The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 10, No. 58, August, 1862. Various

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СКАЧАТЬ style="font-size:15px;">      "What were they, Sophie?"

      "'But hope will not die; it has a root of life that goes down into the granite formation; human hand cannot reach it.'"

      "Who said it?" I asked.

      "That is the mystery, Anna. The words were plainly spoken; the voice was that of one who has sailed out into the region of great storms, and found that heavy calms are more oppressive."

      "Was it voice of man?"

      "Yes, deep and earnest."

      "Where did it come from?"

      "From the high window up there, I thought."

      "And there were no footsteps near?"

      "I told you, none; my own were the first that had crossed the church-yard that day."

      "You know, Sophie, we voice our own thoughts sometimes all unknowingly; and knowing the thought only, we might dissever the voice, and call it another's."

      Sophie looked up from the table upon which she had been so industriously cutting, and holding in one hand an oddly shapen sleeve, she gave a demonstrative wave at me, and said,–

      "Anna, your distinctions are too absurd for reason to examine even. Have I a voice that could command an army, or shout out orders in a storm at sea? Have I the voice of a man?"

      Sophie had a depth of azure in her eyes that looked ocean-deep into an interior soul; she had softly purplish windings of hair around a low, cool brow, that said, "There are no torrid thoughts in me." And yet I always felt that there was an equator in Sophie's soul, only no mortal could find it. Looking at her, as thus she stood, I forgot that she Lad questioned me.

      "Why do you look at me so?" she asked. "Answer me! Have I the voice of a man? Listen now! Hear Aaron up-stairs: he's preaching to himself, to convince himself that some thorn in theology grows naturally: could I do that?"

      "Your voice, I fancy, can do wonders: but about the theology, I don't believe you like thorns in it; I think you would break one off at once, and cast it out";–and I looked again at the rough tower, and ran my fingers over the strong protective key in my hands.

      "Don't look that way, Anna,–please don't!–for your footsteps have an ugly way of following some will-o'-the-wisp that goes out of your eyes. I know it,–I've seen it all your life," Sophie urged, as I shook my head in negation.

      "Will you lend me this hood?" I asked, as I took up one lying near.

      "If you are determined to go; but do wait. Aaron shall go with you after dinner; he will have settled the thorn by that time."

      "What for should I take Aaron up the winding stairs? There is no parishioner in want or dying up there."

      And I tied the hood about my head, and in a wrapping-shawl, closely drawn,–for cold and cannon-like came the bursts of wind down through the mountain valleys,–I went out. Through the path, hedged with leafless lilac-shrubs, just athrob with the mist of life sent up from the roots below, I went, and crossed the church-yard fence. Winding in and out among the graves,–for upon a heart, living and joyous, or still and dead, I cannot step,–I took my way. "Dear old tower, I have thee at last!" I said; for I talk to unanswering things all over the world. In crowded streets I speak, and murmur softly to highest heights.

      But I quite forgot to tell what my tower was built like, and of what it was made. A few miles away, a mountain, neither very large nor very high, has met with some sad disaster that cleaved its stony shell, and so, time out of memory, the years have stolen into its being, and winter frosts have sadly cut it up, and all along its rocky ridges, and thickly at its base, lie beds of shaly fragments, as various in form and size as the autumn-leaves that November brings.

      I've traced these bits of broken stone all the way from yonder mountain hither; and that once my tower stood firm and fast in the hill's heart, I know.

      There are sides and curves, concaves and convexities, and angles of every degree, in the stones that make up my tower. The vexing question is, What conglomerated the mass?

      No known form of cement is here, and so the simple village-people say, "It was not built by the present race of men."

      On the northern side of the tower leaves of ungathered snow still lay.

      In the key-hole all winter must have been dead, crispy, last-year leaves, mingled with needles of the pine-tree that stands in the church-yard corner; for I drew out fragment after fragment, before I could find room for my key. At last the opening was free, and my precious bit of old iron had given intimation of doing duty and letting me in, when a touch upon my shoulder startled me.

      'T was true the wind was as rude as possible, but I knew it never could grasp me in that way. It was Aaron.

      "What is the matter?" I asked; for he had come without his hat.

      My brother-in-law, rejoicing in the authoritative name of Aaron, looked decidedly foolish, as I turned my clear brown eyes upon him, standing flushed and anxious, with only March wind enveloping his hair all astir with breezes of Theology and Nature.

      "Sophie sent me," he said, with all the meekness belonging to a former family that had an Aaron in it.

      "What does Sophie wish?" I asked.

      "She says it's dinner-time."

      "And did she send you out in such a hurry to tell me that?"

      "No, Anna,"–and the importance of his mission grew upon him, for he spoke quite firmly,–"Sophie is troubled and anxious about your visit to this tower; please turn the key and come away."

      "I will, if you give me good reason," I said.

      "Why do you wish to go up, just now?"

      "Simply because I like it."

      "To gratify a passing fancy?"

      "Nothing more, I do assure you; but why shouldn't I?"–and I grasped the key with a small attempt at firmness of purpose.

      "Because Sophie dislikes it. She called to me to come and keep you from going in; there was distress in her manner. Won't you come away, for now?"

      He had given me a reason. I rejoice in being reasonable. I lent him a bit of knitting-work that I happened to have brought with me, with which he kept down his locks, else astray, and walked back with him.

      "You are not offended?" he asked, as we drew near to the door.

      "Oh, no!"

      Sophie hid something that had been very close to her eyes, as we went in.

      My brother-in-law gave me back my strip of knitting-work, and went upstairs.

      "You think I'm selfish, Anna," spoke Sophie, when he was gone.

      "I don't."

      "You can't help it, I think."

      "But I can. I recognize a law of equilibrium that forbids me to think so."

      "How? What is the law like?"

      "Did you ever go upon the top of a great height, whether of building or earth?"

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