Crying for Help: The Shocking True Story of a Damaged Girl with a Dark Past. Casey Watson

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СКАЧАТЬ It was inappropriate and unprofessional, but the words just came out of me and both Mike and I laughed. But it was a release of tension more than anything, because this really wasn’t funny. We were all of us, I think, a little spooked. I pulled myself together. ‘Love, she’s just a child. A child with a lot of emotional problems. And emotional problems can manifest themselves in all sorts of ways.’

      ‘I know that,’ he said. ‘But she scares me, even so. Dad, can you put a lock on my door?’

      ‘Don’t worry, son,’ Mike reassured him. ‘We’ll get everything sorted. As Mum said, she’s just a kid. Nothing to be scared of. Okay?’

      ‘Exactly,’ I agreed. ‘Let’s not get over-dramatic, eh?’

      But even so, I was troubled. I was almost 100 per cent certain that Sophia had no idea she was saying those words out loud. And if that was the case … well, surely someone at social services knew more than they were telling us. I knew the info on her illness mentioned this ‘brain fog’ symptom, but even so it just didn’t stack up. I went to bed that night, deep in thought, determined to get to the bottom of it. And it seemed I wasn’t the only one unable to put it out of their minds. After an hour of fitful tossing and turning, Mike nudged me.

      ‘You awake, love?’ he said.

      I grimaced. ‘What do you think?’

      I rolled over to find him staring at the ceiling. ‘You know, love,’ he said. ‘I think that kid has really got to Kieron. I know we all made light of it, but did you see him when we were watching TV earlier?’ He turned to face me. ‘He was chewing all the skin off his fingers.’

      I had noticed, even though I hadn’t said anything. And Mike was right. It was a sign. Kieron hated change and found stress and upheavals hard to deal with. The way he was, if someone so much as moved any of his carefully catalogued DVDs, he could get anxious and upset. We all knew that, of course, because it had been like that all his life, so as a family we just worked around it. Kieron had never been the sort of boy for whom you’d arrange a surprise party. He needed routine and order and no surprises. He’d managed so well to adjust to and become close to Justin, but Sophia was a very different prospect. And him chewing his fingers was a sure indication that he was even more stressed by her being with us than he was letting on.

      I wasn’t worried about the chewing itself – our doctor had told us it was quite common in people with Asperger’s – but I was definitely worried about the welfare of my son. Our decision to foster could only work long term if it didn’t adversely affect our own kids, after all.

      ‘I know,’ I said to Mike. ‘I did notice it. Let’s hope it’s something that will settle once she’s been to see her mum. Maybe it’s the thought of it; maybe it flips some mental switch … We’ll have to keep our fingers crossed, won’t we? But I’m definitely going to go into Sherlock Holmes mode in the morning. And if I find out they’re holding stuff back …’

      ‘You mean Monday,’ Mike said. ‘We’ve got the whole of the bloody weekend to get through yet …’

      To our great relief, however, Saturday started well and carried on without any incidents. In fact, better than well, even, as Riley came over, and made a sustained effort to get to know Sophia better, regaling her with tales of her new school – both Riley and Kieron had been pupils there – and a lowdown on the best and worst teachers. Kieron had already called Riley to fill her in on the dinner-table mutterings, so she obviously knew which topics to avoid.

      After a light lunch the three of us headed off to town and, as it was snowing again, we left Levi in the care of Mike and Kieron. Kieron usually played football on a Saturday afternoon, and Mike took him, but with the match having been cancelled because of the weather they were just as happy watching it on TV instead. Plus, Mike pointed out, he had to get his grandson into football nice and early. But perhaps I should have realised the calm and order wouldn’t last. Sophia had been with us just four days now – even if it felt so much longer – and every one of them had involved some sort of drama.

      When we returned, laden down with Sophia’s school uniform and stationery, it was to find my evening had been hijacked by the boys’ continuing football plans. After dinner – I’d made a hearty stew and dumplings, which were devoured in no time – Kieron explained that it was pretty much a life-and-death situation that they be allowed to see the Liverpool match highlights, having not been able to see two games at once earlier.

      ‘But supposing I’ve got something I want to watch?’ I argued. ‘Last time I checked, it was me who’s been on the go all afternoon, not to mention whipping up your cordon bleu dinner …’

      Mike laughed. ‘I did point that out to him, love, honest. Only fair. And this dinner is incredible, by the way. Best stew in the universe.’ He winked at Kieron.

      ‘Oh, go on then,’ I said. ‘I can see I’m outnumbered. I have stacks of ironing to wade through, in any case. Well, unless – Sophia, is there anything you’d like to see on telly? That would take it to stalemate.’ I grinned at Mike.

      She shook her head. She’d just finished wiping her plate clean with a last slice of bread. If I could do one thing right for her, I thought, it would be to feed her. ‘No, I’m fine,’ she said brightly. ‘Got to sort out all my new school stuff. And I’ve got a DVD I want to watch anyway. Not that I don’t like football,’ she added, looking coyly at Kieron. ‘All those men running around in shorts and stuff.’

      I tutted as I stood up and started to clear the table. ‘You’re much too young to be thinking about men in shorts, madam! Now, come and give me a hand with the dishes before you disappear.’

      ‘We’ll do them, Mum,’ Kieron offered. ‘Only fair, after all …’

      But I said no. Getting to know a child, I’d always found, invariably seemed to happen most naturally in those little pockets of opportunity when you were doing something else. I headed off with Sophia into the kitchen.

      ‘Do you look like your mum?’ I asked her, once we’d got the washing up under way. She’d been talking about some of the things they used to like on TV when she was younger, so this seemed a good time to delve deeper.

      ‘I suppose so,’ she said, shrugging. ‘A bit. We’ve both got blonde hair and blue eyes, but I’m taller. Actually, people often used to think we were sisters.’

      I passed her a plate to dry up. ‘Bet your mum loved that,’ I said. ‘I always do when people mistake me and Riley for sisters.’

      ‘Though I’m prettier than she is. And I don’t think we do.’ She continued to wipe the plate for a few moments. ‘But she still had more boyfriends.’

      This brought me up short. What an odd thing for a 12-year-old to say. ‘But you’re only young, love,’ I said. ‘Bit early for boyfriends, isn’t it? Plenty of time for them as you grow up.’

      She turned to face me, looking deadly serious. ‘But I am grown up. I have boobs and everything, don’t I?’ I certainly couldn’t argue with that. She was incredibly well developed for her age. Physically, at any rate. I smiled at her.

      ‘Thing is, love, it’s not just about your body developing,’ I said gently. ‘Just because you develop physically, doesn’t mean your mind and emotions keep pace. Sometimes it’s hard when you look older than you are –’ She seemed to like hearing that, I noticed. ‘– because people expect you to be more mature than you can be … or even should be. As СКАЧАТЬ