Second Chances at the Log Fire Cabin: A Christmas holiday romance for 2018 from the ebook bestseller. Catherine Ferguson

Чтение книги онлайн.

СКАЧАТЬ about the Winter Ball on Saturday? You are still going with me?’

      I laugh incredulously.

      ‘You’ve got your dress and everything. You’re going to be the belle of the ball,’ he says, turning on the charm. ‘Please, Roxy?’

      Tears threaten to break through. I’d been so looking forward to attending the Winter Ball with Jackson. It was something he organised for his employees every year and, by all accounts, it was pretty magical. I absolutely adored the dress I’d bought …

      ‘Think about it,’ he says. ‘I really do care about you, Roxy.’

      My throat is too choked up to answer.

      So instead, I end the call.

      For the next two days, my phone stays resolutely turned off as I retreat to the safety of the sofa to lick my wounds.

      There’s a little pile of ‘essentials’ scattered on the floor below. Tissues. An array of used coffee mugs. Giant box of fake After Eights, kindly donated by Flo after a trip to her favourite everything-for-a-pound shop. Plus a self-help book (that’s no help whatsoever) called Moving On After Yet Another Disastrous Break-Up.

      The Christmas tree I decorated with Jackson stands there in all its garish glory, unapologetic and impossible to ignore – a constant sparkly reminder of happier times.

      At intervals, Flo – who’s now been fully briefed on what happened – creeps in quietly, as if there’s an unexploded bomb beneath the floorboards, and brings me messages from Jackson, who has resorted to calling on the house phone. The gist of them seems to be: Are you coming to the Winter Ball? Or should I find someone else to go with me because I’m definitely not pitching up alone. Can you call me back?

      Which is all very touching but something is stopping me from phoning him back. I suppose, deep down, I don’t think his gestures are grand enough. He must know how embarrassed and devastated I am after making such a plonker of myself at the show. And worse, having my proposal – however drunken it might have been – flatly turned down. If I’d turned Jackson down like that, I’d be jumping through hoops now to make things right. A few phone calls from him don’t really cut it.

      The whole thing has also made me realise that Jackson has never felt about me the way I feel about him …

      On the third day, I wake up feeling more positive.

      Turning on my mobile, I decide that this time, when Jackson phones, I’ll actually pick up.

      I’ve had lots of time to think, and with the benefit of hindsight, I’ve concluded that it was very foolish and unfair of me to put him on the spot like that, proposing marriage in front of millions of people. No wonder the poor man said no! He must have thought he’d hooked up with a woman who was more than slightly unhinged. Maybe he still thinks that. But it hasn’t stopped him phoning and trying to talk to me.

      I stay in the house by the phone. Apart from wanting to be there when it rings, to be honest I’m a bit worried about venturing out after my infamous appearance on Saturday night TV. The story of my humiliation seems to have gone a little bit viral. I’ve spotted a fair few stories online – with pictures – detailing my hideous rejection on live TV and I know I shouldn’t read them, but I can’t seem to help myself. What if people recognise me as that sad, drunk woman whose boyfriend rejected her?

      Much later, tired of waiting by a phone that never rings and needing some fresh air, I nip out for a walk around the block under cover of darkness. I feel certain there’ll be a message for me on the home phone when I get back. But there isn’t and my heart sinks. Perhaps Jackson’s out of the country on business – as he often is – in which case he might phone tonight from his hotel.

      By bedtime, there’s still been no word and I’m starting to feel needled. Surely he hasn’t given up on me already? I tell myself that if I hear nothing by lunchtime tomorrow, I’ll phone him. Relationships are a two-way thing, after all.

      The next afternoon, I take a deep breath and make the call. But to my surprise, after five rings, it goes straight to ‘message’. Jackson normally answers immediately in a very businesslike voice, since nine times out of ten it will be an important work call. I leave a message asking him to ring me.

      But then I decide I can’t sit around waiting for a call from him. That will only drive me nuts. I’ll nip out to the shops for milk and fresh supplies of chocolate. I haven’t been out properly for days and, with a bit of luck, the world will have forgotten all about my prime-time blunder on national TV.

      Yes, there were probably a good few sniggers when Jackson said, Er, no?

      But no one is going to actually recognise me from the telly. Not now …

      With new resolve, I head for the shower. Twenty minutes later, I get wrapped up in my coat and scarf, and leave the flat, emerging – after my self-imposed hibernation – with the vulnerability of a new-born lamb into the frosty December afternoon. It’s already growing dark, which is good.

       Far less chance of someone—

      ‘Oof.’ I collide with a couple walking past the gate and the man peers back at me.

      He nudges his partner. ‘Hey, it’s her!’ he says in a loud stage whisper. ‘That woman who proposed on TV.’

      ‘Is it?’ The woman turns. ‘Oh, yes! God, the poor soul. Do you think she’ll ever get over it?’

      ‘Nah. Scarred for life, I reckon.’

      And they walk on.

      I stand there, staring after them, feeling about as small as it’s possible to feel. Turning, I fish out my keys to retreat back inside.

      Then I stop.

      The Winter Ball is just a few days away and I’d pretty much decided to tell Jackson I’d go with him, after all. What if he’s been sitting at home, feeling as gloomy as I am, thinking it’s all over between us? Perhaps he was in a business meeting when I phoned and he hasn’t even listened to my message yet.

      I should give him another chance – leave him another message telling him I’m looking forward to wearing my new dress …

      The idea brings a little surge of relief at the thought that it might not, after all, be the end for Jackson and me.

      The Winter Ball would be the perfect opportunity to patch things up, smooth over the catastrophe of Saturday night and get back to the way things were.

      Standing there in the street I phone his number, preparing my little speech in my head. I’ll go for a bright and breezy tone, to let him know I’m back to my normal self and looking to the future …

      ‘Jackson’s phone,’ breathes someone in what sounds like a French accent. An alluring female voice.

      An icy hand grips my heart.

      A series of giggles on the other end of the phone turns into full-blown shrieks of delight.

      Then, abruptly, I’m cut off.

       СКАЧАТЬ