Alec, coldly.

      He got up from his chair, and Dick saw that he did not wish to continue the discussion. There was a moment of silence, and then Lucy came in.

      'I've given my partner away to a wall-flower,' she said, with a faint smile. 'I felt I must have a few words alone with you.'

      'I will make myself scarce,' said Dick.

      They waited till he was gone. Then Lucy turned feverishly to Alec.

      'Oh, I'm so glad you've come. I wanted so much to see you.'

      'I'm afraid people have been telling you horrible things about me.'

      'They wanted to hide it from me.'

      'It never occurred to me that people _could_ say such shameful things,' he said gravely.

      It tormented him a little because it had been so easy to care nothing for the world's adulation, and it was so hard to care as little for its censure. He felt very bitter.

      He took Lucy's hand and made her sit on the sofa by his side.

      'There's something I must tell you at once.'

      She looked at him without answering.

      'I've made up my mind to give no answer to the charges that are brought against me.'

      Lucy looked up quickly, and their eyes met.

      'I give you my word of honour that I've done nothing which I regret. I swear to you that what I did was right with regard to George, and if it were all to come again I would do exactly as I did before.'

      She did not answer for a long time.

      'I never doubted you for a single moment,' she said at last.

      'That is all I care about.' He looked down, and there was a certain shyness in his voice when he spoke again. 'To-day is the first time I've wanted to be assured that I was trusted; and yet I'm ashamed to want it.'

      'Don't be too hard upon yourself,' she said gently. 'You're so afraid of letting your tenderness appear.'

      He seemed to give earnest thought to what she said. Lucy had never seen him more grave.

      'The only way to be strong is _never_ to surrender to one's weakness. Strength is merely a habit. I want you to be strong, too. I want you never to doubt me whatever you hear said.'

      'I gave my brother into your hands, and I said that if he died a brave man's death, I could ask for no more. You told me that such a death was his.'

      'I thought of you always, and everything I did was for your sake. Every single act of mine during these four years in Africa has been done because I loved you.'

      It was the first time since his return that he had spoken of love. Lucy bent her head still lower.

      'Do you remember, I asked you a question before I went away? You refused to marry me then, but you told me that if I asked again when I came back, the answer might be different.'

      'Yes.'

      'The hope bore me up in every difficulty and in every danger. And when I came back I dared not ask you at once; I was so afraid that you would refuse once more. And I didn't wish you to think yourself bound by a vague promise. But each day I loved you more passionately.'

      'I knew, and I was very grateful for your love.'

      'Yesterday I could have offered you a certain name. I only cared for the honours they gave me so that I might put them at your feet. But what can I offer you now?'

      'You must love me always, Alec, for now I have only you.'

      'Are you sure that you will never believe that I am guilty of this crime?'

      'Why can you say nothing in self-defence?'

      'That I can't tell you either.'

      There was a silence between them. At last Alec spoke again.

      'But perhaps it will be easier for you to believe in me than for others, because you know that I loved you, and I can't have done the odious thing of which that man accuses me.'

      'I will never believe it. I do not know what your reasons are for keeping all this to yourself, but I trust you, and I know that they are good. If you cannot speak, it is because greater interests hold you back. I love you, Alec, with all my heart, and if you wish me to be your wife I shall be proud and honoured.'

      He took her in his arms, and as he kissed her, she wept tears of happiness. She did not want to think. She wanted merely to surrender herself to his strength.

      XVI

      Lady Kelsey's devout hope that her party would finish without unpleasantness was singularly frustrated. Robert Boulger was irritated beyond endurance by the things СКАЧАТЬ