The Book of Israela. Rena Blumenthal

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      But I had to admit that I wasn’t only worried; I was also full of anticipation at the thought of seeing Israela again. After I’d twice leapt to my feet at the sound of footsteps outside the door, I stayed standing, busying my hands by straightening the piles of charts on my desk. She wasn’t my usual type, but I was drawn to her in a way I couldn’t quite define. I warned myself to be careful—I was being watched with a close, malicious eye and could afford no more “inappropriate” patient liaisons, no matter how impulsive, superficial, or fleeting.

      When Israela finally did arrive—ten minutes late, slinking into the office unannounced, like a movie star evading her fans—her mood was lighthearted, and I felt my anxiety melt under a surge of relief. She flung the shawl off her head, flashed me a disarming smile, and sank into my recliner as if in her own living room.

      “You seem more cheerful this week,” I said, perching myself on the edge of the couch. “Did you have a good holiday?” Her dark eyes were shining. She carried with her the scent of jasmine, making the room feel small and sultry. With each breath I relaxed a little more, absurdly glad to be in her presence.

      “No, not really,” she was saying. “But I feel better already, just seeing you again. I can’t tell you how much you helped me last time. It must be wonderful to be able to help people like that.”

      She was flirting audaciously, flattering me with that adoring look, familiar to me from years of therapy practice. Despite myself, it was working. I shrugged off the hazy effect her scent was having on my mind and forced myself to focus.

      “Yes, well, of course,” I said in my most professional voice. “But remember, we’re in the earliest stages of treatment, and I still need to gather a lot of basic information in order to see how therapy might help.”

      “Oh, but I told you everything last time,” she said, her eyes round and earnest.

      I pretended to consult my notes. “Well, you did tell me a lot about your marriage. Today I was hoping to get a sense of the rest of your life.” My pen fell to the floor and I bent down to pick it up. “Tell me about your holiday—how did you spend it?”

      “It wasn’t so great,” she said, looking at her hands. “I cleaned and cleaned, cooked all his favorite meals, but he never showed up. Not that I was surprised—he never does. I don’t know why I keep going through the motions every year.” She looked up at me. “To be honest, it was a long, lonely week. I kept thinking of all the other families celebrating together.”

      “I’m sorry it was so lonely,” I said.

      She shrugged. “How was your holiday?” she asked. “I’m sure it was better than mine.”

      “It was fine, thank you,” I lied, grateful for once to be able to hide behind the strict rules of therapy. “But we should continue with the intake process that we started last time. Why don’t you begin today by telling me a little about your childhood?”

      She sighed. “Oh, Doctor, you don’t want to hear about my childhood. It was a total nightmare.”

      “Of course I want to hear about it. After all, that’s what we’re here for. What was so terrible about it?”

      She looked up at me, as if to gauge my interest. “I was orphaned at a very young age,” she began. “I never knew my parents. They moved to Egypt before I was born, but both of them died shortly thereafter.”

      I shook my head sympathetically. “What a terrible tragedy. Were you raised by relatives?”

      “I didn’t have any, not that I knew of. I had a terrifying childhood. I really don’t think you’d want to hear about it.”

      She was twisting the fringed edges of her shawl as she spoke, but she’d kept her eyes firmly locked on mine. I focused myself on the task of diagnosis: there was important information here—some kind of major, early trauma—that she was not yet ready to share. But I was sure I would get to the bottom of it. I hadn’t been this motivated to understand a patient in years.

      “What do you know about your parents?” I asked.

      “I know almost nothing about my mother. But I’ve learned a lot about my father from Y.”

      “He knew him?” I asked, hearing the surprise in my voice.

      She smiled broadly. “Oh yes, he was very close to my father. He’s been close to my family for years.”

      Her entire affect had shifted. Clearly, Y was her favorite topic.

      “How did he know your family?” I asked.

      “Well, it all started when he met my great-grandfather, Aba Ibra.”

      I kept my tone neutral this time. “You’re saying that your husband knew your great-grandfather?”

      “Didn’t I tell you? He’s much older than me. I don’t know exactly how old, but older than you’d think.” No name, no age. But in a way, it didn’t matter. I’d come to understand that there was a layer of truth to be found even in the most bizarre delusions. There would be much to learn if I listened closely and kept my skepticism under check.

      “So how did he meet your great-grandfather?”

      “They met in Syria. Y was very young at the time, no more than a teenager. Much younger than Ibra, who was already married and an established businessman.”

      “Is Y Syrian?” I asked.

      “No, Iraqi—at least I think so. Ibra was also born in Iraq, but he’d emigrated to Syria years before. Y was working in Syria as a Zionist recruiter, teaching Hebrew language and Zionist ideology, trying to get people to move to pre-state Palestine. It was around the time when the situation for Jews in Syria was beginning to deteriorate, but before there was a well-organized Zionist underground. It was very dangerous work—the Syrian government disapproved of Jewish nationalism and was not above arresting and killing Zionist operatives.”

      Was any of this plausible? “He was working for the pre-state authorities?” I asked.

      “Oh, no. Y never works for anyone. He was an independent operator. But he’s always been a fervent Zionist.”

      “And your great-grandfather was also an early Zionist?”

      “Not until he met Y. But one day he stumbled upon Y’s class on Zionist ideology, and the connection between them was instantaneous. After the class ended, Y told him that he was looking for someone to set an example for the Syrian community and that Ibra was the one he had chosen. Most Syrian Jews at the time were emigrating to America, or England, or even Latin America. But Y convinced Ibra to set a different example. He told him to summon his wife, pack up their belongings at once, and move to Palestine.”

      “Those early Zionists could be heavy-handed at times,” I offered.

      “To put it mildly. Ibra went home that very day and told his wife they were moving to Palestine. She was horrified, but what choice did a woman have in those days? Within a week they had packed up a few belongings and smuggled across the border with Y, СКАЧАТЬ