The Man Who Loved His Wife. Vera Caspary

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      “Why are you looking so impatient, dear? You’ve got plenty of time. Didn’t you say you’d put off the barber until four today?”

      Fletcher had told her, but she had apparently forgotten, that he was to see his dentist that afternoon. He spoke angrily, too fast and without giving thought to breathing and the control of abdominal muscles. Sounds like animal grunts struck his ears with fresh agony.

      Before Cindy could chirp the usual “What, Daddy?” Elaine translated with her loathsome tact, “Oh, darling, I forgot your dentist appointment. But you’ve got plenty of time still. Look, I’ve made you a chocolate mousse.”

      For no reason Cindy giggled, Don stared at the centerpiece as if he hoped to find some mystic answer among the asters. Elaine set the plate before him. Once more they looked at each other, heat welled up in Fletcher, and he flung the dish of chocolate mousse at his wife.

      “Daddy, what are you doing?”

      Under blond curls Cindy’s face glowed with delight. She had good features and flawless skin, but was too solid to be noticeable among all the pretty girls who did their lips and eyes and hair in the same fashion and wore clothes from the proper stores. She had never been so lovely as at this moment of witnessing her father’s cruelty to the woman who had taken his daughter’s rightful place in his heart.

      AT THE RISK of being late for the dentist’s appointment, Fletcher lingered in the house until Don drove off to meet a fraternity brother who had good contacts. Cindy took one look at the untidy kitchen and decided to drive into the city with her father.

      Elaine set about her chores briskly, eager to be done. Even housework came easier when there was no one to watch, interrupt, demand attention. To save effort she stacked dishes on the tray and carried them to the kitchen. At the threshold she paused, struck anew by the clutter, confusion seemed symbolic, her life a mess of untidiness, disappointment, and futile chores. The tray trembled in her hands. She thought of herself cringing, a victim without dignity or self-respect, while her husband assaulted her with pudding.

      Her tray fell. Porcelain clattered and broke on the kitchen tiles. Plates, cups, saucers, glasses, everything. It was no accident. She had willed the destruction. So many broken dishes! Fletcher would be furious.

      For an instant tears threatened. Elaine thought of excuses, confession, soft appeal. These were immediately rejected. Defiance hardened her. Deliberately and in malice she walked to the counter and, one by one, hurled every dish upon the tiled floor. One plate rebelled, rolled into a corner, remained whole. She picked it up and flung it down with sturdy malevolence. When every soiled dish and glass lay in shards, she collected all the dirty pots and utensils, carried them to the garbage cans, covered them securely and returned to the kitchen.

      She had no idea that she was being watched.

      Next she set about the task of sweeping up the wreckage, gathering broken bits into the dustpan, emptying it into the garbage tins. On her third trip she saw the man, recoiled and instinctively hid the guilty dustpan behind her back.

      “Didn’t you hear my car? I didn’t see you in the garden so I came to find you here.”

      It was Ralph Julian. After all of her confessions to his invisible shape the solid man seemed unreal. Her hand trembled. He took the dustpan from her.

      “Accident?”

      “I broke them on purpose.” Defiant, as though he had provoked the destruction, she laughed spitefully.

      “So many dishes?”

      “Just the ones we used at lunch, Service for four. We’ve still got eight of everything. Haviland.” She laughed again at the extravagance. “We bought the set, a dozen of each, when we moved in here.”

      Ralph helped her with the rest of the clearing up. “Don’t say anything to your husband until he’s in a better mood.”

      “What makes you think he’s in a bad one?”

      “Something must have caused the havoc. Or do you break dishes just for the hell of it?”

      They stood under the olive tree. Leaf shadows darkened her face. She had changed from the soiled dress, so that there were no visible signs of the assault. For all that she had ached to tell Ralph, she could find nothing to say except that it had been a long time since they had seen each other. Ralph had wanted to visit her, he said, but had kept away because he thought her husband did not approve of him.

      “It’s not you, it’s every man. The way he watches me, you’d think the supermarket was a bordello.” She had learned the word from her father. Once she had said it to Fletcher and he had laughed, telling her that she was too genteel. “In this country we call it a whorehouse.” The recollection brought a faint smile.

      Again there was silence under the olive tree. Hot afternoon sun pierced the shadow. Elaine asked him into the house. He reached ahead to open the screen door. Her body brushed against his, so that she stiffened and hurried ahead. There was still a clutter in the kitchen but she made no apologies.

      In the living room harsh light lay in yellow rectangles and sent up cruel blades of brightness from the polished tiles between Oriental rugs. Elaine hurried to draw the curtains. At once the mood softened. A dimmed mirror threw back her image. “I ought to comb my hair,” she said, but threw herself upon the couch, stretching her long legs and resting sandaled feet upon a cushion.

      Ralph stood above the couch and looked down upon her body. “I’ve thought of you every day.” His tone was too ardent. “I couldn’t stay away any longer.”

      She sat up abruptly, asked for a cigarette, moved to the far edge of the couch after he had leaned close to give her a light. His hands smelled of antiseptic soap. Elaine held herself tight to show indifference. He sat at the couch’s other end. The curtains blew out like inflated balloons. Elaine and Ralph watched as though this were some strange phenomenon.

      She thought of the meetings in daydreams, the conversations carried on in silence, the relief of confession. My husband wants to die. In every revery the facts gushed out; in the man’s presence she felt a cowardly fool. Some day he’ll do it. Perhaps, she told herself, it was all a product of her inflamed imagination; or worse, a guilty wish. No, no, no, her heart protested, she did not want to gain freedom that way. Her hands flew to cover the shameful color that flushed in her face.

      Through all the weeks that he had denied himself this visit, Ralph had thought about Elaine, cherished many images, tried to capture the elusive delight of her changing expressions, recalled the modeling of bone, the coral tint which often and unexpectedly brightened ivory flesh. He had tried without success to exorcise the spell by making love to a handsome nurse, had told himself severely that he did not approve of involvements with married women. “I’ve got something to show you.” With a tense hand he took out his wallet and from it took a clipping mounted on cardboard.

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