The Forgotten Girl. Kerry Barrett

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      ‘For the drink,’ she muttered. Then she picked up her bag and left.

      I’d not seen her since then. I was put on gardening leave as soon as I handed in my notice, so I’d not gone back to Happy. Jen hadn’t replied to my emails and she cancelled all my calls. I knew she was acting as editor while the bosses at Happy found someone new to fill my role and I hoped she was doing well. She’d make a great editor and I knew she’d been bored to tears before – it was one of the reasons she’d been so keen to launch The Hive.

      Although, I thought now, tapping my nails on the front cover of the first ever Mode, it might be good if she was bored.

      Without stopping to think, I scrolled through my phone to her number and hit call. It rang a couple of times, then went straight to voicemail as I’d thought it would.

      ‘Jen, it’s me,’ I said. ‘Sweetheart, I’m sorry about everything. I’ve got lots to say to you but for now, let me just say this…’

      I paused.

      ‘Do you want a job?’

      I ended the call and sat back. As I’d hoped, my phone rang almost straight away.

      ‘What sort of job?’ Jen said.

Chapter 8

      ‘I’m not staying,’ Jen said, sliding into the seat opposite me. She looked tired and her hair was scraped back into a tiny bun.

      I nodded. I knew this wasn’t going to be easy.

      ‘Drink?’

      Jen shook her head.

      ‘I’m not staying,’ she said again. I poured myself a glass of wine, took a huge mouthful and grimaced at the acidic taste. We were in an old-fashioned pub down a side street near my office – I’d wanted to be sure no one from work would see me meeting Jen and as the only other customer was an older man in a creased grey suit with beer stains on the sleeves, I was fairly sure no one would.

      ‘Just say what you’ve got to say,’ Jen said. She fixed me with her unflinching gaze and I wilted a bit.

      ‘Firstly,’ I said, taking another swig of horrible wine. ‘I want to apologise. I should have told you about the offer from Mode as soon as they rang me. I was stupid and inconsiderate.’

      ‘And selfish,’ Jen said.

      ‘That too.’

      There was a pause. Jen carried on staring at me.

      ‘I still want to launch The Hive,’ I said. ‘And I think this job is going to help with contacts and giving us an edge when we approach writers and financial backers.’

      Jen shrugged.

      ‘Perhaps,’ she said.

      I took a breath.

      ‘Being editor of Mode is my dream job,’ I said. ‘When I was a teenager, it was what I dreamed of. I couldn’t turn it down, Jen. I couldn’t.’

      Jen looked at me for a moment longer.

      ‘I know,’ she said. ‘I know. I get it. I was just so hurt.’

      ‘I’m sorry.’

      ‘It’s what you do, Fearne,’ Jen said, a bitter edge to her voice. ‘It’s what you do. You pretend you need people, that you’re there for people, but when push comes to shove, all you really care about is your career.’

      ‘That’s not true,’ I said, even though it was a bit. ‘I care about you. I do. We’re a team, Jen, in work and out.’

      A tiny, humourless smile worked its way onto Jen’s lips.

      ‘You’re never not working,’ she said.

      ‘I’m sorry,’ I said again. ‘I’m sorry I ran out on you and our plans.’

      Jen sighed.

      ‘All that work we’d put in…’

      ‘It still counts,’ I said. ‘We can still do it. In a year or so, maybe.’

      I gulped the wine again. It was beginning to taste a bit nicer.

      ‘But for now I want to save Mode,’ I said. ‘And I want you to help me.’

      Jen blinked at me.

      ‘Save it?’

      I nodded.

      ‘You know I said it was my dream job?’

      Jen picked up the wine bottle and poured some into her empty glass. I was pleased. Maybe she was staying after all.

      ‘Yes.’

      ‘Well it’s actually more of a nightmare.’

      Jen had been perched on her chair, looking as though she might flee at any moment. Now she shrugged off her jacket and sat back. I almost wept with relief.

      ‘Spill,’ she said.

      So I told her all about Mode and how it was haemorrhaging sales to Grace. How I had barely any staff, a shoestring budget and a defiant features editor. How I was trying to theme the issues and give ourselves an edge.

      ‘So we’re kind of forcing this issue into Back to Basics,’ I explained. ‘Next we’re doing body confidence, and then I’m thinking about feminism or something like that.’

      ‘Sounds pretty meh,’ Jen said. ‘It’s hardly groundbreaking.’

      I stared at her.

      ‘That’s exactly my worry,’ I said with relief – she was already beginning to engage with the project I pulled my notes out of my bag and thrust them at her. ‘Look, this is what I’m planning. It’s all okay but I’m not sure it’s going to be enough.’

      She smiled for the first time since she’d sat down.

      ‘You need something big,’ she said. She picked up the notes and leafed through them – I could almost see her brain working, churning out ideas as she read, and my stomach squirmed in excitement.

      ‘Jen,’ I said. ‘Come and work with me.’

      She looked at me over the top of my scribbles.

      ‘What?’

      ‘I need a deputy. And I need someone who’ll tell me the truth, tell me when my ideas are hopeless and when they’re working. I need you.’

      Jen lowered the notes slowly.

      ‘Thought you had no budget,’ she said.

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