Secrets and Lies. Jaishree Misra

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СКАЧАТЬ right,’ Zeba agreed. ‘Yes, I’ll stay in touch too. You’d better go and sort Heer out now. Call me when you can. And try not to think about this if possible, Sam. We’ve all got our lives to live.’

      MUMBAI, 2008

      The following morning, Zeba managed to drag herself out of bed and get to work on time, despite having caught only five hours of sleep. Getting out of her car, she straightened her back and walked into the studio, knowing she was already getting full marks from the assembled crew for not making them hang about all morning like some of the other stars did. There were some things about her father’s strict upbringing that she did have to be grateful for.

      She looked around the Filmistan sets in amazement. This was good even for Shiv Mirchandani, whose hand was clear in the attention to detail. The fake marketplace had everything: the ration shop, the post office, the vegetable vendor with his trolley full of shiny aubergines and damp bunches of spinach. Zeba suddenly realised that she had not actually seen the inside of a real market for years, merely expecting the fridges and fruit bowls in her Juhu house to be well-stocked at all times. She’d even forgotten who in her domestic retinue had been delegated to oversee all that! But, from her childhood memories of accompanying Ammi to INA market every Sunday, the set designer had got this exactly right.

      What a pity that it had all been put together only to be blown apart. Today’s shoot was the bomb-blast scene, which she wasn’t looking forward to at all. The mess and noise, the acrid smoke and smells—horrible. Then she’d have to be rushed to make-up for them to put the grime and blood on her face and clothes for the rescue scene. Zeba stopped short, remembering that her co-star on this film was Neel Biswas, a man with the most horrendous bad breath. She shuddered, imagining submitting to halitosis fumes as she lay in a swoon ready to be gathered up in her distraught lover’s arms.

      Zeba sensed someone sitting down gingerly on the seat next to her and turned to see a grinning young girl—probably one of the extras. She felt her hackles rise. She really did not want to be bothered with useless chit-chat when she was sleep-deprived and trying to gather her thoughts for her scene. She had learned method acting the hard way, living as she did in a world where no one else even knew what the term meant. Perhaps she should cock an eyebrow at her maid or assistant to signal to them that they ought to be keeping fans at bay. There was a time and a place for adulation. But Zeba could spot nobody familiar in her immediate vicinity and reluctantly turned back. She’d be cool and distant—Zeba knew from experience that would send the girl scurrying off. No harm in being polite, though—you never knew when the press would descend in disguise, and those Starworld journalists were always looking to find something on her that would bring all her hard-won success crashing down.

      ‘Yes?’ she said with a plastic smile that she knew was not quite reaching her eyes.

      ‘Madam Zebaji, I am your biggest fan,’ the girl breathed.

      Zeba nodded. She couldn’t help softening at the sound of those words, but she’d heard them so often that they had long ceased to really thrill. ‘Hmm, how nice to know that,’ she said, trying to sound pleasant but with scant success.

      ‘Madam, if you don’t mind…I am writing a book about our Bollywood industry and want to ask you…’

      Zeba had been offered that excuse so many times that it wearied her. Did these people really think that writing books about the film world was easy? How silly they were to imagine that actors would ever stop acting for long enough to reveal their real selves to anyone? It was all an act, she wanted to shout at them sometimes, even the casual chats and confessional-style interviews. How on earth could anyone imagine otherwise? And who was this chit of a girl to offer the world her wisdom on Bollywood anyway? When people like herself, Zeba Khan, had slaved for years to make their way up its labyrinthine, treacherous corridors. Zeba’s beautiful face closed up. ‘Why don’t you make an appointment with my secretary for an interview. He will…’

      ‘I will most certainly, Madam. But I saw you sitting here, and if I can just ask you one or two things now. Just some basic questions…’

      Zeba darted another look around her before nodding reluctantly—where was bloody Gupta, or her PA, or Najma even. Her status allowed her to have as big a retinue as she wished on set, but what a strange way they all had of vanishing when you most needed them. ‘Well, you know, I have just one or two minutes before going on the set…’

      ‘Don’t worry, Madam, I will not take up much of your time. Just one question…’

      Zeba took a deep breath. This was one of those brazen ones who would not be shaken off. Some of these people had no shame, really, no sense of privacy. There were laws to protect the rich and the famous in other countries, but here in India, no bloody chance! Zeba put on her polite but resigned expression and nodded again.

      ‘Okay Thank you, thank you,’ the girl gushed, pulling out a bright yellow notepad. ‘Madam, Zebaji—may I call you Zebaji? Okay, Zebaji, please tell me when you first took up acting? I mean, when did you first think to yourself, “I am going to be a superstar”. A Bollywood thespian. Maybe Hollywood even!’

      Zeba parted Bollywood’s most famous luscious lips to dish out the usual reply…ever since I was a child…my parents, recognising my unusual talent, used to…la di la di la la la…Her patter had been perfected over the years. And the old Hollywood question too—she was sick to the teeth of it! As if all her hard-won success in India amounted to nothing if she failed to get the nod from Hollywood. Which Hollywood star could claim to have a fan-following that stretched to a billion people, for God’s sake! Weren’t journalists supposed to be intelligent people? But, just as Zeba was formulating her reply into polite language, she spotted Gupta hurrying across to her.

      ‘Madamji, you are being called onto the set. Immediately please!’ he said, taking his cue from Zeba’s glowering expression.

      Zeba threw a falsely apologetic look at the girl, who looked like a child that had suddenly had her lollipop snatched away from her. ‘I am so sorry,’ she said, getting up and smiling sweetly before turning to Gupta and saying, ‘Gupta-sahib, please take this author’s details and arrange a time with her for a proper interview. She is writing a book and we must help her. Okay?’

      Gupta nodded, his face a mask. Madamji’s acting was so good that he sometimes had to check later with her whether she really meant what she said in front of other people. Zeba had already turned away from the girl, thinking it best not to wait for a reply. Security in this place was not what it used to be, Zeba thought crossly as she hurried back to her rooms, carefully picking her way over the network of cables and wires that lay strewn across the floor of the studio. In the era of the big stars, journalists knew their place and never wrote badly of the celebrities, no matter what they got up to—bigamous marriages, name changes, even changing religions to suit their convenience. Nobody questioned anything. They were like Gods in those days, lording it over ordinary mortals from the big screen. Now everyone thought film stars could be their friends, thanks to their TV sets that took them right into people’s living rooms. But why journalists considered it their job to expose film stars and find something—anything—to destroy them, Zeba had never been able to work out. Didn’t they have politicians to chase any more?

      She closed the door behind her in relief, throwing herself down on the bed. Suddenly remembering the hours it had taken her hairdresser to get her seventies-style beehive hairdo just right, she hastily sat up again. Casting a quick look at the mirrored wardrobe, she breathed a sigh of relief. No damage done, thankfully. Zeba angled her face to examine herself in the mirror. Her skin glowed alabaster white, just turning a pale rose over her cheekbones. Her neck was smooth and curved downwards quite marvellously to shapely shoulders. She СКАЧАТЬ