Forgiven and Forgiving. L. William Countryman
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Название: Forgiven and Forgiving
Автор: L. William Countryman
Издательство: Ingram
Жанр: Зарубежная эзотерическая и религиозная литература
isbn: 9780819224934
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Sometimes we reject and harm ourselves in less obvious ways, by substituting superficial and misleading goods for the deeper ones that the soul longs for. In a quantified culture, that's easy to do. We measure worth in currency. We may try to substitute possessions for the security of a quiet soul. We may try to substitute company for friends, detached sex for intimacy, information for reflection, career for life. The number of people who reach their middle years and suddenly discover themselves to be empty inside is a good index of how easy it is to substitute the minor pleasures of career or the shopping mall for the deeper pleasures of the soul and spirit—and also a good indicator of the fact that it won't work forever.
For all sorts of reasons and in all sorts of ways, we shortchange ourselves. Then we look back at some later time and think, “Why did I do that, and what do I have left to show for it all?” We may become angry with ourselves—or deeply sad. We become divided within, so that we are both victim and oppressor. If we remember God's forgiveness at this juncture, we shall try to deal as kindly with ourselves as God does. Otherwise, life can easily become a continuously renewed cycle of reproach.
This sounds bad enough, but there is a still worse option—to deaden ourselves so that we don't have to deal with those unpleasant feelings. We draw a curtain over our distress, blame others for our emptiness, and seek relief in distractions and drugs. The problem with that approach is that life loses its joys along with its sorrows. The mere shoving under or drugging of emotion seldom accomplishes much. In fact, rejected emotions have a way of coming back in poisoned form at a later date. It's better to acknowledge the ways we have harmed ourselves, even at the cost of some pain, and ask how we can move on to a kinder and more productive habit of life.
For we don't have to get stuck in the distress. God is still calling you into friendship. You are on your way somewhere. You've stumbled along the way? Welcome to the human race. The wonderful thing is that, through forgiveness, God is able to take even our failures and turn them into raw materials for future growth. Think of it as a kind of spiritual recycling. Nothing gets lost, ultimately. Through the miracle of forgiveness, even our failures become the means of our spiritual maturation and the foundation of a priestly ministry to one another. They give us understanding of one another's sufferings and uncertainties. They enable us to stand alongside one another in the presence of God.
They also give us, within ourselves, a new certainty of God's goodness. How many hymns celebrate precisely this experience of God's reclaiming us! John Newton's “Amazing Grace” is the most familiar, with its joyful cry, “I once was lost but now am found!” Another hymn by an anonymous author, begins:
I sought the Lord, and afterward I knew
he moved my soul to seek him, seeking me.
This hymn continues by casting us in the role of stupid, awkward, impulsive, wrongheaded Peter as he tries to walk on the waves with Jesus. He becomes afraid and starts to sink before being rescued by Jesus from the sea (Matt. 14:28–32):
Thou didst reach forth thy hand and mine enfold;
I walked and sank not on the storm-vexed sea;
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