What Happens in Paris. Nancy Thompson Robards

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СКАЧАТЬ was more often than we had sex. Every once in a while Blake would get on my case about not using it and threaten to cancel the lease, which would force me to drag myself in there to create. So, coming here today, I decided that until I discovered my own style, I would paint flowers of all shapes and sizes, in the tradition of Georgia O’Keeffe; fragile Lady’s Slipper orchids; big fat roses; vibrant sunflowers.

      I set a large canvas on the easel and positioned the maroon orchid on a paper towel.

      This would be therapeutic. I could mix the paint to any shade I desired; place it anywhere on the canvas I wanted. I could wash it on in thin, translucent wisps or glob it on in thick, heavy layers.

      I set out the new tubes of oil paint I’d purchased, and one by one squeezed a dab of each on my old crusty palette.

      If I wanted to paint roses blue, I could. If I wanted to render sunflowers purple—no problem. I might even paint this pretty orchid black to match my mood.

      It was my choice.

      Paint complied. It would stay true to whatever image I created. It wouldn’t start out as one thing and transform itself into something totally foreign.

      Unless I wanted it to.

      I picked up the paintbrush, regarded the blank canvas and made a split-second decision not to paint the orchid. Nope. On my canvas, I would honor the traditional. I touched my brush to the glob of alizarin crimson.

      Roses are red.

      Violets are blue.

      My husband is gay.

      Shit.

      Who knew?

      The brush fell from my hand, pinged and clattered on the rough concrete floor. I pressed my shaking fingers to my temples.

      Who knew?

      Everyone in the world but me?

      The small room started spinning, and I edged backward until my butt hit the wall. My knees gave way and I slid down until I half crouched, half sat.

      I had no idea what came over me, but suddenly I knew exactly what to do to that canvas.

      By the time Rita knocked on my studio door at seven o’clock that evening, I’d painted three canvases. Two florals and what you might call a Picasso-inspired portrait of Blake, though I’ve never been much of a Picasso fan. Rita likes him, but I’ve always thought of him as a creepy misogynist.

      Appropriate inspiration for Blake’s portrait.

      I painted him with two heads (one male, one female), Medusa-like orchid blooms for hair and a spear driven through his chest. I’d used washes of blues and blacks with a spattering of bloodred applied with a palette knife for emphasis.

      “This one’s a little scary.” My sister held up the canvas of Blake. “If he turns up dead, you’d better destroy this or they’ll have all the evidence they need to hang you for the crime.”

      I shrugged, not in a jovial mood.

      “What’s Fred doing tonight?” I wiped excess paint off my brush with a paper towel, then walked to the sink to wash the residual from the bristles.

      Rita and Fred had such a good marriage, after twenty-five years they were even starting to look like each other. Sometimes—especially after the hell I’d just been through—I wondered if my sister hadn’t snagged the last decent man alive.

      “He’s at the all-night driving range, getting his golf fix. Where did those come from?” She pointed at the vase of orchid blossoms.

      “From Blake’s greenhouse.”

      Her blue eyes flew open wide. “Oh. My. God. If you leave right now, you might be able to outrun him. Let me rephrase what I said earlier. He’s going to be the one hung for murder because he’s going to kill you when he sees what you’ve done.”

      I smoothed the bristles back into shape and put the brushes in a jar to dry. “I know. I feel kind of bad about it. I didn’t realize how pretty they were. Do you think he’ll notice if I superglue them back on?”

      Rita burst out laughing. “He’s going to flip.”

      She walked over and picked up a painting of a huge sunflower I’d leaned against the wall. “This is nice. Sort of Van Gogh–esque.” She set it down and stepped back to view it, tilting her head from one side to the other.

      “I wasn’t really going for nice when I painted it.”

      My sister ignored me. “May I take it with me to show a client who lives in Bay Hill? The colors are perfect for her family room.”

      Rita was an interior designer and some of the houses she decorated cost more than I hoped to make in a lifetime.

      “You know,” she said, “we really should make some slides of your work. I could probably sell them for you. I don’t know why I didn’t think of this sooner. Are you coming here after work tomorrow?”

      “I’m not working tomorrow.” I picked up one of the brushes I’d just cleaned, dipped it in paint and drew a thick sienna line about a third of the way down the canvas.

      “You’re not?”

      I shook my head. “I’m taking two weeks’ vacation. I called human resources this afternoon and squared away my leave. They didn’t even ask if I’d cleared it with my boss, Jackie.”

      I stole a glance at my sister, who’d crossed her thin arms over her tiny middle. She nodded.

      “It’s probably a good idea for you to take some time off. If you have the time, you should use it. What are you going to do? Do you want to go away somewhere?”

      I shook my head and wiped my hands on a rag. “Nope. I’m going to paint.”

      Rita’s eyes widened. “That’s great. That’s exactly what you should do.”

      What she didn’t say was, It will be good for you to pour all your anguish into something creative.

      “Plus, it will give us plenty of time to photograph your work. So, can I take the sunflower with me, Van Gogh?”

      “Sure.”

      I watched my sister walk over and carefully pick up the painting and study it again.

      Was it this kind of anguish that caused Van Gogh to cut off his ear?

      What would Blake do if I sent him my bloodied ear all wrapped up nice and neat in a pretty little package? I could put an orchid on top of the box.

      Nah. He wasn’t worth it.

      “Is the paint still wet?” Rita asked.

      “Nope. That’s the beauty of acrylics.”

      I tried not to get my hopes up, but I thought if I sold a few paintings, it would help offset the cost of the studio. I wouldn’t be able СКАЧАТЬ