The Girl Who Couldn'T See Rainbows. Rosette

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      Finally she stopped in front of a door and opened it.

      I reached her, slightly winded. I was already out of breath and exhausted.

      She walked into the room with a warm smile on her lips.

      “I hope you like it, Miss Bruno. By the way... do you pronounce it Bruno or Brunò?”

      “Bruno. My father was of Italian extraction,” I said, while I contemplated the room.

      Ms Mc Millian began to chatter, telling me various anecdotes about her brief stay in Florence, Italy when she was young and about her vicissitudes as an art history student with the rigid local bureaucracy.

      I listened to her distractedly, too excited to pretend to be interested. That room that she described as simple, was the triple of my London dump! My initial doubts were swept away. I put the suitcase on the dresser, and I admired the large canopy bed which was antique like the rest of the furniture. A desk, a wardrobe, a bedside table, a carpet on the wooden floor and a half opened window. I headed in that direction and opened it completely, indulging in the beautiful landscape that surrounded me. In the distance I could see the village that I barely passed through on the bus route, perched on the other side of the hill, a riverbed disappeared to my right, hidden by the dense vegetation, and the underlying garden, well cared for and full of plants.

      “I love gardening” the housekeeper went on, coming to my side.

      “I especially love roses. As you can see, I've picked a bouquet for you.”

      I turned, just then noticing the large vase on the dresser, overflowing with a bouquet of roses. I quickly covered the distance that separated me from it and stuck my nose within the petals. The perfume instantly dazed me, almost making me light-headed, causing me a slight dizziness.

      For the first time, in my twenty-two years of life, I felt at home. As if I had finally landed in a safe and welcoming harbour.

      “Do you like white roses, Miss? Maybe you would have preferred orange, or pink. Or maybe yellow...”

      I returned to earth, dragged by the devious question, even though that gentle woman uttered it innocently and unconsciously.

      “I like them all. I don’t have any preferences,” I murmured, closing my eyes.

      “I bet you like red ones. All women love red roses. But they seemed inadequate... I mean... They should only be given by a boyfriend... Are you engaged, Miss Bruno?”

      “No”. My voice was little more than a breath, with the tired tone of those who never gave a different answer.

      “How foolish of me. It’s obvious that you’re not. If you were, you wouldn’t be here, in this remote place, far away from your love. Here I doubt you’ll meet someone...”

      I reopened my eyes. “I’m not looking for a boyfriend.”

      Her expression cheered up. “Then you won’t be disappointed. It’s practically impossible to meet anyone here. Everyone is already engaged. They literally get engaged when they are toddlers, or later on, in kindergarten... You know how small rural communities are, closed to the new and the different.”

      And I was different. Irreparably different.

      “As I told you, that won’t be a problem for me,” I said in an unwavering tone.

      “Your hair is a gorgeous tone of red, Miss Bruno. Enviably so. Just like a respectable Scottish, although you aren’t.”

      I casually passed my fingers through my hair, smiling rigidly. I didn’t answer, for I was accustomed to that kind of comment.

      She started chattering and again my mind wandered off, full of bad memories, the slowest to disappear, the ones that wouldn’t fade and the quickest to be recalled. In order not to let the burning thoughts of my memories overflow, I interrupted her when she started to tell me another story.

      “What will my working hours be?”

      The woman nodded in approval, approving my dedication to work. “From nine in the morning to five in the evening, Miss. Obviously you’ll have a break for lunch. By the way, I inform you that Mr Mc Laine prefers to eat his meals in his room, in complete solitude. I'm afraid he won’t be a lot of company.” She grimaced and her tone was apologetic. “He's a very bitter man. You know... because of the tragedy... He’s like a lion in a cage, and believe me... when he roars, you’ll feel like giving everything up and leaving... As the three other secretaries before you did...“ Her eyes looked at me, as sharp as a magnifying glass. “You seem to have more common and practical sense than they did... I hope with all my heart that you’ll last longer...”

      “Despite my slim and fragile appearance, I’m gifted with endless patience, Mrs Mc Millian. I assure you that I’ll do my best,” I promised, with all the optimism I could muster.

      The woman gave me a big smile, conquered by the earnestness of my statement. I hoped I didn't count my chickens before they hatched.

      The woman moved towards the door, still smiling. “Mr Mc Laine will be waiting for you in his office in an hour, Miss Bruno. Don’t be afraid. Hold you ground, it’s the only way for him not to send you away at the first opportunity.”

      I blinked, overwhelmed by the initial agitation. “Does he like to upset the staff?”

      She became serious. “He's a tough man, but correct. Let's say he doesn’t appreciate chickens, and he eats them in a single bite. The problem is that many tigers turn into chickens in his presence...”

      She said goodbye to me with a smile and abandoned the room, ignoring the cyclone that was twirling in my head, generated by her final words.

      I went back to the window. The breeze had vanished, replaced by an unusual stuffy heat, more characteristic of the continent than of that country.

      I wearily brought my mind to a standby mode, freeing it of all evil thoughts. It was once again a white page, untouched, fresh, and free of any concern.

      With the fulminating certainty of a person who knows herself well, I knew that that peace was relative, as ephemeral as a footprint on the sand, ready to be erased by the tide when it retreats.

      Mrs Mc Millian’s welcome didn’t deceive me.

      She was just an employee, no more or less than I was. She was nice, actually very nice, come to think of it, she was on my side and had offered me a complicit alliance spontaneously, but I mustn’t forget that she wasn’t my employer. My stay in that house, so delightful and so different from any place I'd ever known, depended entirely on him. Or rather on the impression I would have made on him. Me. Just me. I knew too little about him to be able to relax. A lonely man, condemned to a worst prison than death, relegated to a life in the midst, a lonely writer with a bad personality... According to the subtle insinuations of my guide, he was a man who enjoyed making people feel uncomfortable, maybe he loved to vent his need for revenge on others, for he couldn’t take it out on his only enemy: fate, which was blind, blindfolded, and indifferent to the suffering it caused here and there; it was somewhat democratic.

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