Reaching Forever. Philip C. Kolin

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      Oh, there’s darkness here, enough to satisfy even a Cormac McCarthy, one sees. As in “The Black Blizzard,” where the poet evokes those terrible dust storms of the Thirties, when dust begat dust and the soil

      we lived on and were buried in

      whipped up and [was] swept away by winds

      from a sky that seemed to harbor

      its own revenge

      And where families moved west, out of an Eden they had helped to destroy, to settle in places like Los Alamos, place of the poplars, where “We thought we could harvest the sky once more,” and where in another short decade new clouds, far more ominous still, “billowed like white mushrooms, /ready for the picking.”

      Such a plethora of riches in these poems—many of them dark meditations which grow ever darker as we stare into the face of unremitting evil, as in “Sons of Moloch,” part of the aptly-named “Wolves” section, where African Voodoo priests tell men plagued with AIDS that they can rid themselves of their disease by coupling with young virgins. Or there’s “A Simple Ten-Minute Procedure,” which reveals the too-often-unspoken-of aftershocks of abortion, where the lost baby

      still woke her at night

      with soft screams that continued

      for hours. Her husband never heard

      them, no matter how hard

      she tried to make him listen.

      The child cried about why and how

      his life could go so quickly

      before he could enjoy breathing.

      But all he had

      were memories of forceps

      cradling him down

      a sterile sink, a savage womb.

      But then again there’s the mercifully longer section called “Sheep,” where Kolin focuses once again on our worthy and underrated marginalized. Take, for instance, Christmas in New York for that homeless man in his cardboard manger, “His welcome mat... printed in one language” and “read in another,” who just might read “angels in the snowflakes/ raining down,” as he “listens to the moon splashing/ light on him at the Winter Solstice.” Or the orphan, recalling a drug-addicted “mother’s purple eyes/ and frosted lips,” feeding him through a needle.

      In one of those rare moments, the poet turns the lens on his own scarred youth in “A Night in Lisle,” a Catholic orphanage just outside Chicago’s limits, where a small boy, separated for a time from a mother unable to find work, hopes to be comforted by the nun at the night desk “from which sole light emanates,” but who instead sends him scurrying back to his bed. “We prayed to the Father to rescue us,” he tells us,

      but he came only a few times each year

      and then to carry one or two of us off

      with a cold smile, folded now under

      rubber sheets zipped,

      to be harvested.

      Mercifully, mercifully, there are God’s sheep as well to celebrate: those who smell like God’s sheep because they do God’s work. Like God’s bakers, those monks from St. Benedict in Louisiana, who three days a week cross Lake Pontchartrain to feed those “exiled from their own identity/ in the national void of halfway/ houses, shelters, nursing homes, jails,” like Brother Joseph in his “old delivery van – a 1999 Chevy Astro– . . . packed full of bread” then returning to the monastery “bursting/ with the scent of myrtle.” Or Father Daniel Francis Derivaux, like Merton a Gethsemane monk, “called to be a prisoner of Christ” “at Parchman Penitentiary/ teaching unschooled monks in striped habits/ to sigh the name of Jesus.” Or one more nameless unwed mother, trying desperately to feed her baby from the leftovers of those vast dumpsters in our indifferent cities.

      And on it goes, in poem after blessed poem, forever reaching out toward God’s forever, which we sheep have been promised. And yet, and yet. In spite of the darkness and the pain and the losses, what can we—approaching our own deaths—hope for, after all, when God finally arrives? “Let your eyes write/new tears for a pilgrimage/ to a place you cannot see,” this poet who has clearly paid the price tells us.

      Wait for the darkness, for it is out of the darkness, as the prophets and the saints have so often reminded us, that he will call for us. And don’t try to image what being in His image will mean. That is beyond our imaginations, for God “lives in infinity,” and “whispers fire and speaks/ in endless vowels.” And as His train passes by, as it did for Moses on that high mountain, it will evaporate continents along with our “black-plumed sins,” and suddenly, mercifully, astonishingly, you will “realize you do not/ have to wear/ your body anymore.”

Where Water Flows

      Baptism

      Under God’s sky-full hands

      waters around continents

      peak in coral and turquoise,

      reefs bejeweled with fins and fans

      from the artist whose canvas

      must be submerged

      to be seen.

      So too with souls—

      left alone and earthed

      in the deceitful mirror

      of time’s fooled sufficiency

      they erode into scrubbed limestone,

      unpretty quarries.

      But pooled into fonts,

      wells, and tides,

      they acquire a majesty

      happily not of their own making.

      A Pond is Heaven’s Scroll

      Though conscripted

      of earth and water, the pond

      rewrites itself as heaven’s scroll.

      The pilgrimage of the moon

      dallies above it

      in the mud-coated night

      imprinting its image

      in the willowy water that

      Li Po lost his life trying to catch.

      Fish ripple haloed messages

      in Vadic and Tau across

      a shoal of blue slate.

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