The Dangerous Love of a Rogue. Jane Lark

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СКАЧАТЬ a private dinner. Her younger brothers and sisters were all in bed. Her mother came upstairs with Mary, helped her undress and then tucked her in to bed, even though Mary had not wished her to.

      “May I fetch you anything? Something for the headache?”

      “No, Mama, thank you, I just need to sleep.”

      Her mother smothered the candle then pressed a kiss to Mary’s forehead.

      “I am not a child, Mama,” Mary whispered into the dark, although she longed to be held and for the turmoil inside her to ease.

      Her mother sighed. “I know you are now nineteen. But you are still my daughter and you always will be, no matter your age.”

      Her mother’s fingers touched Mary’s hair. “Goodnight, sweetheart.”

      Mary rolled to her other side, feeling guiltier than ever, and wept.

      She’d done nothing wrong, not really, not yet, it had only been kisses that she had allowed, but she had a dreadful feeling she would. She could not quell this longing for a man she should not want.

      * * *

      For the third night after she had kissed Lord Framlington for a second time, Mary looked for him with no success. Her heart ached. She longed to see him. She missed the rogue, with his little knowing nods in her direction, and his charming smiles.

      He had asked her to meet him but then disappeared and made that an impossibility. While his kisses continued haunting her…

      She wished for wickedness. She wished for kisses and embraces.

      “Miss Marlow. Damn it, you stood on my foot.” Mr Makepeace was a wealthy landowner, but he was double her age and as dull as working on embroidery. He was boring, and he was rude. She may have missed a step, because she had been daydreaming, about Lord Framlington, but it was ungentlemanly to curse at her for it.

      “Forgive me.” The heat of a blush touched her cheeks as people along the line of dancers looked over at them. Oh, she longed for a dance she had shared with a man a year ago, she had barely heard the notes of it; her thoughts had been too absorbed by the colour of his eyes.

      They were hazel; a light shade of cluttered brown, but when the light caught his eyes it turned the colour to honey, a soft amber or gold. It had literally gilded his eyes.

      The men she danced with were young and weak in nature, and silly compared to him, or too old for her, like Mr Makepeace, and dull, or in between but so busy seeking to portray a fashionable ennui that they had no personality at all.

      The dance came to its conclusion, thank the Lord.

      Breathing hard Mr Makepeace walked her back to her parents. She smiled at her mother. Then turned to Mr Makepeace. “Thank you.” He nodded in return then walked away.

      Good riddance…

      She looked about the room for Lord Framlington, he still was not here. She was becoming angry with him now. Why? Where was he?

      She huffed out an unladylike breath. “Mama, I wish to go to the retiring room.”

      “I will come with you.”

      “That is not necessary, the hall is busy; I will not be alone.”

      “Very well.”

      Mary turned away and then pressed a path through the crush of people out into the hall and then across to the withdrawing room. She had foolishly hoped to discover Lord Framlington hiding somewhere. He had not been hiding anywhere.

      The rogue had known how she would feel, how she felt… You feel. You want, but you know I cannot come to you in a place like this, so if you want what I can give you, you will have to come to me… But how could she come to him if he was nowhere to be found!

      She hated him.

      He was playing with her.

      She loved him too, though. No one she spoke to or danced with compared to him, they were all a mile beneath him.

      He was beautiful, witty, charming… and poor… A fortune-hunter, and a rake.

      Her heart thumped as she hurried back to the ballroom still looking for him. He was not there. She did not return to her mother, she sought her friends. Someone to talk to. Though she had not spoken to them of Lord Framlington, they would think her mad. Everyone would think her mad. She could not even explain to herself why she liked him so much. But she did.

      Her heart pounded harder even at the thought of him.

      “Mary!”

      “Emily,” Miss Smithfield was one of Mary’s more recent, less confident, friends. She had looked lost one evening, sitting out a dance against the wall, and so Mary had befriended her.

      “Mary. You poor soul, I saw you had to dance with Mr Makepeace.” Lady Bethany Pope kissed the air beside Mary’s cheek.

      Mary made a face. Bethany and Emily laughed.

      “Hasn’t he asked you to dance every night this week?”

      “Good heavens, yes, but hopefully never again, I stood on his foot.”

      “Deliberately…”

      “Perhaps.” They all laughed but Mary heard the hollowness in hers. Her life no longer interested her. She was bored. She missed the sense of danger hovering across the ballroom when Lord Framlington watched her. He made her feel different from everyone else, special. Every other man she danced with, danced with a dozen other women, she was no exception to any of them, and yet she had never seen Lord Framlington dance with anyone since he’d danced with her. Nor did he stare at anyone but her…

      Although he had talked to that blonde woman the other day…

      She sighed.

      Had she lost him, by not conceding? Had he given up on her?

      “Miss Marlow.” Mr Gerard Heathcote bowed before her. “May I have the honour of this dance?”

      She wished to scream. No! She had danced with him ten dozen times, he was nice, polite… Boring.

      Oh, her father had never spanked her, but he would wish he had done if he knew how wrong-headed she had become.

      She dropped a shallow curtsy and then gave Gerard her hand. “Of course.” In reality she wished to run from the ballroom and out into the dark garden. It was raining outside, she quite fancied a thorough soaking. Perhaps it would bring her to her senses.

      On the twelfth night after her second kiss with Lord Framlington, when she returned home with her parents, she stopped at her bedchamber door, and refused to let her mother in. “Please, Mama, I can retire alone. You cannot treat me as a child forever.”

      “Yet—“

      “I know it is only out of love, but I wish to retire alone, Mama.”

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