Game. Justine Elyot

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СКАЧАТЬ you want some underwear shots first?’ she asks politely.

      ‘Nah.’ I look her in the eye as I unhook my bra then ease down my panties. I maintain a smile that I hope isn’t too forced. ‘Let’s start as we mean to go on.’

      I fling up my arms to reveal everything, my breasts rising to optimum presentability as my hands stretch high.

      ‘OK, OK, keep this pose, legs wide, arms up, looking straight at me. Lovely, perfect, that’s great, Sophie.’

      Light flashes, pow pow pow, while I face down the lens, my expression almost a scowl. Not a come hither, but a come and get it if you dare.

      I move to the chair and sit, legs akimbo, imagining the photographs and how Lloyd will feel when he sees them. I glare, thrust out my chest, kick out my legs, cup my breasts, snarl, muss my hair, bend my knees and, finally, when Sash has melted away and become her camera, I put my hand flat on my crotch, between my pussy lips and throw back my head.

      ‘Are you ready for this, Sophie?’ Sash’s voice is gentle and breathy. I wonder briefly if this turns her on. Is this her perversion?

      ‘Ready to wank for the camera? Bring it on.’

      She exhales, almost whistling, and lines herself up behind the viewfinder, hand on the button. Not the same button I have my hand on.

      ‘Tell me what gets you off, Sophie. What do you think about when you touch yourself?’

      ‘I think about how much I need it. How much I want a cock. How much I want to be bent over with something thick and hard pushing into me, pinning me down.’

      ‘Lovely. Go on.’ Pow pow pow. I draw languid circles around my clit.

      ‘I think of all the men I’ve had. Men and women. All the tongues that have licked me, all the arms that have held me down, all the come I’ve swallowed, all the cocks I’ve had in my cunt and my arse, so many, loads of them, loads of loads, all shot in me.’

      Pow pow pow. I breathe more deeply, dig more deeply, rubbing faster.

      ‘Are you really insatiable?’

      ‘God, yeah, ask anyone at the hotel. Ask Lloyd. He can do me four, five times a day but I’ll still try for more. Before we got together I used to pick up strangers, just because I wanted to. They used to offer me money, think I must be a prostitute. When they found out I was just a slut, they thought all their Christmases had come at once. They came back, and they brought their friends, and my life was one long, hot gang-bang, cock after cock after cock …’

      ‘But now Lloyd’s fucking you?’

      ‘Yeah, but he likes to watch too. He gets off on me being this horny bitch who needs it all the time. That’s why I’m here … I think … I can’t remember …’

      ‘Stop thinking. Just work yourself, get yourself there.’

      ‘He wants the world to know it. He wants everyone to know I’m a sex-mad whore with a cunt that’s open all hours. Everyone will see this, everyone will look at my face and see it … oh.’

      That’s it. It’s done. I have been staring at the camera lens all the while, but now, after one stunned stretch of my eyes I have to screw them shut, have to hide from that implacable gaze while the impulses sweep and swoop through my nervous system and gush out through my clit.

      ‘Oh Sophie,’ whispers Sash, clicking her last and rushing over to take my hands and stroke them. ‘That was perfect. That was astonishing. Are you all right?’

      ‘Uh-huh. Gimme a minute.’

      The doorbell rings.

      ‘Ah, that’ll be him.’

      I stop lolling and sit bolt upright, thighs clamped shut, arms crossed over breasts. Him?

      The solo shots are done, but there is more to come.

      Sash slips away down the stairs. I hear her unbolt and open the door, but the voices are too faint to pick up. As the sound of feet hits the steps again, I grab a fur throw out of the prop box and wrap myself in it before the company arrives.

      ‘Oh, don’t cover up on my account.’

      ‘Lloyd!’

      I give him my fiercest glare, but he is unruffled, threading his way past the tripod and camera towards me.

      ‘Who’s looking after the hotel?’

      ‘Kathleen’s fine for a couple of hours. There’s nothing exciting going on.’

      ‘Famous last words.’

      He touches the side of my face, just above my temple, but I draw away, angry with him about all kinds of things, only some of which I can identify.

      ‘Chill,’ he says. ‘Smile. You’re on candid camera.’

      ‘A bit too bloody candid,’ I grumble.

      ‘I thought you’d be in your element.’

      ‘Do you want to see what we’ve got so far?’ invites Sophie, and he goes to join her as she fast-forwards through a few digital stills.

      ‘Come and see, Sophie,’ he says, but I don’t want to look at them. ‘Suit yourself,’ he mutters.

      I watch him from the corner of my eye. His lips are curled up at one side, as if something amuses him, but his eyes are intensely focused, almost anxious. ‘I remember when you used to look at me like that,’ he says.

      ‘I was looking at you.’

      ‘Back when I worked in the cocktail bar. You always had this look. Kind of “I want you, but I hate that I want you, so I’ll pretend to myself that I don’t.” Remember?’

      ‘No. Because I didn’t want you. Not back then.’

      ‘Yes, you did.’

      His flat assertion needles me, and makes me question myself. Is he right? Did I want him without knowing it? What were the implications of that? Were my thoughts not to be trusted?

      Sash switches off the viewer and claps her hands, dispelling the tension. ‘So. Lloyd. You had some ideas for this section of the shoot, I believe.’

      ‘Yeah. Soph, come over here.’

      He sounds conciliatory, a little exasperated. He sits on the sofa and pats the space beside him. I wonder if he wants me to fail or succeed. Which would be the better outcome for him?

      I sit next to him, but not on the side he indicates. Instead, his discarded jacket lies between us, a no-man’s-land of light-grey pure wool.

      ‘What are you going to make me do?’

      ‘Oh goodness, I only photograph consenting subjects!’ exclaims Sasha. ‘There’s no forcing involved.’

      Lloyd turns so СКАЧАТЬ