Dallas. Jeff Hood

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      Dallas

      Mixed Verse from a Shooting

      Copyright © 2017 Jeff Hood. All rights reserved. Except for brief quotations in critical publications or reviews, no part of this book may be reproduced in any manner without prior written permission from the publisher. Write: Permissions, Wipf and Stock Publishers, 199 W. 8th Ave., Suite 3, Eugene, OR 97401.

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      paperback isbn: 978-1-5326-1664-8

      hardcover isbn: 978-1-4982-4052-9

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      Manufactured in the U.S.A. February 7, 2017

      For the Victims of Dallas

      Babel.

      After

      The Huffington Post

      July 18, 2016

      Writing used to be easy. Now, nothing seems easy. Leaning in, I just stare at the screen. Occasionally, I try to type something. Despite my desperation to write, my mind is held captive to a former place.

      Bloody films never leave you. Every image sticks. The officer took his gun and shot Alton Sterling dead. Amidst the screams, Philando Castile bled out. Everyone wanted to talk about their lives, I couldn’t get past their deaths. I wasn’t alone. We put out a call. Over a thousand people responded.

      Downtown Dallas has been the site of dozens and dozens of rallies. Over the last year, we’ve repeatedly marched for endangered lives. The rally was large. We didn’t hesitate. The crowd was ready to go. The speakers were ready to go. We were ready to go. Cries of justice rang out.

      In the midst of misery, God is incarnate. When we believe all is lost, God speaks from the bones. The bones rise up and lead us on. They did that night.

      I was nervous about speaking. When I opened my mouth, everything seemed clear. Though I spoke for a long time, people have only remembered one phrase, “God Damn White America.” The gathered understood the adaptation of Jeremiah Wright’s infamous phrasing. The message of unity was simple. The message of love was heard. We must become one. There is no White America. There is only America. Violence has a way of creating confusion.

      Fear is not a part of faith. I didn’t care. I was afraid.

      Safety was at the front of my mind. The Dallas Police Department guided the marchers through downtown with tremendous grace. On multiple occasions, we stopped or changed routes to make sure that everyone had the chance to keep up. I stayed at the front of the line. In time, I settled into the rhythm of the movement. Throughout the march, anything seemed possible. Love and justice was within our grasp. Then, confusion reigned.

      Darkness was all Jesus knew. The disciples professed their allegiance to him. Now, they couldn’t even stay awake. Unable to function, Jesus cried out in fear. No one was woke.

      Our march wound through downtown. Stopping at the Old Courthouse, we took a minute to talk about the 1910 lynching of Allen Brooks. There was no denying that the march for love and justice was long. For a few seconds, I stared at the bricks. What did they know? What would they say? How much further is the journey? Organizers and the police shouted for me to run up to the front of the march. I did.

      For the next few blocks, I talked to a DPD Sergeant. In the midst of the rally and protest winding down, we talked about the success of the night. The conversation felt natural. There seemed to be a genuine connection. A few steps past Austin St., everything changed.

      Things seemed clearer before Babel. Now, no one speaks the same language. Confusion is all anyone knows.

      “Pop-pop-pop-pop-pop . . .” I heard it so clearly. I’ve heard it ever since. The shots rang out. The violence was all that was clear. Bullets flew in every direction. Multiple people dropped. The echoes only enhanced the terror of it all. Pandemonium took over. Grabbing my shirt to make sure I hadn’t been shot, I ran back toward the protestors. I was terrified that a thousand people were about to walk into the middle of a shootout. Throughout the evening, I carried a 10-foot cross. At this moment, I used it as a shepherd’s staff and started swinging it around. Screaming, “Run! Run! Run! Active Shooter! Active Shooter! Active Shooter!” I got as many people out of there as I could.

      The march was beautiful. Every step was about stopping violence. Love and justice seemed so loud and so close. Evil didn’t listen. 5 Officers were Dead. Devastation set in.

      Total confusion arrived.

      For the next few days, I told my story on every major news outlet in the country and beyond. The officers were never far from my mind. Repeatedly, I reminded people that this was a nonviolent peaceful protest. “Love” and “justice” were the only words on my lips. I looked directly into the camera and declared, “Stop shooting America!” I don’t know if anyone heard me. Violence always confuses the ears. I saw it happen. I saw it happen again in Baton Rouge. Former words are confused and present words are confusing. We will not be able to understand until we stand down.

      Oh God, deliver us from Babel.

      Amen.

      Relearning to Think

      After

      Baptist News Global

      August 4, 2016

      The world was in chaos.

      I stood before a huge crowd. There were only seconds to go before it was time for me to speak. I stepped up to the bullhorn. I spoke as passionately as I ever have. Victims of police brutality filled our minds.

      Feet constantly hit the pavement. Hundreds and hundreds of souls yearning for justice marched down the glowing streets of Dallas. Energy was high. I could feel it in my bones. Whispers of hope filled the air. The diners stood in reverence. Nobody was able to avert their eyes. Endurance mingled with the heat. Sweat dropped to the pavement. There was no stopping us. We wanted justice. God was there somewhere.

      Old bricks pulled us forward. Centuries of injustice drew us together. The historic Dallas County Courthouse is a mound of red rock cascading to the sky. The back steps were a fitting place to remember — a place where on a day in the past, the screams for blood had grown louder and louder. After fighting their way into the courthouse, several thousand people dragged Allen Brooks out of his trial. Not long after, the mob lynched Brooks. Throughout the day, his body was on display. Postcards were created to commemorate the event. Though it happened in 1910, my brain felt like it was closer than I could have ever dreamed. The hanging. The dragging. The hating.