OF TIME AND THE RIVER. Thomas Wolfe

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СКАЧАТЬ an object of ridicule to his Southern kinsmen, but their ridicule was streaked with pride, since they accepted the impact of his personality as another proof that theirs was an extraordinary family. “He’s one of ’em, all right,” they said exultantly, “queerer than any of us!”

      Bascom’s youth, following the war between the States, had been seared by a bitter poverty, at once enriched and warped by a life that clung to the earth with a rootlike tenacity that was manual, painful, spare and stricken, and that rebuilt itself — fiercely, cruelly, and richly — from the earth. And because there burned and blazed in him from the first a hatred of human indignity, a passionate avowal of man’s highness and repose, he felt more bitterly than the others the delinquencies of his father, and the multiplication of his father’s offspring, who came regularly into a world of empty cupboards.

      “As each of them made its unhappy entrance into the world,” he would say later, his voice tremulous with passion, “I went out into the woods striking my head against the trees, and blaspheming God in my anger. Yes, sir,” he continued, pursing his long lip rapidly against his few loose upper teeth, and speaking with an exaggerated pedantry of enunciation, “I am not ashamed to confess that I did. For we were living in conditions unWORTHY— UNWORTHY”— his voice rising to an evangelical yell, “I had almost said — of the condition of animals. And — SAY— what do you think?”— he said, with a sudden shift in manner and tone, becoming, after his episcopal declaration, matter of fact and whisperingly confidential. “Why, do you know, my boy, at one time I had to take my OWN father aside and point out to him we were living in no way becoming decent people.”— Here his voice sank to a whisper, and he tapped Eugene on the knee with his big, stiff finger, grimacing horribly and pursing his lip against his dry upper teeth.

      Poverty had been the mistress of his youth and Bascom Pentland had not forgotten: poverty had burned its way into his heart. He took what education he could find in a backwoods school, read everything he could, taught, for two or three years, in a country school and, at the age of twenty-one, borrowing enough money for railway fare, went to Boston to enrol himself at Harvard. And, somehow, because of the fire that burned in him, the fierce determination of his soul, he had been admitted, secured employment waiting on tables, tutoring, and pressing everyone’s trousers but his own, and lived in a room with two other starved wretches on $3.50 a week, cooking, eating, sleeping, washing, and studying in the one place.

      At the end of seven years he had gone through the college and the school of theology, performing brilliantly in Greek, Hebrew, and metaphysics.

      Poverty, fanatical study, the sexual meagreness of his surroundings, had made of him a gaunt zealot: at thirty he was a lean fanatic, a true Yankee madman, high-boned, with grey thirsty eyes and a thick flaring sheaf of oaken hair — six feet three inches of gangling and ludicrous height, gesticulating madly and obliviously before a grinning world. But he had a grand lean head: he looked somewhat like the great Ralph Waldo Emerson — with the brakes off.

      About this time he married a young Southern woman of a good family: she was from Tennessee, her parents were both dead, and in the ‘seventies she had come North and had lived for several years with an uncle in Providence, who had been constituted guardian of her estate, amounting probably to about $75,000, although her romantic memory later multiplied the sum to $200,000. The man squandered part of her money and stole the rest: she came, therefore, to Bascom without much dowry, but she was pretty, bright, intelligent, and had a good figure. Bascom smote the walls of his room with bloody knuckles, and fell down before God.

      When Bascom met her she was a music student in Boston: she had a deep full-toned contralto voice which was wrung from her somewhat tremulously when she sang. She was a small woman, birdlike and earnest, delicately fleshed and boned, quick and active in her movements and with a crisp tart speech which still bore, curiously, traces of a Southern accent. She was a brisk, serious, ladylike little person, without much humour, and she was very much in love with her gaunt suitor. They saw each other for two years: they went to concerts, lectures, sermons; they talked of music, poetry, philosophy and of God, but they never spoke of love. But one night Bascom met her in the parlour of her boarding-house on Huntington Avenue, and with a voice vibrant and portentous with the importance of the words he had to utter, began as follows: “Miss Louise!” he said carefully, gazing thoughtfully over the apex of his hands, “there comes a time when a man, having reached an age of discretion and mature judgment, must begin to consider one of the GRAVEST— yes! by all means one of the most important events in human life. The event I refer to is — matrimony.” He paused, a clock was beating out its punctual measured tock upon the mantel, and a horse went by with ringing hoofs upon the street. As for Louise, she sat quietly erect, with dignified and ladylike composure, but it seemed to her that the clock was beating in her own breast, and that it might cease to beat at any moment.

      “For a minister of the Gospel,” Bascom continued, “the decision is particularly grave, because, for him — once made, it is IRREVOCABLE, once determined upon, it must be followed INEXORABLY, RELENTLESSLY— aye! to the edge of the grave, to the UTTERMOST gates of death, so that the possibility of an error in judgment is FRAUGHT”— his voice sinking to a boding whisper —“is FRAUGHT with the most terrible consequences. Accordingly,” Uncle Bascom said in a deliberate tone, “having decided to take this step, realizing to the FULL— to the FULL, mind you — its gravity, I have searched my soul, I have questioned my heart. I have gone up into the mountings and out into the desert and communed with my MAKER until”— his voice rose like a demon’s howl —“there no longer remains an ATOM of doubt, a PARTICLE of uncertainty, a VESTIGE of DISBELIEF! Miss Louise, I have decided that the young lady best fitted in every way to be my helpmate, the partner of my joys and griefs, the confidante of my dearest hopes, the inSPIR-ation of my noblest endeavours, the companion of my declining years, and the SPIRIT that shall accompany me along each step of life’s vexed and troubled way, sharing with me whatever God in His INSCRUTABLE Providence shall will, whether of wealth or poverty, grief or happiness — I have decided, Miss Louise, that that lady must be-yourself! — and, therefore, I request,” he said slowly and impressively, “the honour of your hand in mar-ri-age.”

      She loved him, she had hoped, prayed, and agonized for just such a moment, but now that it had come she rose immediately with ladylike dignity, and said: “Mistah Pentland: I am honuhed by this mahk of yoah esteem and affection, and I pwomise to give it my most UNnest considahwation without delay. I wealize fully, Mistah Pentland, the gwavity of the wuhds you have just uttuhed. Foh my paht, I must tell you, Mistah Pentland, that if I accept yoah pwoposal, I shall come to you without the fawchun which was WIGHTfully mine, but of which I have been depwived and defwauded by the WASCALITY— yes! the WASCALITY of my gahdian. I shall come to you, theahfoh, without the dow’y I had hoped to be able to contwibute to my husband’s fawchuns.”

      “Oh, my DEAR Miss Louise! My DEAR young lady!” Uncle Bascom cried, waving his great hand through the air with a dismissing gesture. “Do not suppose — do not for one instant suppose, I beg of you! — that consideration of a monetary nature could influence my decision. Oh, not in the slightest!” he cried. “Not at all, not at all!”

      “Fawchnatly,” Louise continued, “my inhewitance was not WHOLLY dissipated by this scoundwel. A pohtion, a vewy small pohtion, remains.”

      “My dear girl! My dear young lady!” Uncle Bascom cried. “It is not of the SLIGHTEST consequence. . . . How much did he leave?” he added.

      Thus they were married.

      Bascom immediately got a church in the Middle West: good pay and a house. But during the course of the next twenty years he was shifted from church to church, from sect to sect — to Brooklyn, then back to the Middle West, to the Dakotas, to Jersey City, to Western Massachusetts, and finally back to the small towns surrounding Boston.

      When Bascom talked, you may be sure God listened: he preached magnificently, СКАЧАТЬ