The Complete Works of Frances Hodgson Burnett. Frances Hodgson Burnett

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      “I dunno,” she said; “I was ‘ere first thing I remember. I lived with a old woman in another ‘ouse in the court. One mornin’ when I woke up she was dead. Sometimes I’ve begged an’ sold matches. Sometimes I’ve took care of women’s children or ‘elped ‘em when they ‘ad to lie up. I’ve seen a lot—but I like to see a lot. ‘Ope I’ll see a lot more afore I’m done. I’m used to bein’ ‘ungry an’ cold, an’ all that, but—but I allers like to see what’s comin’ tomorrer. There’s allers somethin’ else tomorrer. That’s all about me,” and she chuckled again.

      Dart picked up some fresh sticks and threw them on the fire. There was some fine crackling and a new flame leaped up.

      “If you could do what you liked,” he said, “what would you like to do?”

      Her chuckle became an outright laugh.

      “If I ‘ad ten pounds?” she asked, evidently prepared to adjust herself in imagination to any form of unlooked-for good luck.

      “If you had more?”

      His tone made the thief lift his head to look at him.

      “If I ‘ad a wand like the one Jem told me was in the pantermine?”

      “Yes,” he answered.

      She sat and stared at the fire a few moments, and then began to speak in a low luxuriating voice.

      “I’d get a better room,” she said, revelling. “There’s one in the next ‘ouse. I’d ‘ave a few sticks o’ furnisher in it—a bed an’ a chair or two. I’d get some warm petticuts an’ a shawl an’ a ‘at—with a ostrich feather in it. Polly an’ me’d live together. We’d ‘ave fire an’ grub every day, I’d get drunken Bet’s biby put in an ‘ome. I’d ‘elp the women when they ‘ad to lie up. I’d—I’d ‘elp ‘im a bit,” with a jerk of her elbow toward the thief. “If ‘e was kept fed p’r’aps ‘e could work out that thing in ‘is ‘ead. I’d go round the court an’ ‘elp them with ‘usbands that knocks ‘em about. I’d—I’d put a stop to the knockin’ about,” a queer fixed look showing itself in her eyes. “If I ‘ad money I could do it. ‘Ow much,” with sudden prudence, “could a body ‘ave—with one o’ them wands?”

      “More than enough to do all you have spoken of,” answered Dart.

      “It’s a shime a body couldn’t ‘ave it. Apple Blossom Court ‘d be a different thing. It’d be the sime as Miss Montaubyn says it’s goin’ to be.” She laughed again, this time as if remembering something fantastic, but not despicable.

      “Who is Miss Montaubyn?”

      “She’s a’ old woman as lives next floor below. When she was young she was pretty an’ used to dance in the ‘alls. Drunken Bet says she was one o’ the wust. When she got old it made ‘er mad an’ she got wusser. She was ready to tear gals eyes out, an’ when she’d get took for makin’ a row she’d fight like a tiger cat. About a year ago she tumbled downstairs when she’d ‘ad too much an’ she broke both ‘er legs. You remember, Polly?”

      Polly hid her face in her hands.

      “Oh, when they took her away to the hospital!” she shuddered. “Oh, when they lifted her up to carry her!”

      “I thought Polly’d ‘ave a fit when she ‘eard ‘er screamin’ an’ swearin’. My! it was langwich! But it was the ‘orspitle did it.”

      “Did what?”

      “Dunno,” with an uncertain, even slightly awed laugh. “Dunno wot it did—neither does nobody else, but somethin’ ‘appened. It was along of a lidy as come in one day an’ talked to ‘er when she was lyin’ there. My eye,” chuckling, “it was queer talk! But I liked it. P’raps it was lies, but it was cheerfle lies that ‘elps yer. What I ses is—if things ain’t cheerfle, people’s got to be—to fight it out. The women in the ‘ouse larft fit to kill theirselves when she fust come ‘ome limpin’ an’ talked to ‘em about what the lidy told ‘er. But arter a bit they liked to ‘ear ‘er—just along o’ the cheerfleness. Said it was like a pantermine. Drunken Bet says if she could get ‘old ‘f it an’ believe it sime as Jinny Montaubyn does it’d be as cheerin’ as drink an’ last longer.”

      “Is it a kind of religion?” Dart asked, having a vague memory of rumors of fantastic new theories and half-born beliefs which had seemed to him weird visions floating through fagged brains wearied by old doubts and arguments and failures. The world was tired—the whole earth was sad—centuries had wrought only to the end of this twentieth century’s despair. Was the struggle waking even here—in this back water of the huge city’s human tide? he wondered with dull interest.

      “Is it a kind of religion?” he said.

      “It’s cheerfler.” Glad thrust out her sharp chin uncertainly again. “There’s no ‘ell fire in it. An’ there ain’t no blime laid on Godamighty,” (The word as she uttered it seemed to have no connection whatever with her usual colloquial invocation of the Deity.) “When a dray run over little Billy an’ crushed ‘im inter a rag, an’ ‘is mother was screamin’ an’ draggin’ ‘er ‘air down, the curick ‘e ses, ‘It’s Gawd’s will,’ ‘e ses—an’ ‘e ain’t no bad sort neither, an’ ‘is fice was white an’ wet with sweat—‘Gawd done it,’ ‘e ses. An’ me, I’d nussed the child an’ I clawed me ‘air sime as if I was ‘is mother an’ I screamed out, ‘Then damn ‘im!’ An’ the curick ‘e dropped sittin’ down on the curbstone an’ ‘id ‘is fice in ‘is ‘ands.”

      Dart hid his own face after the manner of the wretched curate.

      “No wonder,” he groaned. His blood turned cold.

      “But,” said Glad, “Miss Montaubyn’s lidy she says Godamighty never done it nor never intended it, an’ if we kep’ sayin’ an’ believin’ ‘e’s close to us an’ not millyuns o’ miles away, we’d be took care of whilst we was alive an’ not ‘ave to wait till we was dead.”

      She got up on her feet and threw up her arms with a sudden jerk and involuntary gesture.

      “I’m alive! I’m alive!” she cried out.

      “I’m alive! I’m alive!” she cried out.

      “I’m alive! I’m alive!” she cried out, “I’ve got ter be took care of now! That’s why I like wot she tells about it. So does the women. We ain’t no more reason ter be sure of wot the curick says than ter be sure o’ this. Dunno as I ‘ve got ter choose either way, but if I ‘ad, I’d choose the cheerflest.”

      Dart had sat staring at her—so had Polly—so had the thief. Dart rubbed his forehead.

      “I do not understand,” he said.

      “‘T ain’t understanding! It’s believin’. Bless yer, she doesn’t understand. I say, let’s go an’ talk to ‘er a bit. She don’t mind nothin’, an’ she’ll let us in. We can leave Polly an’ ‘im ‘ere. They can make some more tea an’ drink it.”

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