Hopes and Fears or, scenes from the life of a spinster. Yonge Charlotte Mary

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СКАЧАТЬ when Phœbe came back, too much overcome with delight to do anything but communicate papa’s goodness, and rejoice in the unlimited power of making presents, Bertha triumphantly insisted on her confessing that it had been a capital thing that the nettles were in Juliana’s nosegay!

      Phœbe shook her head; too happy to scold, too humble to draw the moral that the surest way to gratification is to remove the thorns from the path of others.

      CHAPTER III

      She gives thee a garland woven fair,

      Take care!

      It is a fool’s-cap for thee to wear,

      Beware!  Beware!

      Trust her not,

      She is fooling thee!

—Longfellow, from Müller

      Behold Phœbe Fulmort seated in a train on the way to London.  She was a very pleasant spectacle to Miss Charlecote opposite to her, so peacefully joyous was her face, as she sat with the wind breathing in on her, in the calm luxury of contemplating the landscape gliding past the windows in all its summer charms, and the repose of having no one to hunt her into unvaried rationality.

      Her eye was the first to detect Robert in waiting at the terminus, but he looked more depressed than ever, and scarcely smiled as he handed them to the carriage.

      ‘Get in, Robert, you are coming home with us,’ said Honor.

      ‘You have so much to take, I should encumber you.’

      ‘No, the sundries go in cabs, with the maids.  Jump in.’

      ‘Do your friends arrive to-night?’

      ‘Yes; but that is no reason you should look so rueful!  Make the most of Phœbe beforehand.  Besides, Mr. Parsons is a Wykehamist.’

      Robert took his place on the back seat, but still as if he would have preferred walking home.  Neither his sister nor his friend dared to ask whether he had seen Lucilla.  Could she have refused him? or was her frivolity preying on his spirits?

      Phœbe tried to interest him by the account of the family migration, and of Miss Fennimore’s promise that Maria and Bertha should have two half-hours of real play in the garden on each day when the lessons had been properly done; and how she had been so kind as to let Maria leave off trying to read a French book that had proved too hard for her, not perceiving why this instance of good-nature was not cheering to her brother.

      Miss Charlecote’s house was a delightful marvel to Phœbe from the moment when she rattled into the paved court, entered upon the fragrant odour of the cedar hall, and saw the Queen of Sheba’s golden locks beaming with the evening light.  She entered the drawing-room, pleasant-looking already, under the judicious arrangement of the housekeeper, who had set out the Holt flowers and arranged the books, so that it seemed full of welcome.

      Phœbe ran from window to mantelpiece, enchanted with the quaint mixture of old and new, admiring carving and stained glass, and declaring that Owen had not prepared her for anything equal to this, until Miss Charlecote, going to arrange matters with her housekeeper, left the brother and sister together.

      ‘Well, Robin!’ said Phœbe, coming up to him anxiously.

      He only crossed his arms on the mantelpiece, rested his head on them, and sighed.

      ‘Have you seen her?’

      ‘Not to speak to her.’

      ‘Have you called?’

      ‘No.’

      ‘Then where did you see her?’

      ‘She was riding in the Park.  I was on foot.’

      ‘She could not have seen you!’ exclaimed Phœbe.

      ‘She did,’ replied Robert; ‘I was going to tell you.  She gave me one of her sweetest, brightest smiles, such as only she can give.  You know them, Phœbe.  No assumed welcome, but a sudden flash and sparkle of real gladness.’

      ‘But why—what do you mean?’ asked Phœbe; ‘why have you not been to her?  I thought from your manner that she had been neglecting you, but it seems to me all the other way.’

      ‘I cannot, Phœbe; I cannot put my poor pretensions forward in the set she is with.  I know they would influence her, and that her decision would not be calm and mature.’

      ‘Her decision of what you are to be?’

      ‘That is fixed,’ said Robert, sighing.

      ‘Indeed!  With papa.’

      ‘No, in my own mind.  I have seen enough of the business to find that I could in ten years quadruple my capital, and in the meantime maintain her in the manner she prefers.’

      ‘You are quite sure she prefers it?’

      ‘She has done so ever since she could exercise a choice.  I should feel myself doing her an injustice if I were to take advantage of any preference she may entertain for me to condemn her to what would be to her a dreary banishment.’

      ‘Not with you,’ cried Phœbe.

      ‘You know nothing about it, Phœbe.  You have never led such a life, and you it would not hurt—attract, I mean; but lovely, fascinating, formed for admiration, and craving for excitement as she is, she is a being that can only exist in society.  She would be miserable in homely retirement—I mean she would prey on herself.  I could not ask it of her.  If she consented, it would be without knowing her own tastes.  No; all that remains is to find out whether she can submit to owe her wealth to our business.’

      ‘And shall you?’

      ‘I could not but defer it till I should meet her here,’ said Robert.  ‘I shrink from seeing her with those cousins, or hearing her name with theirs.  Phœbe, imagine my feelings when, going into Mervyn’s club with him, I heard “Rashe Charteris and Cilly Sandbrook” contemptuously discussed by those very names, and jests passing on their independent ways.  I know how it is.  Those people work on her spirit of enterprise, and she—too guileless and innocent to heed appearances.  Phœbe, you do not wonder that I am nearly mad!’

      ‘Poor Robin!’ said Phœbe affectionately.  ‘But, indeed, I am sure, if Lucy once had a hint—no, one could not tell her, it would shock her too much; but if she had the least idea that people could be so impertinent,’ and Phœbe’s cheeks glowed with shame and indignation, ‘she would only wish to go away as far as she could for fear of seeing any of them again.  I am sure they were not gentlemen, Robin.’

      ‘A man must be supereminently a gentleman to respect a woman who does not make him do so,’ said Robert mournfully.  ‘That Miss Charteris!  Oh! that she were banished to Siberia!’

      Phœbe meditated a few moments; then looking up, said, ‘I beg your pardon, Robin, but it does strike me that, if you think that this kind of life is not good for Lucilla, it cannot be right to sacrifice your own higher prospects to enable her to continue it.’

      ‘I tell you, Phœbe,’ said he, with some impatience, ‘I never was pledged.  I may be of much more use and influence, and able to effect more extended good as a partner in a concern like this than as an obscure clergyman.  СКАЧАТЬ