Fox River. Emilie Richards

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      “Because Peter’s been his champion. I’m sure he’ll offer Christian a job at Claymore Park.”

      “Peter has contacts all over the horse world. He can help Christian find a job far away from the scene of the crime. Christian’s been gone nine years. Will this still seem like home? When nearly all of Ridge’s Race and beyond was sure he murdered Fidelity?”

      “I think when you’ve lost everything and you’re given a chance to find some part of it again, that’s what you do.”

      Jake seemed to consider that. “You’re a wise woman, Maisy.”

      “Do you think so?”

      “I think you let it slip out now and then, when you don’t think anyone’s listening.”

      She frowned. “How do you put up with me?”

      “Very easily.”

      “Sometimes lately I’m not so sure.”

      He didn’t ask what she meant. “Time moves on and people change. Their lives change with it. Christian’s life is changing again. Julia’s life is changing, and she’ll have to face it, whether she feels ready or not. Our lives are changing, too.”

      “How are they changing, Jake?”

      “We’re growing older. There’s less time to say the things we need to.”

      “What things?”

      “A lifetime of things that’ve gone unsaid.”

      She was sure he was being purposely obtuse. “Do you have things you need to say?”

      He smiled a little. “I’m working my way toward them, I suppose. How about you?”

      She thought of a thousand things she’d wanted to tell him or Julia and never had. She, who chattered continuously.

      Instead she asked a question. “Jake, do you still love me?”

      “Yes, I do.”

      She felt vulnerable, an unexpected and unwelcome sensation. “You’ve been critical lately.”

      “Have I?”

      “You seem impatient with me and with the things I say.”

      “I guess it goes back to time moving too fast. I don’t think you’re saying the things you need to.”

      “This isn’t making any sense.”

      “I don’t know how to make sense of it. I feel like our life together’s been about peeling off layers. I wonder sometimes if we’ll ever succeed.”

      “I feel like I know you.”

      “As well as you let yourself know anyone.”

      “That would be a good example of the word ‘critical’.”

      He shook his head. “That would be a good example of the word ‘honesty’. Maybe there’s too little of it in our marriage. Maybe that’s what I’m feeling impatient about.”

      She felt they’d covered ground and gotten nowhere. She missed the man she’d married, the man who had accepted her unequivocally.

      He gripped her shoulders. “Don’t look at me that way. You haven’t lost me. I don’t love you any less. Maybe I’d just like more of you.”

      “How much more of me could anyone stand?” She patted her round belly. “How much more could there be?”

      “I think we’d better check on things inside. If Callie needs something, Julia’s in no shape to get it for her. Not tonight of all nights.”

      She realized he was putting her off, but she was relieved. She’d had enough to face that day. “You know, Jake, if you want more of me, that could be arranged tonight.”

      “Could it?”

      “We’ve been slowing down a bit lately. Maybe we should pick up the pace?”

      He put his arm around her and squeezed. But when they were finally in bed, holding each other tight, she still felt the distance between them.

      11

      Nine years had passed since Karl Zandoff buried Fidelity Sutherland’s jewelry between fenceposts, between properties, between Christian’s hope of exoneration and the reality of his imprisonment. At ten-thirty on Thursday morning, as autumn leaves began their annual spiral and one of the two digging crews stopped to raid a jug of steaming coffee, Pinky Stewart, shovel-wielding sheriff’s deputy, struck a metal tin that had once held Reducine ointment.

      Six hours later, and only because Peter Claymore had the political influence he did, Christian Carver walked out of Ludwell State Prison.

      Mel Powers’s forehead glistened, but not nearly as brightly as his eyes. He was an emotional man—an asset he played to the hilt in a courtroom—but never so emotional that he couldn’t calculate his way to the next appeal. Since arriving at Ludwell that morning, he had routinely alternated tears of victory with a shit-eating grin.

      Christian hadn’t smiled or cried. He felt like a deer caught in headlights, unsure whether to stand or run, and unable to think quickly enough to make a decision. Years ago he had given up the dream of freedom, then reclaimed it with Zandoff’s confession. Now that the dream had come true, he could think no further ahead.

      He hadn’t even had time to say goodbye to the men he had worked with, or to Landis or Timbo, who had depended on him for instruction and advice. One moment he was wearing his prison work shirt, the next he was in a suit bought for the occasion by Peter Claymore. He’d been handcuffed and transported in a prison van to the same courtroom where he had lost his freedom.

      And he had found it again.

      Standing at the top of the courthouse steps, he was dismayed at the sun beating down on his bare head. He’d been outside almost every day since his imprisonment, but the air and sun felt different here, as if he had entered an entirely new universe. For a moment he was filled with panic, afraid to breathe for fear his lungs would fill with poison, afraid to move for fear the sun, unadulterated by the shadows of prison walls and razor wire, might melt his skin.

      He had refused to give a statement, but news crews were there anyway. The equipment aimed in his direction was an entirely new generation of technology than what he remembered. He felt a stronger stab of panic.

      Peter edged Christian down the steps. “Son, you’re out for good. They aren’t going to find anything that will put you back behind bars. Now, let’s make a run for my car.”

      Christian grimaced and wished he could strip off the tie. “Let’s get it over with.”

      He was safely inside Peter’s Lincoln before anyone spoke again. He was aware of leather seats against his palms, the purr of a perfectly tuned engine. He realized he was exhausted, sick with it, as if some unseen СКАЧАТЬ